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Ch. 01: DAMMED
This past year has been a very tough one. Six months ago my father died of a sudden heart attack while out running. Some fellow runners saw him stop, lean up against a tree and then use the tree as support as he slid down to a sitting position. Before anyone could give him first aid he expired. Everyone in my small family has taken it hard.
My Dad had been a wonderful man and truly loved by his entire family. He worked as a freelance film editor but he always had time to spend with me and my sisters. He was funny, very smart, and always found ways to both challenge and entertain his children.
As the months passed I noticed that grief had a physical cost, at least it did to my mother, grandmother, and Uncle Joe. Each one of them aged noticeably in the past six months. Grandma wrinkled dramatically and her hair quickly went from brown with some gray streaks to iron-gray to white. Uncle Joe also aged, going from looking fit and younger than his late fifties to gaining weight and lineaments to his features. His brown hair also became shot through with many strands of silver.
Mom also aged slightly gaining crow's feet and gray strands through her red hair.
Grief over my father's death had also had a profound psychological effect on me. It gave rise to a bizarre problem. Rather I should say that the grief caused the lack of rising. A few days after my father's death, I noticed to my great horror and fear that I'd become impotent. I visited Kaci, my girlfriend a couple of days after my father's death. She wanted to console me. Despite her enthusiastic efforts, I was unable to get an erection. Kaci was of course disappointed but understanding. However, her compassion over my plight soon dissipated as my condition continued.
After a week she insisted I talk to someone. Hell no, I wasn't going to do that. After two weeks of my impotency and stubbornness, she moved onto a new boyfriend. Fortunately, she wasn't vindictive and didn't tell anyone about my problem. However, I stopped dating entirely knowing that eventually, word would get around if I couldn't perform. The desire for sex was still there but the ability to perform was gone.
One of the main reasons I hadn't wanted to talk to anyone about my impotence was because the whole subject of sex frankly embarrassed me. Kaci often said I was the most uptight teenaged boy she had ever met. Unlike many of my peers, I wanted a romantic relationship with sex being a major component. I was never really that much into porn. I watched it occasionally when I was between girlfriends and my horniness became too much to contain. However my interests were quite vanilla, straight hetero sex between a guy and a girl about the same age as me without any kinky shit.
Frankly, some of the things my friends talked about, especially granny porn and incest porn, disgusted me to the point where I almost retched when they described the videos they watched.
However, there was another reason I didn't want to talk to anyone. There was an additional component to my condition. I wasn't entirely impotent. I had wet dreams, so I was still functioning. Yet no amount of porn or self-stimulation could get me erect. The only outlet I had were wet dreams which I could not remember.
Then the pandemic struck, school shut down and everyone was on lockdown. Despite how horrible the disease was, I was glad that I didn't have to go to school, see all those sexy girls, and be reminded of my emasculation every day. I was at home with my mom, two sisters, and grandma, women I shouldn't and couldn't be aroused by so my impotence wasn't always forefront in my mind.
After a few weeks into sheltering in place, however, I awoke in horror as my cock flooded my PJs with spunk. I just had a dream about my older sister sucking my cock! Now my sister is not hideous or anything. She is quite lovely but she is my sister after all. You can imagine the absolute disgust and abject horror that this wet dream gave me. I woke up and had to vomit into my wastebasket.
My wet dreams became ever more vivid and ever more perverted. In these dreams, I received blowjobs from my older sister, my younger sister, my mother, and even my grandmother. Then in my dreams, I moved on to fucking them. The nights became pure torture for me.
Almost every morning I woke up disgusted with myself for dreaming about violating one of my female relatives. What's worse after a few weeks of experiencing these wet dreams I found myself getting aroused when awake again. The first time this happened was after a particularly vivid dream of having sex with my Grandmother. I came down to breakfast and found my family already eating. They were all dressed in their usual combinations of sleepwear, Grandma in a thin nightgown, Mom in a short nightie and panties, my older sister Ellie in a cutoff tee shirt and sleep shorts, and Tiff my little sis in a pink onesie.
Influenced by my dreams I noticed for the first time how Grandma's nightgown clung to her aged but still lush form. And Mom and Ellie both exuded sexuality in their respective outfits. Tiff started giggling and pointed to my crotch. "Mommy! Henry has a woooodieee!"
I looked down and to my horror saw that not only did I have an erection but that it was poking out of my boxers. Ellie looked down and laughed, "Niiiiice, bro!"
Embarrassed and freaked out by what had happened I fled back to my room. I'd gotten rather lax about not wearing anything but boxers since my impotence began. I put on a pair of sweats but waited until I was certain everyone was gone from the kitchen.
As I was eating my mother came into the kitchen and sat down next to me. Her eyes twinkled with amusement and she gave me a little smile. "You didn't have to run back to your room, you know. You could have just tucked it back in. But in the future, it might be a good idea to wear more than underwear around the house."
"Weren't you disgusted by that, Mom?"
"It's just a dick, honey. And a nice one at that. You shouldn't be ashamed or embarrassed. All men get erections." She patted my hand "And if you feel a bit weird because it was one or all of us that caused your boner, well, we are all rather gorgeous," she laughed. "Besides with us being in close proximity to each other, it's only natural that you might be excited by sexy women, despite being related to them. And we're not about to start wearing burkas just to stop you from getting excited."
That was just the start of it however as the days passed it soon became apparent that my body reacted to my female relatives, and
only
to them. After I became erect once again from seeing my mom in her nightie I hurried to my room. I planned to expunge the taboo images in my mind by masturbating to porn and finally get some relief. However, my erection faded quickly, and watching porn failed to revive it.
I also learned there was another odd twist to my strange impotence. Not only were my mother, my sisters, and my grandmother the only women that aroused me, I only became so in proximity to them. Once I left their presence my cock went limp and no amount of coaxing would get a rise. In desperation, I even tried masturbating while thinking of the images of my mother, sisters, and grandmother but these also failed to achieve the desired result.
I threw myself into schoolwork and diverted my attention from my problem by reading and playing games. Due to the lockdown and diverting my attention, time passed by almost unnoticed.
One day while I was eating lunch and watching Futureman, my mother sat next to me on the sofa.
"I know it's not going to be a very great birthday for you this year, honey but I can order whatever you want and have it delivered."
I realized with a start that my nineteenth birthday was only two weeks away. I wasn't excited about it at all.
"Ahhh don't worry about it Mom, I really don't feel like celebrating. I think I'll skip it this year."
Mom scowled at me and angrily said, "Henry Delunn! You'll do no such thing! It's been a shitty year for everyone. The one thing that your family was looking forward to was celebrating your 19
th
birthday. Your sisters, your Grandma, and I have all ordered outfits for your party! So what kind of cake and ice cream do you want and what presents do you want!"
No amount of arguing on my part would dissuade her so I was resigned to having a 19
th