This is the tale of a young woman's journey of self-discovery. Initially the protagonist is unfamiliar with the correct terminology and use of various items and safe practices. Please forgive her many errors. Don't use this story as a how-to guide. There are several 'daydreams' in this story most are in fictional settings, the one at the University is imagined by the character. SHSU probably has rules against what is described.
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This is a work of fiction all of the fictional sexual activity described occurs between fictional characters who are at least eighteen fictional years of age.
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Let's eat grandma.
Let's eat, grandma.
I like commas, they save lives.
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SUNDAY NIGHT
I woke up snuggled up with and half on top of my little brother Peter with him holding me in his arms. I had to pee, that is probably what woke me up. But I was able to repress my body's need for a while, quite a while until Pete woke up on his own. I love Pete and I think I might 'be in love with' Pete so while I didn't get off the couch because I didn't want to wake him, I also didn't want to wake him because I needed time to think and I wanted to remain in his arms a little bit longer.
As we laid in one another's arms both barely awake but neither wanting to get up and leave our father came down the stairs.
"My, you two make a really cute couple."
Dad had meant it as a joke, but it was true, Peter and I did make a cute couple, more importantly a loving one. Peter got up and started to fold the blanket that we had shared the first night of what I was thinking might just turn out to be our courtship. As he did, I filled the carafe of the Mr. Coffee and scooped coffee into the pleated paper filter from the 1960's modern spun copper jar that I loved. There were four in descending size, flour, sugar, coffee and tea. Another relic of simpler times when Peter and I were more innocent, and we the four of us were all together.
The coffee made and in cups I started to cook our breakfast or maybe brunch, arguably an early lunch from the clock on the wall. As I was frying some eggs mom came in using her key, just another point of confusion in my life. Why weren't you here all along?
After a nice family breakfast we went down to the boathouse and took the boat out onto Lake Livingston for the afternoon. Entering the boathouse where we had observed Shelia and dad last night I couldn't help but notice that the larger storage room, the one with the green table and cuffs and paddles was securely locked. A deadbolt had been added above the familiar knob in the time since I was living in dad's house.
"Has there been any trouble out here?" I said pointing at the deadbolt.
"No, it just a hopefully unnecessary precaution."
Cavalier is not a place a sane criminal would choose to work, you pretty much have Huntsville 30 minutes west and Livingston an hour east with Highway 190 skirting the upper reaches of the lake connecting them. Detection equals capture, hiding in the National Forest or a long swim.
Mom was standing right there next to the door to the dungeon, did she know what dad did in there. It was all kind of surreal, did mom and dad ever play like Shelia and dad. Mom wearing a leather mask covering her eyes and a tall thick collar with silver rings and studs, cuffs buckled to her wrists, dancing a dance of pain. Did she enjoy having clamps attached to her nipples and attached to a rope which severely limited her ability to move. Did dad make her body tense up, bend her knees and elbows and scream into a gag. Had mom ever been dad's very kinky fuck-buddy.
My parent's relationship with each other perplexed me. They were best friends and totally supported each other, Peter and me. They both taught, mom at Sam Houston State University, dad at Robert Cavalier High School. They shared values and interests, they did things together. The were married for twelve years. Was this, kinky sex, why they were no longer married. Would Shelia Rhodes do what mom was uninterested or unwilling to do.
Except that it couldn't have been Shelia, mom and dad divorced ten years ago, Shelia Rhodes arrived the year before my freshman year, that was seven years ago. Shelia wasn't at RCHS ten years ago.
But it still might have been because mom wouldn't...
So why would Shelia, she must enjoy it, or at least enjoy what it does for her...
As my five-cent-psychiatrist would say, its about trust, the right kind of trust. Right now, I had the wrong kind of trust with Steve. I trusted him to not be there for me, to not put me first and to not notice me. If I did something extreme with Steve, he might just forget and leave me tied to the ceiling on a short rope by my nipple rings. Oh my God did I just imagine myself... Attached to the ceiling like Shelia... What is wrong with me?
I would trust dad, he wouldn't just leave me, he'd take care of...
Oh my God! Where did that thought come from.
I would trust Pete, it might be fun to be Pete's love-slave. Pete loves me, you know like a brother. I can work on that. Pete would take really good care of me get me all 'dorphed up' like we said on the cross-country team, not let me get hurt.
It didn't horrify me that thought of being submissive to Peter, why? Trust?
Logic was failing me right now. My father is into electrocuting his fuck-buddy, I know its not really electrocuting but I don't actually know what it is called. Maybe I should ask Janet, Ms. Carson our research librarian at SHSU.
"Excuse me do you have a book on how to safely electrocute your sex partner, it's for my dad."
"Why yes, here it is 'Zapp!' by Raylene Frizz," she says, "oh I'm sorry it is checked out. It seems to be very popular. I can put you on the waiting list."
"OK, do you have a guesstimate when it might be available?"
"Let me check," said Ms. Carson stepping behind a bookcase.
A few minutes later Ms. Carson emerged from stacks in a tiny red bikini top over a black leather mini-skirt and white thigh boots with six-inch heels. "There seem to be thirteen names on the waiting list, but I do have this book on lesbian dildo bondage."
"Well, I don't know."
"Oh, all of the librarians love it."
She handed me the book and picked up a long skinny box that a half-dozen roses might have been in. The box contained a small tub of Crisco and an eighteen-inch long dildo with a white leather harness.
"Take your clothes off and follow me to the circulation desk and we will get you all checked out." Ms. Carson said as the other librarians gathered around wearing leather swimsuits, nipple rings and silver chains.
WHAT? Where is this coming from?
It was very relaxing being in the boat on the lake, we sailed to and fro, drank some sun-tea and ate the sandwiches that dad had made. Several times I maneuvered myself into a position where Peter would end up holding me or sitting tightly beside me. He seemed to get it moving to and not away from me. Once I ended up in his lap. God it felt so natural being there.
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All good things end and that evening I returned to Steve's apartment near campus. It was time to put my plan into action, I was going to move out of Steve's apartment slowly and see if he noticed or objected. I called him from dad's house and asked him if he wanted to go out to dinner tonight.
"Don't worry about me I will just grab something from the fridge, this paper is kicking my ass."
Yeah, right. I was hurt by Steve not coming, and doubly hurt because he was bullshitting me, Steve was very bright, but he did not possess much initiative. He would wait till the last moment and then spend two hours writing a paper the day before, sometimes the morning before it was due. Handed in with the ink still wet it would still garner the class' highest grade. So, as I drove the twenty-five-minute drive west through the National Forest I was less than thrilled.
I wondered where Steve was when I got to his apartment, I had called and he knew I was coming. Oh well, I took a shower. No Steve, so I got dressed and started to collect my stuff together. I was just starting to get my first load together when he came back from wherever he had been.
"Hi, how was everything at your father's?"
Well at least he remembered where I had been. I started to answer but he just walked over to the word processor and began typing the paper that was due on Monday, one that he has had two weeks to write. The one he used as an excuse to not come with me two days ago. I returned to work slowly gathering my clothing and toiletries, my books and albums. Carrying them down it must have been six or seven loads. Filling my tiny trunk and then starting on the backseat of my German Mustang. I continued to collect items as Steve left the apartment, all he had was his floppy disc and some typing paper, so he was obviously off to use Clayton's inkjet printer.