"Hi honey!"
"Hi mom! Come on in!" I excitedly took her suitcase and embraced my mother before letting her in. She had come to stay for Christmas with me, not wanting me to be alone on my first Christmas away from home.
"Wow, this is a pretty big apartment! So how are you? Feeling lonely without your sister?" she asked, slipping off her shoes and surveying the living room. This was the first time my mom had seen the place, as I had just moved in a few months prior with my sister, Kayli, when my university classes started.
"No, I'm fine mom. She'll only be gone a few weeks," I answered. Kayli was on a trip to Mexico with a few of her friends for winter vacation.
"Well, I wish she would have left a few days later so I could've seen her for Christmas," she sighed. She seemed very lonely, something that I had never seen in her. My father had died when I was young, leaving her to take care of us alone, but she never complained, and did a great job of raising Kayli and I. "I miss you guys so much. It was bad enough when Kayli left last year, but now that you're gone too I don't have much to do."
She walked over to me and hugged me, resting her head on my shoulder while I embraced her.
"What about Dan? You've been seeing him for almost a year now," I inquired, speaking of her boyfriend. She hesitated for a split second, just long enough for me to notice.
"We're fine, but it's different without my babies," she said, looking into my eyes. She held my cheeks and smiled at me before kissing me on the cheek, as she always did.
"How about I take you out for a nice dinner?"
"Aww, I'd love that! Let me just get changed first."
"You don't need to, you look great!"
"Oh shush. Where can I get dressed?"
"Kayli's room is right behind you." I took her suitcase into my sister's bedroom and closed the door after letting my mother inside, giving her some privacy. I felt warm inside, like I was back at home, no longer a man on his own, but a boy with his mother.
* * *
"You really didn't have to get dressed up," I told my mom, holding her hands in mine on the table. I had taken her to a little Italian restaurant in the city, which was only about half-full, as it was past nine o'clock on a Monday night, with only a few days before Christmas.
"I've gotta look good for my little boy," she grinned. She had just turned forty a few months ago, but she was still strikingly beautiful; her lush auburn hair still shone vibrantly in the candlelight, her deep blue eyes sharp and endearing, not even the slightest hint of a wrinkle on her face. She wore a long black dress which hugged her figure perfectly, the gold necklace with diamond pendant that I had given her last Christmas hanging over her large, supple breasts, complimenting the two diamond earrings that sparked beneath her wavy hair. She sported matte-black high heels to match her dress, displaying her unbelievable feet; the high arches, smooth skin which showed no sign of age, and delectable toes, which were painted dark red to match her hair. She had added a few pounds to her figure over the recent years, although she was nowhere near chubby. In fact, it seemed to add to her allure; her legs were to die for, not to mention her busty chest and round butt.
I noticed that I had grown erect and immediately felt ashamed and disgusted, but her warm smile and soothing voice drowned out my guilt. I squeezed her soft, thin hands, admiring her fair, almost pale skin, untarnished by marks or freckles, her creamy skin the smoothest I'd ever felt.
We got lost in conversation, catching up on each other's lives over the past few months in between mouthfuls of pasta, filling in what we hadn't mentioned during our numerous talks on the phone. It felt as if we'd never been apart, as inseparable as we ever were, but there was something different. She looked at me like she never had before; her eyes were always understanding, compassionate, and loving, except now her eyes fell upon mine in a much deeper tone, purposeful and intent, but on what I didn't know.
It was after eleven that we got back to my apartment, still talking and listening and laughing together. She pulled off her heels and we sat on the black leather couch together, my eyes wandering to her creamy legs whenever her gaze fell elsewhere, her heavenly feet toying with my emotions.
"Do you want a massage honey?" she asked me, standing on the couch on her knees. "You look tense."
"I'm fine mom," I resisted weakly, but I never could say no to my mom. Her hands pushed against my shoulders and I slid forward, giving her enough room to kneel behind me. She pulled off my shirt and rubbed my back, her gentle hands pressing on my spine and shoulder blades. We fell silent, only the sound of our breathing and of her hands rubbing against my skin audible. She drew herself straight up on her knees, her warm hands rhythmically massaging my neck and shoulders.
"Oh, that feels amazing mommy," I moan, letting myself lean on her body, my head resting on her stomach, just touching the bottoms of her breasts.
"Good. Just relax sweetheart, mommy will take care of you," she said sweetly. Her fingers found every knot in my neck, shoulders, and back, then my jaw, her slight fingers pressing the sensitive point under my ears.
After giving me the best massage I ever had, she lowered herself down and wrapped her arms around me, my hands holding hers while her cheek pressed against mine.
"Do you want to lay down with your head in my lap? You always used to do that when you were a kid, and then you'd fall asleep," she whispered, kissing me lightly on the cheek.
"I'd love that," I accepted, putting my legs across the couch while she sat down. I lowered my head into her lap, resting on her silky smooth thighs that were mostly hidden by her dress, holding her left hand on my chest while her right tenderly brushed my hair. I closed my eyes and relaxed, completely forgetting about the erection pushing on my jeans, which was undoubtably noticeable, but she didn't say a word.
I tried to doze off, but I was nowhere near tired. The gentle touch, her soft hand brushing my forehead and hair with the care only a mother could display, was meant to ease me into sleep, yet it was filling me with lust. I did the best I could to pretend I was sleeping, to pretend I wasn't having impure thoughts, but I could never hide anything from my mother. She took her hand from my chest and rested her palm on my forehead.
"I've got something for you," she whispered. I opened my eyes and saw her fingers grab onto the left strap of her dress, pulling it over her smooth shoulder, down her arm, unveiling the top half of her left breast...
"Mom?!" I said, grabbing her hand to stop her from going farther. Instinct had taken over, and even though I wanted her more than anything, she was still my mother. Our eyes locked, mine with surprise and hers with the glow of motherly love. "What are you doing?"
She took my hand and put it back by my side, then placed a finger on my lips as if to shush me.