It's all pretty twisted. It's certainly incestuous. It can also get wildly kinky and very erotic. And I'm loving it! But I think it all came from some very innocent motives. But, of course, I think my motives are innocent. Because, well, they're mine. So I'm hardly objective.
I had realized Mom had been unhappy with her marriage for a long time. She felt neglected and unfulfilled. She started hanging out in Online Chat Rooms, talking about her sexual fantasies. But Mom doesn't know much about computers. It wasn't hard for me to figure out which Chats she was hanging out in online. Mom didn't even know about browser histories. So, I created some pseudonym personas, some sock puppets, fake names, and I followed my Mom into some of those chats.
You see, I had been afraid that Mom was looking for someone to cheat on Dad with. And maybe she was. But more, she was just lonely, frustrated and horny, and curious about exploring her sexual fantasies. I started anonymously corresponding with her. We chatted, first in the Public Rooms, then via Instant Messages and email, and then later VOIP, Internet Voice Chats. I thought that by keeping her occupied and out of the Public Chats, I could guide her back toward sharing more of her fantasies with Dad, and put a spark back into their marriage.
But a strange thing happened. Many of Mom's fantasies involved giving in to her submissive nature. She wanted to be sexually wild, but she needed the guidance of a stronger dominant in her life to unlock her inner slut. I started fantasizing about being that Dominant Man. The fantasies we shared together online became my fantasies too. I realized that I wasn't just keeping my mother away from other strange men online. I was keeping her for myself. We were fantasizing together, sometimes simultaneously masturbating. It was so erotic. I became obsessed with the idea of taking my mother for myself. Taking her. Fucking her. Having her service and worship my cock. Having her be my submissive!
It had gone on like that for weeks. I came to know my mother's sexual fantasies better than she did. I don't know if she confessed to being attracted to her Son or if I guided her to say that. But those fantasies came out during our correspondence and talks online. Sometimes it feels like we have this epic, psychic sexual connection. I really don't believe in ESP. But some of the coincidences in our developing sexual relationship seem like more than just coincidence.
I love my mother very much. She has also blossomed into this smoking hot mama! She is the most freakin' sexy woman I can imagine. And, yes, it gives me an incestuous thrill to know that I'm having sex with my Mom. And, I know that I have been put in a position of power, where I can and continue to mold my mother into my perfect fantasy lover. The weird thing is, more often than not, I feel like I'm the one being molded. I guess that's not so strange, for a Mother to influence and mold her son. But is a sexual submissive really supposed to mold their Dominant?
Anyway, by the time I had gotten up the courage to finally "meet" my mother face to face, and exchange our online and phone sex games for real sex, I think she had mostly figured out (or maybe she was hoping) that her "Secret Santa Dom" was me. My mother might have been naive about computers and sex, but she's a very smart woman. And there had been some subtle and maybe a few obvious clues that her online, virtual lover and Master was me. I guess I wasn't as clever about hiding my identity as I thought.
But, what followed was a wild sexual awakening for both of us. We explored our fantasies together, and invented new ones! And it wasn't difficult keeping it all hidden from my Dad. Over the years, he had become more and more oblivious to his family. He was letting his work consume him, and he was also having his own secret sexual relationship with my Uncle Nick.
Now, that's another story. From my perspective my Dad's sexual relationship with his older brother is twisted and abusive. Maybe I'm not in a position to judge, or maybe I'm the perfect judge. Nick had been sexually dominating my Dad for more than a quarter century. It was a relationship that had turned sexual before my Dad even met my Mom, when my father was eighteen.
So, as my mother's Master, her Dom, I want to open my Mother up to be the most free and sexually fulfilled person she can possibly be. But what my Uncle Nick had been doing was the opposite of that. Nick had repressed my Dad and filled his head with homophobic garbage. Nick made my Dad feel weak, ashamed and unsure of himself. Nick took his pleasure from my Dad, and didn't return anything! He convinced my Dad that sex was ugly, that my Dad is ugly and unlovable. In short, Uncle Nick really did a number on my Dad's head. He messed him up, bad.
I've never been close Uncle Nick. And I've been scared to confront him about this. I'm afraid of physically hurting the man. My mother never liked him much, and she hates him now.
Now, I had never given up the notion that fucking my mom and using her as my personal slut and fuck-toy was somehow my attempt to make my Mom and Dad's marriage stronger. I know. I was probably lying to myself. But I thought, it was better me than Mom finding sex from some stranger, someone who might try to convince Mom to leave Dad.
So I concocted this plan. I would reveal to Dad just how sexy and slutty I had trained Mom to become. Months earlier, even when we were just corresponding, I had instructed Mom to tone up her body with a regimen of exercise, nutrition, and regular masturbation. She took to it all with a fervor bordering on zealotry. And as her body firmed, and became more fit and took on an even sexier shape, she also awoke more and more sexually! She lost about 25 pounds. Pilates and Dance Aerobics revealed my mom has a strength, suppleness and cat-like grace she claims she never had before. My mother has a sexy shape that my once demure mother enjoys flaunting now. Mom says she feels the fittest and healthiest she ever has. And I have to admit, she looks hot. No, she's is on beyond hot. Oh, she's always been a pretty woman. But she had been wearing frumpy clothes. And she didn't know how to take charge of her own sex appeal. Her hairstyle had usually been just pulled back in a ponytail, or sometimes up in a bun. Before, Mom's transformation, she was probably a 6 or 7.5 on a good day, when she dressed up. She was pretty, but not phenomenal. Now, her hairstyle is in a retro, Bettie Page cut. And with her new more flattering figure and figure flattering clothes, just a tiny bit of makeup to make her large green eyes pop, she's a 10 plus now. Seriously, I've seen men bump into shit when she walks by at the Mall now. I've taken her out clubbing. She easily passes for a woman ten years younger than her 43 years. I can see the looks of envy and lust on the faces of both men and some women, when my Mom shakes it or grinds me on the dance floor.
So my plan was to show my father what a gorgeous and willing submissive he had for a wife. I was going to explain that all he needed to do was step up to the plate and be the dominant male presence that Mom desires, and I would have been willing to mostly step aside. I couldn't imagine giving my Sub up completely. The sex was too mind-blowingly fantastic. But I was willing to share. I thought I might even be willing to let Dad call the shots. I would have been subordinate male. Maybe. After all, he is my Dad. I would've stepped aside and let Dad be the Top Dog, the Alpha Male, the Master of the House. I think I could have stepped aside. Maybe. I don't know.
There was just one problem with my plan. Something I didn't know. Dad was even more naturally submissive than my Mom! He couldn't Dominate Mom. He didn't know how. And he felt an even deeper, darker desire to submit.
And I discovered that I enjoyed Dominating my father almost as much as Mom. My father has a lithe, supple, dancer's body (seriously, he had studied ballet as a kid, and was part of College Dance Company). Now, he kept in shape by running and studying Aikido at a local dojo on Saturday afternoons. He has a thin, androgynous face. His features are cool and European. In pictures, he sometimes looks like David Bowie, or Nico from the Velvet Underground. It's a serious face with dark, sad eyes. He's about the same height my mother, about 5'9" tall, maybe slightly taller.