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Author's note
I'm posting the whole novel at once to keep individual chapters from getting assigned to other categories. The first scene involving incest does not occur until a little later on, but this is ultimately a story about a guy who falls in love with his mother. You might need to be a little more patient with this one than other stories on this site, but I hope some of you will find the journey to be worthwhile.
There is no connection between this tale and the Homelands, which I do intend to revisit. This was a side project that I felt I needed before I could return to the Homelands with a fresh perspective. I had meant for this to be a stand-alone but realize now that there's room for a sequel. Let me know in the comments if you'd like to see that happen.
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Chapter One
Dan plopped down onto the sofa, sighed, and put his feet up. "I don't get it," he said for the manyth time that night. "If she needed an excuse to dump me, why not go with the whole `I'm headed off to college, while you're sticking around here' angle?"
Caleb stared across the coffee table at Dan's shoes. He didn't stop grinding herbs with that old-fashioned mortar and pestle, though. Nor say a word. His thick tangle of a beard hid any expression that might have made its way onto his face as well.
All the same, Dan got the message. "Sorry," he said, feet returning to the carpet.
The guy wasn't a stickler for that sort of thing. He didn't make Dan use a coaster or take his shoes off as soon as he walked in the door. But Caleb did take his herbal stuff seriously. Or at least pretended to because that was somehow ironic. There was no telling with hipsters. Not that it really mattered—Dan knew better than to put his shoes up on the coffee table. His mom hadn't raised him to be so rude.
It didn't help that the coffee table had sat in his living room until a few months ago, though. After his dad had died, his mom had decided that the only way they could afford to stay in their house was to convert the attic above the garage into an apartment and rent it out for additional income. The refrigerator and microwave were new, but a lot of the furniture had come from the house. That made it easy for Dan to forget that he was a guest. He probably felt more at home in the apartment than its current occupant did.
Or maybe his broken heart had put him in a selfish mood. Convinced him that he had the right to do whatever he felt like doing, with no expectation of anyone calling him out.
"What does that even mean, she didn't trust herself with me?" Dan asked before taking a swig from the bottle Caleb had given him. Surprisingly enough, it contained regular beer. Well, if "regular" left room for it being so hoppy that it felt like his palate was being attacked by grapefruit and pine resin. It looked like something you could buy in the grocery store, at any rate, whereas it wouldn't have surprised Dan if the only thing on offer had been moonshine. Caleb liked to do things the old-fashioned way. He even made his own
soap
.
"The thing is, she was really into me." Dan took another sip, followed by a grimace. As a stupid teenager, his opinion on such matters only counted for so much, but he didn't see what was wrong with good ol' Budweiser. "At least, it seemed like she was," he continued. "I mean, the sex...," he started to say, before realizing how vain and insecure that made him sound. He hated being such a stereotype, yet couldn't help himself sometimes.
Did Caleb need to hear any of this? No. But Dan needed to say it, and he didn't think it
bothered
Caleb anymore than it interested him. Nothing ever did. He just kept working that stone pestle, like he couldn't even hear Dan. If someone tried to get him to shave that beard of his, that might get a rise out of him, but short of that?
"I know, at my age, everyone always think they're in love, and that it will last forever," Dan said. He sometimes thought that no one over the age of thirty realized that teenagers were self-aware enough to know when they were acting like teenagers. Granted, most kids his age probably
didn't
, but still. "Give us the smallest bit of emotional intimacy and we think it's a sign that we've found our soul mates. Give us
physical
intimacy, and we'll assume the emotional sort comes with it, as sort of a package deal."
"But you two were different?" Caleb asked, the corner of his mouth curling ever so slightly upward. At least, Dan thought so. It was hard to tell with all that brown shrubbery.
"I guess not," Dan said.
"Maybe she meant what she said," Caleb offered. He emptied the mortar into a bowl then scooped more herbs out of a mason jar. "Have you considered that possibility?"
"About not trusting herself with me?" The man nodded. Dan gave that some thought then decided that, no, it really didn't make sense.
"I suspect there was more going on than typical teenage infatuation," Caleb said. "But not because the two of you were special. Because
you're
special."
Was he...hitting on Dan?
"It'll be the same with the next girl," he continued. "And the one after that. Eventually, you'll learn to control it, though. Let their emotions develop without manipulation."
Dan sat upright. "Hey. Who said I—"
"I did," Caleb said. "And you did, though I'm sure you didn't realize it." He pointed down at his herbs. "You know what this is?"
It sounded like a rhetorical question, but one that Dan should answer. "Incense?"
"And what do you suppose it does?"
Dan shrugged. "Smell nice when you burn it?"
"Well, yes, that too. More importantly, though, it cloaks your aura." The man's words weren't laden with mysticism or reverence, the way they probably should have been.
"Meaning what?"
"Just what it sounds like," Caleb said. "Auras are real.