Finally the day I’ve been waiting for so long had come. I was going home after more than 7 months in hospital. Seven months ago my husband and I had a very bad accident with our car. My husband died in our car. I survived the accident but was injured very bad. I broke both my legs, several rips and my left arm. All these fractures are healed but I still do have problems with both of my arms. Although I can feel everything with my fingers I do not have any power in them. If I want something to be done I always need help.
It was Mike my 18 year old son who brought me home. He had cared about everything while I wasn’t home. He is such a lovely boy.
“It’s good to be home after such a long time.”
“It’s good to have you back home, mum.”
“I think it is time to talk about some things, Mike. I think there are some things that we have to talk about. There are some things we must change.”
“Okay, mum, what you have in mind, tell me!”
“I employed a maid to do the housework. You know she will fix everything around and in the house and keep everything tidy. That will give you the time you need for college. Is that ok with you, Mike?”
“That’s fine!”
“Next thing is that I will need someone who looks after me. I mean I need someone who will wash me who will fix my hair and who will dress me and all this things ‘cause my arms don’t work anymore you know. First I thought about a nurse but after 7 months in the hospital I have enough of all the nurses. I would love you to take care of me. I mean you can wash me before you leave for college in the mornings and on weekends I want you to help me to take a bath. What do you think?”
“It sounds a little bit strange ‘cause you are my mum but if that is what you want then that’s the way it will be.”
“I hoped you would say this. The is another point we have to talk about. I know lots of things have changed since the accident. Your dad died and I was away for seven month but I think there are still things to come that will change. That’s why I want us to be absolutely open and honest to each other in everything, honey.”
“This should not be a problem I think.”
“Don’t be to sure about this I guess there will be times when it becomes hard do be open and honest to each other.”
“Will see! – Will you rest a bit while I prepare dinner for us?”
“That’s a great idea. You’re such a sweetheart, Mike.”
I went upstairs to the master bedroom. It looked like it did before the crash. My husbands clothes and all his other things were still there. It was hard to be remembered. The first weeks after the crash were very hard and I cried a lot but slowly I learned to deal with it. I learned to handle the fact that he was gone for ever. But seeing all his stuff again made me cry again. This was the moment when I made the decision to through all the things away that could me remind me. This would be the first thing our maid will have to do tomorrow. I laid done onto my bed and closed my eyes.
I must have fallen asleep ‘cause when I opened my eyes Mike was sitting next to me and said that dinner was prepared and waiting downstairs.
We had dinner together and talked about this and that but I felt really tiered and went to bed about 9:30 p.m.. I called for Mike to help me with the night-gown. He came upstairs and into the my bedroom. He didn’t turn on a light. Very careful he helped me. We kissed and said good night and then he left.
“Mike, wait a second. I don’t need you tomorrow morning. A nurse from the hospital will come around and help me with everything but that is the first and last time she will help me so you can sleep as long as you like to before you have to leave for college!”
“OK, mum. Sweet dreams.”
With this words he left me alone and went into his room.
Before I felt asleep again I thought about what life will be in future. Will we be able to be as open and honest as I wanted us to be? What will his reaction be when he will wash me. How will I react when he does so … I fall asleep.
The next morning I woke up the sun lightly touched my face. I heard someone knocking on my door. I called the person in. It was the nurse. She helped me as professional as every morning and half an hour later she left. I went downstairs into the kitchen. Mike had prepared breakfast for me before he left. ‘He’s such a sweetheart’, I thought to myself. It took me about 45 minutes to eat my breakfast. I just had finished when the doorbell rang. It was the maid. A tall white woman – I guess about 5’10 – with a nice inviting figure about 25 years old. Her black hair reached down her shoulders and perfectly framed her pretty face. She has big green eyes that make her look a little bit like a cat. Her lips are full and make the mouth look very tempting. She has a perfect body. Her breasts are very small an A cup I guess. She doesn’t wore a bra under her white shirt and so her nipples which seem to be really big showed through it. She wore a pair of blue jeans and some black high-heels that made her even look taller and more sexy.
“Hi I’m Lisa, I’m the maid.”, she said smiling at me.
“Hi, I’m Jane. Please come in.”
We went to the kitchen and had a cup of coffee together while we chatted about her job.
“OK, Lisa, first of all I want you to know that there is know closed door for you. You can open all closets and walk into any room. You can open any drawer. I want you to fell absolutely free. Today I want you to clean up the master bedroom and get all the things that belonged my husband out. I just keep a photo and my memories of him. All the rest can be thrown away.”
“Okay, Jane, is there anything else I should know or is there something else for me to do today?”
“No, that’s all for today.”
I showed Lisa the way to the bedroom and then left her alone. I sat down at the couch in the living room and watched some TV and read some magazines. About four hours later Lisa came down and told me everything was cleaned up. “All the things are out now. Oh, I hope you don’t get me wrong now, in the closet I found some sex toys, porn magazines, adult movies and some photos of you. I left them where I found them. I’m sorry about this.”
“No reason to be sorry about I told you you can open every door and this what you did. And I think we are both of age and we know about sex, sex toys and porn, don’t we?”
“Yes we do. I didn’t expect you to be so cool about the sex stuff. May I ask you a question?”
“Sure, what ever you want to, Lisa.”
“I was wandering about all the vibrators and dildos you have. I counted 21 of them. Have used all of them?”
“Sure I did. My hubby always bought me one before he left for a business trip. He never wanted me to fell alone and always wanted me to get my needs and sexual wishes fulfilled. You know we had a very good sex life.”
“But some of them are very big. Doesn’t they hurt you?”
“Not at all. The bigger the better. If you are in heat and your really wet they can drive you crazy. Maybe you should try one. What do you think? Let’s go upstairs and you take the one you like most. How about that?”
