Taking ownership
Part 1: somewhere, sometime, something.
Is love nothing more than a chemical imbalance, or a genetic quirk, which pushes us, higher thinking beings, in acting in a way which increases the chances of those who share said genes to survive. Dive into an altercation with very little chances of survival, surrender our immediate wants for our others future success. And what is right and wrong, if you feel the pull, on what level are you to deny and tear away from your longing. Or do you embrace the here and now, enjoy the fires warmth, in full knowledge that the fuel, the wood used may eventually expire, leaving you once again foraging. If you have happiness, direction and fulfilment, can you refute other's rights in finding the same. A haven for us to rely upon, but, if we look deeper, as reasoning beings we can see the flaw in logic, we desire, need and want. But in the end we are torn in two, the person, who desires love and the person who logically denies love exists. So what truly is love, my answer is... I don't know, but I feel the pull.
With all things, is it a culmination of time, a series of events and depending upon your views on the dynamics of what should constitute a sibling relationship. We have no epic catalytic event that bound us together, no trauma or belonging to a subset of society that would have resulted in our pairing.
If anything we belonged to a normal, if not conservative family unit, with a loosely conservative upbringing, religious but not overly so. We ended up together, if the semi submissive nature of one of the party, affects the true definition of the concept then so be it.
My names Mark 20 years of age, not tall but not lacking in height enough to be considered short, supporting a light recession on my hairline, which I've always kept cropped short. Wide shouldered, fairly well muscled, former wrestler and natural weight lifter, I am not a gifted runner. Through my heritage from the Indian subcontinent and ancestry of Persian, gifted with dark brown eyes and long lashes, eye brows that native format are almost scalped and sharply angled.
I live with my parents, and siblings, 3 sisters Maryam 22, Maria 18 and Sara 15, and a young brother 12. A house large enough to have sizable bedrooms, my two younger sisters share a room. I strangely have one of the larger rooms, elder sister a box room, parents on a lower floor, the room below mine.
My elder sister Maryam, a head shorter than me, usually wore her hair short, ample but not large chest around the B range, lithe with a great butt. Maria was a lot different, attractive, wider framed great C chest and a nice big butt but not weighty, brunette hair long just past shoulder length, she was the girl you dream of when girls of more classical beauty lose your interest.
Generally speaking I got along with my siblings, antagonistic with Maryam, very well with Maria. The rest in varying degrees of sharing the same living space. Which is where the story begins.
Our father, would often offer out my bedroom to visiting family friends, when they visited from abroad. Normally these visits would last months as they would travel around the country, conducting their business activities. Which made me nomadically left to bunk up with my two sisters, who had a bunk bed in their room, a single top tier and double bottom tier, so space was never an issue.
Being a somewhat late bloomer academically, my enrolment into university was delayed enough for me to begin my tenure at the same time as my sister Maria. Both opting to study and live at home, went to the same fairly easily commutable university. I went onto a Computer Science course, Maria some sort of studies in Religion and Humanities.
It was during one of these said visits, needing to work off some tension, I made my way to my sisters room, mine no longer a sanctuary for a guy needing solo time. A day spent in the company of attractive ladies, casually flirting and using their charms to get some academic assistance had left me keyed up. Operating on the door closed knock, door open come in policy, I walked straight in. And was greeted to the sight of Maria's amble bosom, arrested in a white bra, she was applying some lotion to her face, and therefore unable to see me.
The mechanics of her application made her two prisoners on her chest sway. Mesmerising me as they slightly jingled, as if sailors on the deck of a storm tossed vessel. I was rooted in place, not awkward or embarrassed in the least, and no stranger to the female form, I none the less never failed to show my veneration when it was put on display.
My logic here: The world is a garden, women are the flowers and it would be rude not to admire them, especially when they spent so much time pruning.
Not wanting to get caught ogling, I lightly retreated and gave it a silent 5 count, then walked in, making a point to be loud enough to be heard. Maria didn't even flinch, she remained sitting on her knees, on the floor facing a giant mirror which faced one of the two wardrobes, that dominated the room. As if I wasn't aware of her state, I exclaimed an apology, and made to slowly turn away, going side profile, as I turned away.
We maintained eye contact, she noticed tell tale sign of my obvious interest, Maria's eyes darted to my tented trousers, a smile perked up on the corner of her mouth. At this point I'd become aware that my body had betrayed and exposed me, trying to brush it off, I made my exit. But I swear I heard her mutter "nnnnooooooo...".
With the three bathrooms of the house engaged, my room not mine to use, and nowhere else isolated enough for me to seek relief. I went to the communal study area and sat on my office chair and day-dreamed. Fantasising of rather than walking away, gripping Maria from the neck pushing her to the wall, shoving my tongue down her throat, nibbling her ear, kissing her neck, tearing off her bra, emancipating her breasts and suckling her nipples, and then pushing her back on her kneels and face fucking her until I unload completely in the gullet.
After an hour in my reverie, I went down when called to dinner. I sat opposite Maria, her eyes alight with mischief, and attempted to waffle down, very manly, as much meat as I could. Maria, I swear did everything she could to be distracting, to fluttering her T-shirt, complaining about being too warm. Going as far as tonging her food before it entered her mouth, and even licking some sauce off her hand, all the while, maintaining eye contact.
Lunch thankfully ended and as I attempted make "use" of a bathroom, Maria, bane of my existence ran in before me, giggling as she did so. The other bathrooms also became occupied as other began getting ready for bed / evening. Defeated and pent up, I decided to hit the sack, if the world was working against me, I can retreat to a more defendable position, within my own mind. Heading to bed I ran erotic fantasy one after the other, some fairly mundane to some borderline insane, mentally practising gravity defying feats that could break both parties involved.
As evening progressed into night, the house locked up tight and the occupants in varying degrees of unconsciousness. I myself wide awake and in need of release, debated my next move. Options, bathroom; cold, study; too public, in bed?
My logic: being in a room, is no different then being out of line of sight, is there truly a difference? That's my rational and it worked.