I’ll start by quoting a great opening:
"What's the worst thing you've ever done?"
"I won't tell you that, but I'll tell you about the worst thing that ever happened to me."
-Ghost Story
Instead, I'll do the reverse of that.
I won't tell you about the worst thing that ever happened to me.
But I will tell you about some of the good things that have happened to me.
Let me tell you about my first taste of the sweet nectar of family love.
I was raised in my grandparent's house after my mother had abandoned me.
My sister, two years older, was bounced through foster homes until my father remarried and his new wife insisted on taking over parenthood to get out of the child support payments.
By then we were teenagers.
She graduated the next year and stayed home while she went to college.
I stayed with my grandparents, and graduated only a year after her – I was the nerd of the family.
Each weekend, I visited my father - he had a ranch.
Really, I went there to be with my sister.
She had always seemed to enjoy taking care of me and gave me anything I wanted. Amongst my hobbies was reading. I had always read materials that were intended for older audiences. My sister had given me a book and told me to hide it and not read it until I got home. That was my first temptation.
The book was about a professional bowler and his very explicit exploits during his life on the professional circuit. I stayed up late using a flashlight under the covers to read about the assignations this fellow gleefully accepted in his wanderings.
On one of my weekend visits, my sister was recuperating from a twisted ankle and a fever she had contracted. There was an important horse show, my father and step-mother desperately to attend, so they left me to take care of my sister. Being alone with her led to my second temptation and what this story is about.
My sister asked me to come into her bedroom and talk to her so she wouldn’t be lonely and bored. Once there, she asked me if I liked the book she gave me. I assured her that I did very much and dragged it out of my pack, showing her the worn edges and how much I had read. She asked me to sit next to her and read my favorite part.
Obediently, I sat on the floor next to her bed and opened the book. I turned to a scene where the bowler had just returned to his room after losing an exhausting match. He’d just gotten out of the shower and was still wrapped in a towel when someone knocked on his door. Without thinking, he simply walked to the door and opened it.
Outside was a woman he had seen at the tournament. Only, there she had been wearing clothes. She asked if he was going to invite her in, or make her stand there until the hallway filled with fans. He pulled her into the room and shut the door. Of course, by doing so, his towel fell and they both stood there with nothing between them but the air.
At this point, my sister asked if I had ever seen a woman with nothing on before. I told her that I had never seen a girl in a bikini, let alone naked, not even in a picture, though I knew that there were magazines with pictures of naked girls. She asked me if I would like to see a naked girl. I said, sure, not knowing what she had in mind.
Then she pulled the covers back, showing me she was wearing nothing at all.
I don’t know how long I simply stared at her glorious body, taking in every detail, etching them into my memory for all time. Her pale skin was like a freshly prepared canvass for the masterpiece that I saw. Her budding breasts had perfectly rounded nipples the color of fresh raspberries and made my mouth water. She was neither skinny nor fat, but simply perfect in her proportions. As my gaze followed the curve of her hip, she rolled up on her side, letting me see the triangle of brown curls that matched those falling over her shoulders.
She raised her right leg and pulled her foot behind the other knee, opening the window for me to see the mystery that all boys wonder about. That was the first time I saw her moist opening beckon me. She asked me what I thought of her, but my voice was lost somewhere a thousand miles away. The room seemed to be spinning outside the center of my focus and my heart was as loud as a bass drum pounding a driving beat as I tried to stand on my unconnected legs.
As I fell towards her body, she pulled me to her and kissed me before I blacked-out.
I awoke from my faint in my sister’s embrace. She was wiping my hair back from my face and shaking me. When I opened my eyes she kissed me all over my face and squeezed me harder. As I tried to lift myself into a sitting position, I realized she was holding me against her naked body. I’m sure I blushed quite brightly because she chuckled and gave me one last hug before letting go. But she didn’t make any effort to cover herself up. And I couldn’t pull my eyes away from her beautiful flesh.
She asked me to continue reading, handing me the book I’d dropped.
In the book, the woman walked the bowler backwards to the edge of the bed where he abruptly sat. She continued and pressed her breasts into his face. He wondered how the headlines might read – bowler suffocated by unknown mammaries. Then he wondered what better way there could be to die – at least it would be a happy way to go.
My sister sat up, then leaned close to me and asked if I wondered what that felt like. I simply stared at her and swallowed as she pulled me against her chest. She was not endowed with pendulous breasts, like the woman in the story, but she definitely felt like heaven against my face.
I couldn’t help myself; I had to kiss the soft mounds – one, then the other, over and over. She moaned, lightly, then lifted my head and kissed me on the mouth.
Her lips were completely different from where I had just left off kissing her. They were soft, and supple, but somehow firmer, and more demanding. When she ran her tongue over my lips, something I had never felt before, I broke the kiss, thinking I was somehow in the way. She still had one hand behind my head, so I didn’t get far. She smiled at me and asked if I liked kissing her.
My response in the affirmative made her eyes twinkle all the more.
I had developed a painful problem in my pants. I was hard and bent, restricted by the way I was sitting. I couldn’t help but glance down at my crotch – and I couldn’t help but notice hers again too, which did nothing to relief my distress. For some reason, I began to sweat.
Her gaze followed mine, first to my lap, then hers. She kissed me again, this time dragging her tongue across my lip. When she started to unbutton my shirt, I asked her why she was doing that. She said she did not want to turn the heater down, and since I was sweating, she thought I might be more comfortable with my shirt open. Then she told me to keep reading.
In the story, the woman had decided to let the man breathe by letting him lean back enough for her to unbutton his shirt. My sister continued to do the same to me. When she was through, she helped him get his arms out of the sleeves. My sister did likewise. Now I was sitting there bare chested. The woman in the story began to kiss the bowler on the side of his face and his ears – then she sucked an earlobe into her mouth and swirled her tongue around, poking it into his ear. My sister was making it hard to read since she was doing the same thing to me. When she poked her tongue in my ear, I had an immediate reaction and I tried to adjust my position on the bed.
She pulled me down next to her. I could feel the skin of her breast against my arm. We just laid there for a minute while she brought her face to mine and lightly kissed my lips again. Then she sat up and leaned down and pushed my shoes off my feet and pulled my socks off. I would have let her do anything to me. When she turned around and crawled over me she told me in a hoarse voice to keep reading.