“I’m in love with Vanessa.”
I could not believe that I had just said those words. I looked at Bill and saw confusion and possibly anger in his eyes. I had just told my step-father that I was in love with his daughter. I heard my mother let out a gasp. I turned to face her as Bill walked away.
“What did you say?” My mother said with a stutter.
“I’m in love with Vanessa. We wanted to tell you sooner, but we didn’t know how to go about it.” I said.
“You wait until she is in the hospital, fighting for her life. Is that the perfect time? Jason?” She responded in tears.
“There is no perfect time. I’m scared to death about what might happen to her. I love her and I don’t know what I’ll do if she doesn’t make it.” I said fighting back sobs.
“I knew that there was something going on between you two. I guess I was in denial. I don’t know what to say right now. We need to make sure that Vanessa is alright first. Everything else can be dealt with later. I need to find Bill.” My mother said as she turned and walked away.
How much did she know? What was going to happen now? The unanswered questions and the fear of the unknown were pounding in my head. I watched as Bill talked to the doctor. It had been nearly 6 hours since the accident. All that I knew was that Vanessa was still alive and that she had been rushed into emergency surgery. I sat in the waiting room waiting for my head to explode. Vanessa’s cousin, Sarah, approached me and kissed me on the forehead.
“So you let the cat out of the bag?” Sarah Said.
“I couldn’t help it. I just wanted the secret to end. I didn’t want to hurt Bill or Lisa.” I said
“Vanessa is his only child. He is very protective and I can’t imagine what is going through his head. I only hope that Vanessa will be able to explain it to him also. Your mother mentioned it to me and she didn’t seem to be too shocked” Sarah said.
“Really? You talked to her?” I said in disbelief.
“Just now. Lisa told me that she noticed the attraction between the both of you immediately, and had no idea that it had come this far.” Sarah said.
“I’m not ashamed. I love her and I will do everything that I can to make sure that things are smoothed over.” I said
Just as I finished talking, I glanced over at Bill and noticed a sense of relief come over his face. He walked over to my mother and gave her a powerful hug. My mother smiled in relief and she flashed me a reassuring glance. The weight and tension began to lift from my shoulders. Bill looked as if he was going to walk towards me, but turned and walked towards the elevator. I felt a tinge of hurt pass through my body. I knew that I was walking an emotional tightrope. My mother walked towards me and flashed me a weak smile.
“What is going on?” I said as my voice shook.
“Vanessa is going to make it, but there are still some concerns. They had to remove her spleen and her right kidney is bruised. She suffered a concussion but there doesn’t appear to be any permanent brain damage. Her right knee was severely sprained. She is still unconscious from the anesthesia and more than likely won’t wake up fully until tomorrow.” My mother said.
“Thank you so much for all the information. They kept me in the dark the entire time.” I said.
“Bill is going up to see her. The visits have to be short. When he comes back, you and I can see her.” My mother said.
“I can’t wait to see her. Mom, I didn’t mean to hurt you and Bill. We were planning on telling you.” I said.
My mother looked at me as if to test my sincerity. As she turned around I could see a smile form on her face. A few minutes passed and Bill motioned us to the elevator. My mother was far ahead of me and I noticed Bill whispering something to her as she entered the elevator. Bill passed me but didn’t look at me. I could sense that he wanted to tell me something. I got into the elevator with my mother and she pushed the button to the 4th floor.
“What did Bill tell you?” I asked
“He said that Vanessa was whispering your name.” My mother responded with a smile.
I felt a flutter in my heart and in the pit of my stomach. The elevator seemed to be moving in slow motion. We finally reached the intensive care unit and walked into Vanessa’s room. I felt a lump in my throat as I saw my beautiful Vanessa lying in the hospital bed. I wanted to yell out her name and take her into my arms. I watched as the machines attached to her whizzed and beeped. Her raven black hair framed the oxygen mask on her petite and pale face. I desperately wanted to look into her blue eyes. My mother stood at the back of the room and let me move closer. I gently grabbed her hand and whispered into her ear.
“Vanessa. It’s me, Jason. I love you so much.” I said
I watched as a bump in her heart rate was registered on the screen. She stirred softly and I noticed that her mouth was moving slightly. I leaned closer to her and faintly heard the words that I longed for.
“I love you.” Vanessa managed to say audibly through her oxygen mask.
I felt the tears welling up in my eyes. I turned around to look at my mother. My mother smiled at me and I could see the tears sliding down her cheeks. I held Vanessa’s hand and savored the moment until a nurse walked in and dismissed us.
Sarah had arranged for my mother and Bill to stay at a hotel room close to the hospital. It was nearing midnight as Sarah helped me into her car and we headed to her apartment. I could feel the need for sleep pulling on my body like a magnet. I must have fallen asleep because the next thing that I remember was Sarah nudging me and the chilly night air passing through the open car door. I stumbled into the apartment and collapsed on the nearest bed that I could find.
I woke up the next morning to an annoying buzzing sound. I turned over and slowly opened my eyes. I was slightly startled as I noticed that I was in Sarah’s bed. The buzzing noise became more familiar. It was the buzzing of a vibrator. I could feel the warmth of Sarah’s naked body next to me. I was still wearing clothes from yesterday. I watched as Sarah was laying naked face down on the bed. Her tan athletic ass was moving up and down slightly. She let out a high pitched moan as her orgasm shook through her body.
“What are you doing?” I asked
“Starting the afternoon out right.” Sara said with a giggle.
“Afternoon? What time is it?” I asked
“It is nearly 12:30. I didn’t have the heart to wake you earlier because you were resting so peacefully, but I figured that you might enjoy a nice wake up buzz.” Sara said with a devious smile.
“It was quite a sight, but I need to get to the hospital so see Vanessa.” I said.
“Are you sure that you don’t want a quickie? Vanessa didn’t mind you fucking me the other night.” Sarah said.
“I had a great time with you the other night, but I was sure that Vanessa wanted me to participate. We might have a good time again someday, but Vanessa needs to be present for it to happen.” I replied.
“I knew that you would say that. Vanessa deserves a nice guy like you. I always wake up horny as hell, too bad you can’t help me out today.” Sarah replied and gave me a quick kiss on the lips.
“One more thing, I am sore as hell from the accident anyway. I wouldn’t be much help.” I said while struggling out of bed.
I got ready as quickly as I could and Sarah drove me to the Hospital. I walked to the front desk to confirm Vanessa’s room number. She had been upgraded from intensive care to skilled nursing. I was happy in the thought that she was steadily improving. Sarah and I took the elevator and hurried to Vanessa’s room. Bill and my mother were already in her room and I could hear Vanessa’s voice sounding softly.
“I’m sorry that we hid it from you dad, but it is an awkward situation to be in.” Vanessa said.
“Just as long as you are sure that you love him, I can tolerate it. It doesn’t mean that I’m happy with it. It just means that I’ll tolerate it. We aren’t from Kentucky you know.” I heard Bill reply.
“Dad, don’t be a jackass.” Vanessa said with a giggle and a cough.
“Speak of the devil.” Bill said as he turned around to face me.
I felt my face turn red and sweat start to run down my neck. Bill gave me an odd smile turned around and walked out of the room. My mother gave me a more satisfying smile and walked out also.
“We knew that you would have a tough time getting up this morning. Vanessa has only been up and talking for a little while, so don’t feel bad.” My mother said
Sarah and I walked into the hospital room. I saw Vanessa sitting up in her bed propped up by several pillows. Her black hair was pulled back in a pony tail and her blue hospital gown hung loosely near her shoulders. Vanessa smiled at me and I could see the tears welling up in her eyes. I rushed to the side of the bed and took her hand.
“I love you so much. I was so scared.” I told Vanessa
“I am so happy to see you. I love you” Vanessa said as she tried to lean towards me.
I wanted to badly to hold her tight, but I hugged her gently and kissed her lightly on the lips. I turned around and saw that Bill and my mother were still partially in the room. Bill was smiling at my mother approvingly. I knew that he had to have heard the words that Vanessa and I exchanged. Sarah was standing near the foot of the bed with a wide smile on her face.
“How do you feel?” Sarah asked
“Like I have been in a car accident.” Vanessa said and stuck out her tongue.
“Be serious with me for once.” Sarah retorted.
“I’ll be in the hospital for possibly 4 more days. If my stitches start to heal quickly they may knock it down to 3.” Vanessa said
“See that was nice and serious for once. How are you and Jason going to get back home?” Sarah asked.
“My dad and Lisa are staying for 2 more days but they are flying Jason and I back together when I get out. If it is okay for him to keep staying with you?” Vanessa Said.
“Of course it is. I tried to come on to him this morning but he wouldn’t have any of it.” Sarah whispered to Vanessa
“That’s good. I’m impressed by his willpower.” Vanessa whispered back and winked at me.
Sarah walked out of the hospital room and I was finally alone with Vanessa. There were no words that I could find to express the happiness of seeing Vanessa’s smile. I knew that no words were needed. We looked into each others eyes and that was enough to know that things were going to get better. Our secret was out and ability for me to show my love openly was an astounding feeling.
The next 2 days passed without much fanfare. Vanessa was healing at a rapid rate. Bill and my mother left early that morning and Bill shook my hand but was still rather silent. Sarah let me use her car and I drove to the university to get to know the campus and drop off all of the necessary paper work for Vanessa and me. The day passed quickly and dusk began creeping over the wide sky. At this point I was very familiar with the layout of the hospital and took several short cuts to Vanessa’s room.
I walked into Vanessa’s room and noticed that an elderly lady was in the hospital bed closest to the door. I walked over to Vanessa’s side of the room and noticed that she was intently working on a cross word puzzle. I pulled her privacy curtain closed so that we would not disturb the passed out granny next to us.