I share a close relationship with Graham, not only as my son but we are friends, we often share a lot with each other and some of my fondest memories was spending hours talking with after he got home from work, when he still lived at home. Now that he's moved out and even married I look back at those times and smile. It also means that the times that he does come over or I visit him he talk and talk for hours. We live far enough apart now that visits are in frequent but are overnight at a minimum and sometimes a weekend long trip, every 4 or so months.
My bond with him boarders on sexual at times, despite knowing he is my son, I can't help the feelings that I have at times, I have even woken up after having naughty dreams involving him, and given in to my urges and masturbated thinking of him. I know its wrong but I can't help it. I will never act on these impulses but won't stop having fun with the thoughts none the less.
Graham in my eyes in a handsome young man, at 22 he is 168 center meters and has a solid frame, short brown hair and sky blue eyes, he looks a lot like his father when I fell in love with him, I think that makes it that much harder to not think about him sexually. While I am describing him I may as well describe myself, I am much shorter then Graham at 152 center meters with a physical appearance not too dissimilar to Patricia Heaton from 'Everybody Loves Raymond' with dark shoulder length hair, and blue eyes.
Graham and his wife Ellen came over for a visit, it had been close to 6 months since I had seen them and I was looking forward to the visit, I pottered about the house cleaning and setting a room up for them and the likes. I even prepared his favorite dinner, and made sure we had plenty of drinks in the fridge.
I couldn't control myself when they finally arrived I ran out side and greeted them in the driveway giving them a big hug and a kiss each, they reciprocated with a hug and a kiss. I walked with them into the house and reminded them of the room, to which Graham rolled his eyes. I put a pot of coffee on and waited in the kitchen for them. Not a minute later they joined me in the kitchen. We drank cup after cup of coffee and chatted for a while, I was enjoying seeing the two of them again.
After a while we noticed the time, seeing it was close to dinner both Graham and Ellen had showers while I finished up cooking dinner, we sat down and enjoyed the meal, Graham cleaned up the dishes, I only wished he would have done that as a kid.
After dinner we sat around and started to drink beer while playing hands of cards, this was becoming a family tradition when we caught up, nothing silly just blackjack. After hours of playing Ellen decided it was time for bed, saying her good nights she left Graham and I, this was nothing unusual for us.
"Mum, I think I remember having a shower with you as a kid, did that ever happen?" Graham asked out of the blue.
"Well yeah, to save money we often shared a shower, but we were only little, I am surprised that you remember that," I responded
"Why do you ask?" I continued
"No reason," Graham responded rather sheepishly
"No come on son, what's the matter?" I asked
Graham wasn't budging and I dropped the subject, we sat around chatting and drinking some more, I think the beer had loosened him up a bit because it wasn't long and he brought up the subject again.
"I had a dream the other night, it was us in the shower, only time I was older and we helped to wash each other," Graham recalled his dream.
"What do you mean by older and helped wash each other?" I asked with reluctance.
"Well in the dream, it was now as in me being 22 and you being 40," Graham spoke
"What about the washing bit?" I asked again.
"Well just that we washed each others back you know," Graham shoot back his response in his typical defensive mode.
Knowing that he wasn't going to shed any more information I didn't push the subject, deep inside though I wanted to know, I wanted to know if he had dirty dreams as I had. My pussy was beginning to tingle as I thought of the possibility that Graham shares the same thoughts for me as I did for him. I resisted the urge to reach out and grab his crotch to feel his cock, I also resisted the urge to reach inside my knickers and play with myself.
I excused myself from the table and got two more beers from the fridge, while there I took a moment to compose myself and relax, thankfully Graham left for the bathroom at the same time, the cool air from the fridge helped to relax me. By the time Graham returned I was at the table again and felt better composed. However it was not long until the heat was turned up again as Graham continued to reveal the dream that he had.
"Your skin was so soft I remember mum," Graham spoke, as a smile grew across his face.
"I lathered your back, but I dropped the soap in the shower, as you bent over to pick it up I brushed against you, I woke up after that though," Graham finished.
My heart was pounding as he spoke; I grew excited as he spoke. I felt my juices flowing, and I had a feeling of light headiness and a trembling in my hands as I got more and more excited. Graham too looked as if he was getting rather flustered, his face a light red colour, and perspiration appearing on his forehead. We both sat in silence as I figured out what to say or do next, this silence only made the situation tenser.
"Well son, I think it is normal to remember child hood experiences and sometimes they could be expressed in these ways," I tried in vain to calm the situation
"How did it make you feel," I asked, now concerned with his emotional state.
"Honestly?" Graham asked
"Well it's not the first dream that I've had, like that," Graham continued.
"I've had some dreams were we go all the way," he was shaking as he spoke.
My heart rate spiked again as Graham told me that he had sexual dreams involving the two of us, I was torn on my feelings, part of me wanted to tell me that I too had those dreams or better yet that I had actively fantasized about it, yet the other part in me wanted to hug him and protect him, like the mother that I am. I reached out and rested my hands on his, I felt him tremor and the clamminess in his hands.