This is the 5th and final chapter in the Somebody I Used To Know storyline. My thanks to all the comments and feedback it has received. Special mention to Kaidman who shared the story with a larger audience.
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Story first, sex second.
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It was one of those moments that lasted a lifetime. Adam McAllister, 38 years old, married for 7 and with a 6 year old son, the man that could never settle, could never stay in one life without ruining it, had just destroyed himself again.
He had just forced his own cousin, Alexandra, to reveal, in front of their friends and family, that her daughter was also his.
Adam had destroyed his own life many times over, he'd even destroyed Lexi's a couple times before. But now, there was his wife, his son, even his best friend, so many people who lives would never be the same with this news. But Adam wasn't thinking about any of them.
He was thinking about his father-in-law, and the pint glass he was holding.
In a blind rage Kale forced the glass into the left side of Adam's face. Adam didn't do anything to avoid it, he deserved whatever happened to him. He felt a searing pain as the glass exploded, his vision went red then quickly faded to darkness.
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2000
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"Happy New Year."
Lexi climbed off of Adam, his dick softening as she pulled him out of her, she hadn't meant to go this far, she never wanted to sleep with Adam again but she needed support and he was there for her. As they got dressed she wondered about the implications, would he see this as the start of something or just the neediness of a lost little girl. Whatever was going through his head Adam stayed quiet so Alexandra followed suit, they remained silent as they returned home.
"Where have you two been? Midnight was ten minutes ago." The sound of Claire's anger reminded Alexandra of the pain they had both caused all those years ago, there would be time to tell the truth but not today.
"Sorry mum, we just popped out to buy some cigarettes and..."
Alexandra butted in. "And I ran into someone. Cyril Moreno."
The lie was successful, coupled with Liam's recognition of the name nobody questioned her. Alexandra had found out long ago that the best lies were ones based on truth and she had told herself enough half-truths to fool even herself.
That night Lexi lay across the old bed, looking up at the ceiling, a million thoughts racing through her mind. What should she say to Adam, should she tell him she wants to try again, would he leave his wife for her, would he run away once more, back home. She had no doubt in her mind that she loved Adam, true she hated him but she couldn't hide the feelings she'd been having, when she heard he was getting married her heart broke, that was when she knew she...
Wait, what was she doing? This was exactly the same shit that fucked everything up last time. Confusion and misreading of feelings. Adam was her cousin, there was no way they could be together, not after all the pain they'd caused everyone. She was an idiot for thinking he would leave his wife, especially for her, she was only half-serious when she told Adam he would run from her, she knew he wouldn't leave Kay.
But he had just cheated on her.
Her head aching as she tried to understand the complex and fucked up relationship she had with her cousin, Lexi went to bed that night with tears in her eyes, still confused about everything.
The morning fared a little better, her head still hurt but not as much, she kept quiet, trying to keep any indication of the affair last night secret. It was the only time in her life Alexandra was glad they were at a funeral, she could pass her his detached attitude as depression.
Her father left in the morning, Adam had booked an afternoon flight to spend more time with his family, Alexandra spent as long as she could with Ray, partly to avoid Adam but mostly because she wanted to remember her father, maybe not her actual father but he was close enough and wanted to be her dad.
After he left she used every trick in the book to avoid talking to Adam, being in a different room than him at all times, making sure there was more than just the two of them in the room. Thankfully Adam was spending a lot of time with his mum but it was clear her avoidance was hurting him.
It wasn't just clear to her, Claire picked up on the tension and confronted Lexi about it, just before she was to take Adam to the airport.
"What's going on between you two?" She asked bluntly.
"What?"
"Between you and me son. There's something there, you've hardly said a word to each other all-day."
"I'm just depressed is all, about Uncle Kieran's death."
"Bullcrap young lady, you know as well as I do that my husband and you didn't get along as well as you used to. Besides, you were all talk yesterday."
Alexandra decided to use another one of her half-truths. "It's the shit I had with Cyril last night, it brought up a lot of bad memories, I remember the person I use to be and I hate it."
Claire's heart melted, she didn't fully believe Lexi but it was a tough lie, admitted that about herself. She hugged her niece.
"It's ok, you're passed that now. You're a different person."
'Yeah, how different?' Lexi thought to herself. She was still a slut, still fucking her cousin, still tearing a marriage apart. She couldn't do that, not anymore, she wouldn't be the reason for another relationship breaking up. Last night was a mistake, the result of a sad, lonely girl looking for a friend and finding a lover.
"You ready to go?"
Alexandra turned round and saw Adam, holding his bags, ready to return home.
"Yeah, let's go."
The two of them got into Alexandra's car and headed off to the airport, Lexi turned on the radio, hoping that would fill the silence that was going to be a part of this journey. She didn't know how Adam was feeling and truthfully she didn't care, not out of spite but if she thought about him she'd do something stupid, she had to be selfish, just this once where it was allowed.
The silence between them gave her time to think, as she did she came to the conclusion that last night was a one time thing, never to be repeated, she needed someone and Adam was there for her. Nothing more. Too many people would get hurt and she'd already hurt enough people to regret a lifetime. As Lexi pulled into the drop-off point here mind was set.
"Well Adam, it's been nice meeting you again, just wish it was under better circumstances. I'll see you some other day."
The look of Adam's face killed her, he looked like she'd just spit in his face.
"Is that it? Lexi what the fuck? Last night you told me you loved me, we had sex and today it's like it never happened."
"It was nothing Adam, just another mistake."
"What about when you said you loved me?"
"I do Adam but you're married now, and we're still cousins, we don't have a chance. Just forget it."
"Forget it huh? That's just so fuckin typical of you Lexi, you won't let yourself get any emotion from anyone, whoever gets too close you blow them off. Fuck this."
Adam stormed out of the car, as he was taking out his bags Alexandra's mind was going a mile a minute, had she just made a terrible mistake? She looked up and saw Adam walking away, she jumped out the car.
"Adam wait."
Her cousin turned and looked at her, the horrible look of depressed fury broke her heart and she couldn't bring herself to say anything. Adam, however, could say something.
"I loved you you cunt."
And with that he turned away. Alexandra got back in the car, the feelings and emotions she had over the past couple of days came rushing through her and she broke down, crying, sobbing actually, against the steering wheel. How could have been so stupid, she loved Adam, she WAS in love with him and had been for a while despite her lies to herself. Even it appeared Adam felt the same way, and she pushed him away.
Fuck everyone else, why should she worry about what they think, why shouldn't she be happy? For the first time in her life why couldn't she be happy? She considered running out and catching Adam in the airport but what would be the point, he wanted nothing to do with her right now and whether he meant it or not he would break her heart.
Besides, history tends to repeat itself when it came to their relationship.
Wiping her tears away Alexandra started the car and drove home, she had managed to buy a small house not far from Claire's home, it wasn't much but it was home and besides, she figured 30 was too old to be renting an apartment. Unfortunately there were times - and given Lexi's history these were all too frequent for her liking - when she looked round the house, saw the double bed she slept in, saw the child's room just down hall and was reminded that she didn't have a family. She had no-one.
When she got back home that feeling hit her hard. It had been getting worse over the last few years, she knew she had a long time to find somebody, to raise a family but between the knowledge that all her friends were getting married or pregnant and the fact that she lost her own chance to be a mother twice, it wasn't a good mix.
Emotionally drained, Alexandra crashed onto her bed, falling asleep immediately on the familiar feel of cotton. She didn't know how long she slept but it must've been for a long time because it looked like morning when she woke, the soft sunlight trickled through the window. Lexi opened her eyes and looked into the smiling face of the man next to her.
"Morning."
"Morning Adam. How long you been awake?"
"Not long, didn't have the heart to wake you. You looks so beautiful when you're dreaming."
