I was turning 54 years old on Saturday and I was disappointed with how my life was going to say the least. I had spent most of my adult life completely alone.
I was married out of high school. To a wonderful man who managed to die in the first war that came up but not before he gave me the gift of my one and only son Chris.
Don't get me wrong, my son is the best thing in my life but raising a son alone was no picnic. I managed but it was touch and go there for awhile. I worked long hours and took online college courses and got a degree.
We never had it good but it wasn't bad either. I am proud of all that I accomplished. But still I am so very lonely.
Chis is coming home for my birthday. His commander is giving him leave just for this reason. I have to admit I wrote to his commander and requested that they send him home one more time before he deploys again.
Chris looks just like his father except he has my eyes. It's no small wonder that he decided to be a soldier. Chis is not overly tall but he is very well built. He's 5'6" and weighs 185. No fat he is solid muscle. He's in the infantry like his father. I am very proud of him and I worry. I live in constant fear that I will lose him the same way I lost Jim. That's why I wrote the letter to his commander and asked if he could have a special leave this weekend to spend with me.
Chris is sending half his pay home to me every month. I just put it in the bank and save it for him. I don't need the money. I have a good job and my bills aren't very high. Chris thinks he needs to help his poor mom out.
All I want for him is to finish his Army career and come home safe. Like I said, I worry.
I have stayed in perfect shape by eating right and exercise. I am not ugly at all and still I have never even gone out with any men. The only man I have ever been with was Jim. I just can't bring myself to go out with any that ask. I am still attractive or at least I think I am.
I have long black hair. I mean below my butt long and it's jet black. My eyes are deep blue. I have a very smooth complexion. I am tanned all over. My cup size is 32c my waist is 24 and my hips are 38. Ok so I don't have the biggest boobs on the planet so sue me. I still think I look good.
Lately I find myself watching porn and more specifically mother/son porn. The more I watch the more I fantasize about my own son. I don't care about what society says about it being wrong. I want to try and seduce my son this weekend. I already love him and he loves me. I want his lust. No I need it. I can't get by anymore on just his love. I need him to be my man and I his woman.
I know Chris drinks a lot when he is on leave. So I will have all his favorites on hand while he's here.
I am going to wear as little as possible. I will flaunt what I got in front of him and try and gauge his reactions to see if maybe he's open to the Idea of taking me as his lover. If that doesn't work I will come right out and ask him to fuck me. I might even beg him to.
I picked up a few things to wear that will get his attention. I got a very sheer dress that hugs my figure beautifully. I have some extremely short skirts and shorts. I have a micro bikini that barely covers anything. I want my sons cock in my holes so bad I can almost taste it.
I have some fears about this but not so much that it stops me. I fear he might never want to see me again. But I know he loves me. I fear he may find me repulsive and reject me. I fear he will think I am pathetic and to be pitied. But I am still going to go for it. I must have him or die trying.
More than love
Well Chris is gone now and it will be a long time before I see him again. I have so much to say. I guess the best place to start is when he arrived.
He pulled his truck into the drive around midnight Thursday. I could tell he was exhausted from the long drive.
I met him outside wearing my night gown which is completely sheer. I gave him the biggest hug and kissed him on the lips for the first time in my life. I was pressing my whole body against him. I felt the tension in his muscles and offered to rub his shoulders.
He a said he could use a beer and I got him a pint of Guinness out of the kegerator he looked surprised but pleased. He sat at the kitchen table and I rubbed his shoulders. He always turns the chairs around backwards and leans his chest against the backrest when he's drinking beer. I don't know why he does this but it affords me the opportunity to press my pussy against him while I rub him so I'm not complaining.
I was watching his reactions closely and I couldn't see any discernable reaction what so ever. I started wondering if my attempt to seduce my son was going to end in me begging him for the attention I craved. I rubbed his shoulders and back and we talked about anything everything and nothing in particular. Then I saw his beer was almost finished so I ran and got him another and poured me a glass of wine.
My pussy was very wet and was extremely excited. I know he couldn't tell how horny I was but I was hoping he would start to get the Idea.
Then he reached up and grabbed my hand. He pulled me around in front of him and looked me in the eyes and asked what do you want for your birthday?
I told him I already got my birthday wish just having him home. Then he asked me what was wrong. I told him nothing was wrong and that everything was perfectly fine.
He gave me a look that sent a chill down my spine. His father looked at me the same way when I was upset and didn't want to bother him with my problems.
Chris said. "Sit down mom and tell me what is really going on with you." Then he warned me that he wasn't buying that tired line that nothing was wrong and everything was fine.
So I sat down in front of him and asked why do you think something is wrong? He sighed and said. "I am too tired for this to take all night. Number one the way you're dressed, number two the way you kissed me, number three the way you've been pressing up on me ever since I got here. Will you please just tell me what is going on with you?"
I could tell he was getting frustrated with my avoidance and he wanted straight talk. So I took a breath and started to doubt myself as I started speaking.
I said. "I'm so god damned lonely." Then I started to sob. I was really feeling pathetic and sorry for myself. That's when he stood and wrapped his strong arms around me and held me tight. I was still seated and he was holding me against his hard stomach. I sobbed uncontrollably and wrapped my arms around his waist and held on tight he assured me that everything would be fine in morning.
He picked me up and carried me to my bed. He gently laid me down and kissed my forehead and said. "Goodnight mom." and started to leave.
I grabbed his arm and asked him to stay. He just kissed me again and said. "Get some sleep. I'll see you in the morning."
I cried myself to sleep.
I woke to the sound of my son showering. It was Friday morning. My plan to seduce my son was a bust. I cursed myself for being an old fool.
So I forced myself out of bed and went to kitchen to put on a pot of coffee and start breakfast.
The coffee was just finished brewing when I heard Chris coming down the hallway. I poured him a cup and turned to hand it to him.
Oh my god. Chris stood in front of me stark naked! I gasped. I nearly dropped the cup in my hand.
He was beautiful. His body was chiseled and his cock was large, very large. I just stared at it unable to speak. I tried to say something. My mouth moved but no sound came out.
Finally he broke the silence. "Is that coffee for me mom?"
I stammered. "Yes here you go son."
He just smiled and took the cup. I melted when he smiled. I swear I could have fainted right then and there.
He surmised my trouble and came over to me and pulled me into him. Then he kissed me full on the mouth and it was no son's kiss. It was full of passion and my head was reeling.
I was kissing my beautiful naked son and he was getting hard. I wouldn't have believed that his cock could get any bigger but it was swelling to amazing proportions.
I am somewhat shorter than my son so his manhood was actually hitting me in my stomach.
We broke our embrace and I stepped back and looked down at his impressive member. I put my hands on it and marveled at the sheer size and heft of it. My fingers couldn't reach all the way around it.
I stroked it with both hands. I took my left hand and cupped his balls. He let out a little moan. I lowered myself to my knees and started licking the massive cock in front of me.
I opened my mouth wide and tried to take it in my mouth it was a tight fit. I couldn't get much in my mouth at first.