December Twenty-eighth
“I don’t know what the hell you’re talking about, Sherry,” Neal said. “What exactly are you accusing me of?”
“It’s real simple, Neal,” his wife spat, shaking her sleep-tousled head. “Were you playing with me last night?”
“Playing with you how? I can’t even get into your room, you know.”
“You could get through that lock if you wanted to.”
“Oh, don’t flatter yourself, Sherry,” he grumbled, though he hated himself for saying it. “I didn’t pick the lock, nor did I want to. And no, I wasn’t playing with you. I’m not allowed to, remember?”
She was silent a while, weighing his remarks, head in her hands at the table. Her robe was tied crookedly, her eyes bore dark lines beneath them -- she looked a mess.
“Look,” she said finally, her voice an unsteady croak. “I . . . I could’ve sworn that someone was with me last night. I thought it was you. It had to be you, Neal!”
“Jesus Christ, Sherry, it was not me! What makes you think it wasn’t a dream or something, anyway?”
“It just . . . didn’t feel like a dream,” she muttered.
“What time was it?”
“I don’t know. It was dark still. I don’t know, I was half asleep.”
“Uh huh. And what did he look like, this guy who was playing with you?”
“Neal, I don’t know! I didn’t get a look at his face. I told you, I was asleep.”
“Okay, Sher -- ‘you were asleep’ means ‘it was a dream’! Okay? It was a dream.”
But Sherry, still trying vainly to pin down her thoughts (thoughts? dreams? experiences?) from the night before, just couldn’t accept this. That stone still figure beside her bed, those hands on her body, touching, exploring. Familiar but different, welcome but wrong. She’d felt . . . touched that morning. Not just disoriented, but fondled, molested --
She held up her hands in frustration.
“It didn’t feel like a dream!”
“Yeah, well . . . maybe -- and don’t bite my head off --”
“Go on. Say it.”
“Maybe with everything you were on last night, you dreamed a little harder? Maybe you even hallucinated --”
“Oh fuck you, Neal!”
Neal threw up his hands. “Yeah, fuck me, I’m such an asshole. You’re boozing nonstop and popping pills like a groupie or something, but I’m the one who’s being unreasonable.”
He fell silent; she was crying into her hands, her shoulders trembling.
Outside the kitchen door, Vanessa bit her lip, shook her head.
“Josh, you son-of-a-bitch,” she whispered.
***
“Hey!” she said, prodding him hard. “
Hey!
Wake up, dammit!”
Her brother stirred a little, rolled over. He grinned at her toothily.
“Mmm,” he groaned sleepily. “Curbside service -- now that’s more like it.”
“What did you do?” she said sharply.
“What did I do? What the fuck are --”
“To Mom. What did you do?”
“Nothing. To Mom? What are you talking about --”
“Bullshit, nothing! You snuck into her room, didn’t you?”
Josh waved his arms about mockingly, said in a girly voice: “Oh, I didn’t do anything with Daddy, Josh! I just slept with him tuz I was sooo told!”
“God damn it, you fucker --” She hammered at him several times, hurting her wrist against his hard shoulder. Grinning, he grabbed her hands in his stronger ones, planted a kiss on her lips while she squirmed. She broke away after kicking his shins and leapt back against the door.
“Don’t even think about it, you asshole!” she snarled. “Tell me what you did.”
Her brother shrugged and lay back on the bed again, casually crossing one leg over the other.
“I just paid her a little visit, that’s all. Nothing serious.”
“You didn’t.”
He laughed at her. “Okay, I didn’t. You’re the one making accusations, sweetheart.”
“Josh, you went and messed with her last night? For real?”
“I just told you I did.”
“And did she know it? Did she wake up, did she recognize you --”
“Are you kidding? The way she’s been tripping lately? I coulda buttfucked her and she wouldn’t have known it.” He stroked his cock through his briefs carelessly.
“Mom keeps on trippin’, trippin’, trippin’, into the futuuure . . . ”
“Well, she’s downstairs telling Dad about it right now, smartass,” said Vanessa.
He stopped singing.
“No kidding? What’s she say?”
“That someone was playing with her last night. She thought it was Dad at first. Now she’s crying about it.”
“Aw, shit. I didn’t mean to make her cry. Hell, I thought she was liking it.”
“You’re such a selfish ass, Josh.”