Of all the women in the world, the last one I expected to satisfy my craving for facials is my own baby sister.
It's no longer fair to call her "baby sister," but old habits are hard to break. Our seven year age difference (I'm 25, April is 18) meant I took care of her and she looked up to me, rather than being combatants like so many siblings I know.
"Tom, you are the best brother ever!" was something I never got tired of hearing, and incredibly enough I still heard it throughout her teen years. The credit for that goes fully to her sweet and open nature, not to me. Where her optimism and loveliness of character comes from is a complete mystery-- I'm not like that, and certainly our parents aren't either.
As far as I'm concerned, the only negative thing she's ever done was getting involved with a church group that I found creepy. Even that was understandable because of our parents' divorce and my moving out of the house at about the same time.
So I was shocked to hear that our Mom was kicking April out of the house. The details aren't important, except to say Mom chose to put her new control-freak boyfriend ahead of her daughter. Which lead to April ending up on my doorstep needing a place to stay.
So one evening I opened the door to "Tom, you are the best brother ever!" and a hug and kiss on the cheek. It had only been about two weeks since I'd seen her last, but it struck me that the adorable girl I knew was now a beautiful woman. She has wide sparkling eyes in a heart-shaped face, flawless skin, a cute little nose and the broadest smile that lights up her face and the rest of the world.
But at this moment she was upset and I was determined to make everything all right again. I helped her bring her things in and carried them into the second bedroom, recently vacated by a shitheel roommate.
"You'll have to sleep on the futon for tonight, but we can go out tomorrow and get you something more comfortable. Is there anything you need? I can still run out to the store."
She hugged me again and held on tight. "I'm ok. Thank you, I don't know where else I could have gone." She was on the verge of tears.
"You don't have to worry about anything," I promised. "You can stay as long as you want."
That brought the first smile of the evening and a sigh of relief.
....
The last thing in the world that I wanted my sister to find out was that I loved porn and facials in particular. Whether it's a girl-next-door type or a heavily made-up porn goddess, I love to see an attractive face splattered with cum.
I have my favorite porn sites of course, but I also have videos I've download to my laptop and even some still pictures. I had arranged a few of those into slideshows so I could more easily browse through them as I got myself off.
I make no apologies for this, but it meant a lot that April looked up to me, and I didn't want to lose her respect. It seemed there was no danger of her finding my porn since it was confined to my laptop and I never carelessly left it lying around unlocked for anyone to stumble across.
Until I fucked up, of course.
April and I had been getting along great. It was a joy to have her back in my life every day and she made it clear how happy she was too. We cooked together, cleaned together. shopped together and suddenly the most mundane things in life were fresh and fun.
One night we decided to go to a movie and together we checked the times on my laptop. She wanted to show me a YouTube video, so she started to look for that while I went to use the bathroom. I didn't realize that I must have left a facial slideshow up on one of the secondary screens, just waiting for an accidental swipe to bring it into view.
I walked back into the kitchen, coming up behind April, who, sitting there apparently in shock, was staring at a picture of a hard cock in the act of shooting cum on a young girl's face.
There was a moment of silence before April, crimson-faced, jumped to her feet while I began to stammer incoherently. I grabbed the offending laptop and and sprinted with it out of the room as if it were a live grenade. Not being able to think of anything better to do, I sat on the couch and cradled it in my arms.
Meanwhile April had dashed into her room. I sat there, imagining her packing up her things and wondering whether she'd let me give her a ride back to Mom's or if she'd give me the cold shoulder as she left to meet an Uber.
A few minutes went by and I heard her door click open.
"Tom?"
"Yeah, I'm in here, April."
She came a few steps into the living room and thank God, she wasn't carrying a suitcase.
"I'm sorry I did that. I shouldn't have been snooping and I'm sorry I embarrassed you."
"April, you didn't do anything wrong at all. I shouldn't have...I didn't want you to see..." I just trailed off.
She came in further and sat down carefully at the far end of the sofa.
"I'm ok. That's your private business, I just don't want you to be mad at me."
"No, never. I can't blame you if you're disgusted with me," I said dejectedly.
She slid over closer to me and reached for my hand.
"No, never. I know all guys-- all people-- have needs. You don't have to hide that from me."
I started to breathe a little easier.
"Let's go see that movie now," she suggested. "Okay?"
So we went, but I was still agitated. She just had to be grossed out by me. In the theater going for our seats, I let her sit down first and then left an empty seat between us as I sat.
She said, "Don't be silly!" got up and moved into the empty seat next to me. Then she reached over and held my hand and kept it for most of the movie. At a certain point she leaned over and rested her head on my shoulder.
"I love you, April," I whispered.
"I love you too big brother."
....
So I had a happy home once again, happier than I had ever known before. To this I owed a debt of thanks to my old roommate for moving out-- and in with my now ex-girlfriend. It turns out that one of the ugliest events of my adult life cleared the way for me to have a home with April, for however long she chose to stay.
A few blissful days went by and no mention of the porn incident came up, until late one night just as we finished a TV program together.
I got up to go to bed and April asked softly, "Are you going to look at those pictures now?"
I stopped. I knew exactly what pictures she was talking about.
When she didn't receive an answer, she continued, "It's all right if you do. I know that men like pictures of women and that you're a young, healthy male and not just my brother."