I pushed the rack of clothing to one side, and searched the darkness of the closet floor. After a few minutes I was ready to give up. I didn't actually see it but my hand felt as I stooped down and groped into the darkness. My fingers closed on the sleek heel. Strange. It was in the far corner, across the whole length of closet away from my neatly arranged rows of shoes. Could it have been kicked that far?
I was going to join the black pump with its mate but something didn't feel quite right. I held the shoe to the light. The straps hung limply off the shoe. Thinking a strap was undone, I gentled separated the straps. My face immediately flushed with anger at I saw the broken strap.
I poured myself a glass of Chablis and sat on the leather sofa. I stared out the balcony window. In the distance the ocean was a rare deep blue that was oddly calming even as I saw the white waves beating furiously against the rocks.
I heard the key turn in the door. She looked startled at first. Like a deer caught in the headlights. But she was quick to follow up with an open wide smile. She was quite an actress.
"Hey, Janice. Didn't know you were home yet." Her long blond hair hung down in my face as she leaned over to kiss my cheek.
An image popped into my head of me roughly grabbing a handful of her hair and pulling. Pulling hard.
"God, you should have seen this creep today in my Rhetoric class. Pathetic loser. He was trying to hit on me..."
"Is that my blouse?" I said. My voice sounded distance, like it was bubbling up from somewhere deep inside of me.
"invited me to this party..."
"Is that my blouse?"
She looked at me, and flashed a smile. "Well ... yeah."
I stared at her as I carefully sat the tall wine glass down on the coaster.
"Look ... I didn't have anything to wear." She dropped her smile.
"I asked you not to borrow my stuff."
"Yeah ... it's just a blouse. OK?"
"I asked you not to, Sandy. This is my condo. My place. You need to respect my rules."
"Your rules? You are not Mom. We're not at home any more. And I'm an adult now. Not your baby sister to boss around."
"Did you borrow anything else of mine?" I could felt the shoe at my back.
"You want your fucking blouse, bitch ... you can have it back." Sandy's hand fumbled furiously with the top button.
"Fuck you. You are not my parent." Her fingers continued to fight that button.
".. and you are not my babysitter." She looked at her with accusing eyes. I felt a flash of shame that did nothing to dissipate my anger. Quite the contrary.
She gave the blouse another frustrated tug, and the button flew across the room and hit the hardwood floor with an audible click. I saw Sandy's blue eyes grow wide as she caught my gaze. For a moment I saw the scared little girl who had broken her big sister's toy. But the anger within her seemed to burn away the fear in her eyes.
"Fuck this, and fuck you!" With a sudden yang she ripped open the front of the blouse. "I don't care what I promised Mom, I'm moving out."
She was wearing a lacy white under-wire. Her cleavage jiggled as she tore the blouse off. 36C, I had remembered. A full cup-size bigger than me, a fact she had gloated about since her mid-teens.
She threw the blouse to my feet, and stood there. Daring me, a hesitant voice said in my head. She threw up shoulders up, which had the effect of lifting her breasts more forward.
It played like a movie in my head. It was like I was a spectator. One moment I was looking at her with her boobs half hanging out. The next, I was on my feet, grabbing her around the neck. Her bra pressed against my arm. Struggling, I pushed her toward the couch. Her face pressed against the broken pump.
"I found it, you fucking brat. Right where you stuck it in the closet."
"I .. didn't", she said in a half-muffled voice.
"Sure you did. You have always taken my stuff. Even as a kid."
"Get off of me NOW, Janice" She started to life her head but I pushed her face into the torn and broken pump.
"Say you're sorry for tearing my things."
"Fuck ..." I leaned into the couch to gain leverage and throw my weight into her. She probably had almost 15 pounds on me but I had better muscular tone and enough righteous anger to push her through the wall.
"Say you're sorry!"
She struggled but I pushed her roughly into couch.
Her stocking foot clipped me hard in the chin. I held her legs down with one arm while I yanked on her hair with the other.
"Leave me alone. Now. I swear I'll ..."
Her short white skirt hiked up, exposing a glimpse of blue panty underneath. The blue matched my now-ruined blouse, a voice said in my fevered mind.
"Ohhhh ..." She exhaled suddenly in surprise as my hand hit her rump. It felt right, God help me, as my palm slapped my sister's butt with a satisfying smack that was muffled only slightly by her tight skirt.
SLAP!
She squirmed madly, which pushed up her skirt higher. By the third slap I was now smacking nylon. Sheer-to-waist, I noted in the back of my mind as I continued spanking my sister's butt. Would she be now be pink or deep red under the pantyhose and the blue panties, my mind aimlessly asked.
SLAP!
"Nooo..."
SLAP!
"Please, Jan...
SLAP!
"..ice! Oh, God ..."
SLAP! SLAP!
She was sobbing loudly now, her words were incoherent guttural sounds.
My palm was now throbbing. How must Sandy's butt be hurting now? I didn't want to really hurt her, did it?
I stopped, tired and spent. What had I done? Was there any way of walking away from this -- starting over?
I wiped the sweat from my forehead. When I put my hand down, Sandy squirmed suddenly as she felt my hand rest against her rump.
"Oh, God, Sandy... I'm so -- so sorry."
Tears were running down my eyes.
"Sandy, I--I'm not going to hurt .." but my voice was cracking too much to continue.
I gently placed my hand on Sandy's bottom, doing it slowly enough so she could maybe realize I didn't want to hurt her. More? an accusing voice said in my head.
Her butt through the nylon was soft, like the familiar feel of a favorite over-stuffed pillow. I could feel the heat under my palm. Her back, bare, except for the thin bra straps were glistening with perspiration.
The nylons and panties were also soaked. With alarm I looked for signs of blood but saw nothing. Must be sweat, I thought. I thought of pulling down the panties to inspect the damage but thought better of it. I wasn't a doctor.
What had I done? She must be in so much pain. Should I take her to the emergency room? I envisioned a stern-looking battle axe of a nurse glare at me from across the ER, as Sandy told her the story between painful moans. "The police are on the way, Hon." the nurse would say as the wheeled Sandy into the operating room. And suddenly Mom would appear in the seat next to me in the waiting room. "She was your baby sister. You were supposed to take care of her. Why? Why?" Mom shrieked...
Sandy said nothing but she was breathing heavily. At least she was still alive. Dear God. A tear fell down my cheek to land on Sandy's bottom.