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"I'm just going to come out with it," I said, leaning back on my couch. "I'm absolutely crazy about you."
"I know," Marie replied seriously, unsmiling, suddenly seeming much more sober than she had moments ago.
That's not the response I had been hoping to hear, but everything about my friendship with Marie had been confounding.
I'd been pining for her since the very first time we met. I was at a friend's birthday celebration when I saw her walk in. What first grabbed my attention was her face: gorgeous dark eyes, pink lips pulled into a beautiful smile, straight black hair, and fair skin. My eyes moved down her short, thin body, taking note of what looked like large breasts hidden under a tight sweater. I was smitten immediately.
I talked to her as much as I could that night. She was smart and clever, and while I realized that her interests tended to run nerdier than mine, I wished I could have stayed up all night talking with her. I was too chicken to ask her out the first night, but when I saw her at a party a week later and we found ourselves chatting again, I forced myself to do it.
"Sorry. I'm just not looking to date someone right now," she replied.
"Oh. Right." I was a little crushed and a little panicked that my dream girl was slipping away. "Well, maybe we could just hang out as friends? Study together?"
She seemed to perk up at the idea. "I could always use a study buddy," she said, smiling.
And that's what I became. It turns out that my nerdy Marie had weird sleeping habits, so two or three times per week, I would meet her around 10 pm in the dreary basement lounge of the college's chemistry building. We'd spend an hour or so actually reading our respective textbooks, but then we'd get to talking: about TV and music and our classes and our friends, but also about weightier topics, like her experience losing her mom to cancer. Before we knew it, it would be 3 am, and I'd walk Marie back to her dorm.
After a few months of this, Marie started coming over to my apartment once a week to watch a TV show--as much as she loved television, she didn't have cable. Sometimes I'd make her dinner, and some nights I'd make us drinks.
This was one of those nights. I'd maybe had one too many, and I couldn't stop myself from telling Marie how I still felt about her.
"I know how you feel about me, Jon. I mean, how much time you spend with me, the way you look at me, of course I can tell," she said.
"But you're not interested."
"No, it's not that! I'd love to be with you. But I can't."
"Why?" I asked. "With all the time we spend together, I can't imagine there's another guy..."
"No," Marie said. "There are just things...about me...that...wouldn't make me a good girlfriend."
"Well that's a problem, because I can't imagine anyone else in the world being my girlfriend," I said. Feeling bold, I put my hand on her thigh.
"I'm serious," she said, but she didn't move my hand.
"So am I. Whatever it is that you think makes you undatable, believe me, we can make it work."
Marie didn't say anything. She bit her lip. She seemed to be thinking. Then she gave just the slightest of nods. Within a second, I was leaning down, pressing my lips to hers. Months of pent-up desire poured out of me as I pulled her body to mine. I think I groaned into her mouth.
I led her into the bedroom, where I quickly undid her jeans and pushed them down her narrow hips and thighs. As she stepped out of them, I lifted her shirt up and then pushed her down on the edge of the bed. She lay back, and it was the most exciting thing I'd ever seen: my beautiful Marie, in just a bra and cotton panties, spreading her legs for me.
In a blur I was on top of her, kissing her pretty mouth, and together we pulled off my own clothes. Now naked, I ground my hard cock against her panty-covered pussy as we made out, my tongue entwined with hers. I longed to see and feel her fully naked, and when my excited hands struggled to undo her bra, she smiled and reached back, elegantly unclasping it.
Her breasts were every bit as spectacular as I'd imagined them, round and perky and topped with two dark, hard nipples. I kissed the soft skin of each breast before taking a nipple into my mouth, teasing the tip with my tongue as my lips lightly pressed the base. Marie moaned, and I felt myself grow harder.
As I suckled her breast, my hand slid under the waistband of her panties, cupping her warm pussy. I ran the tip of my finger between her lips, feeling the wetness. Then I found Marie's clitoris. She moaned again and lifted her hips, reaching down to slide her panties down her legs. My sweet Marie was now naked and spread wide for me.
My fingers explored her, teasing her little clit and then sliding inside her. Her pussy was warm and wet and tight, and each time I thrust my fingers inside her, Marie let out a moan.
"Marie, can I fuck you?" I asked.
She nodded, so I got up form the bed and got a condom, rolling it onto my hard, aching cock. I kneeled between her thighs, rubbing the swollen cockhead against her slit. Then I grabbed her hips and slowly forced myself inside her.
At that point in my life, I'd been with a few girls, including one or two who I had really loved. But what I felt with Marie was unlike anything I'd felt in my life. The girl I'd be thinking about constantly for months, pining for with (what I thought was) unrequited love, was giving herself to me, letting me take her inch by slow inch. I knew I wouldn't last long.