On Valentine's Day, a lonely nurse rediscovers her brother
This is my entry into the
Literotica Valentine's Day Contest 2021
. I hope you like it, and please vote!
Warning:
This story contains healthy doses of exhibitionism as well as incest, and one group sex scene
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I used to be married. Bernard and I were high school sweethearts, then on-and-off collegiate lovers, then bride and groom right after college. It lasted until we divorced at age 27, citing irreconcilable differences. Her name was Maribeth, and I couldn't blame Bernard too much: Maribeth was pretty, sexy, and in fact his dream woman. We had no children, so it made it all fairly easy. More power to him. Damned, however, if I would put up with something like that.
Bernard got off easy. His stay in the hospital was only two days, and even though everyone knew I had put him there, he never told the cops it was me. That, you see, is love; or maybe it's guilt. My Hoosier sister Nancy says it's male masochism. I don't know which it is, and I don't care. Good riddance and may he rot on the garbage heap of the dregs of humanity. God knows, he has lots of company there.
I've been constructing a life for myself in New York, in a small apartment, it being all that I can afford. I even found a doormat that has my name (Michelle) on it, and now visitors can wipe their feet on my name, instead of on me. I'm a big fan of the power of symbolism. I don't, however, have many visitors during this age of the pandemic.
Indeed, with the pandemic raging all around us, I'm now alone, living a solitary, hopelessly depressing life. I cook for myself, and believe me, when you're living alone, it's hard to get motivated to make a nice meal for yourself. It's ironic, because I love cooking, and I love eating good food even more. I've kind of found a work-around to my problem: Sometimes I make it more interesting by cooking topless. It saves my blouses and my bras, if there's the occasional splash, or spill, and it makes the cooking a little erotic, and not so boring.
My apartment is on the fourth floor, and if the lights are on, I suppose people on the fourth, fifth, or sixth floors across the street can see me. People on higher floors can, too, but only if I'm near the window, which I rarely am. Trust me, cooking topless makes cooking for one person a lot more fun. I get to think about who might see me, and what they might think if they do. It hopefully brightens up their lives, too. Win-win, right?
With the new topless cooking tradition, I make dishes that take more time, with more steps involved in their creations, and get titillated (so to speak) as I imagine people watching me, and in particular my boobs, as they bounce around my tiny kitchen. Then the next day or two I have leftovers accompanied with erotic memories of my fantasies while cooking.
I never knew if anyone saw me cooking topless, and I also never knew if anyone who might have seen me cooking so attired (or better, not attired) was even interested. That innocence, however, came to an end, one day much later, when I met my neighbor Douglas from across the street, in the Fairway supermarket one afternoon.
Douglas recognized me, introduced himself, explaining that he lived across the street, and he would often see me cooking. He let that hang. We made a little small talk and finally I asked him, "Do you enjoy my shows?" Douglas was around his mid-fifties, elegantly graying at his temples, thin, and fit.
"I love them, Michelle. They're the highlight of my day. I bought a telescope with a camera attachment to better appreciate them. Is that okay with you?" he asked. Before I could reply, he added, "You really must meet my son Michelangelo, although he goes by Mike. You two might really hit it off."
"I'll try to give you a special show this evening," I replied.
"I'll tell Mike. He comes over from time to time, and he loves your shows, too," Douglas said.
"I can imagine," I said.
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At this point however, I was blissfully ignorant of Douglas, or his son Mike, and their sophisticated voyeuristic ways. The way my mind works, the fantasies it generates are more interesting than any reality might have been. Reality, in fact, might have been freaky. After all, I'm a reasonably attractive, relatively young woman, in my late twenties/early thirties, with (modesty aside) great boobs, and if someone enjoyed my shows, he (or she!) might be anywhere from 18 to 85 years old. Who needs that kind of reality?
I should mention my profession. I'm a nurse, and I work at Columbia Presbyterian Hospital on the Upper West Side of Manhattan, New York City. When I say 'upper,' I do indeed mean upper: It's at West 168th Street, in Harlem. It's not a super dangerous neighborhood to live in, but a single woman should always be prudent, and alert, when walking alone. You never know, do you?
Nurses, especially good ones, are in high demand currently, in these days of the pandemic. I work long hours, dealing with the desperately ill, constantly, and it takes a toll. Besides being alert, because a mistake in the ICU can cost a life, I try to be loving and compassionate with the victims of Covid-19, and later their families. In truth, it's exhausting, and in the evening, I often fall into bed, both sympathy and empathy drained low, and still half dressed.
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My older brother Evan is also in the medical profession, being an MD, and he worked at the ICU of St. Vincent's Hospital in Indianapolis. (I'm originally from Indiana, born and raised in a tiny hamlet north of Lafayette, known as Brookston.) I came to New York because of my former husband Bernard, who is now trying to rekindle things with me, but who is doomed to failure. Apparently Maribeth did not work out as he had hoped. Anyway, after the divorce, since I had a good job as a nurse at a great hospital, I just stayed in New York. Also, I love Dominican food.
I said my brother Evan 'worked' at the ICU, as opposed to 'works,' because Columbia Presbyterian offered him a job in their ICU. St. Vincent's is an excellent hospital, with a good reputation for heart surgery, but Columbia Presbyterian is in the big leagues of hospitals, and since he had his little sister (me) there already, he accepted the offer. Rumors abound back in Indiana that his little sister might have played a role in his being hired, but I say rumors are just that: Rumors. It's always best to ignore people's nasty, wagging tongues. I mean, gossip is just that, right? It's gossip.
My brother and I have different last names. My maiden name is Savoyard, but Bernard's last name (which I still have) is Caruthers. Yes, we're both from Indiana, but so too are 6.7 million other souls, so nobody would jump to the conclusion that we're siblings. I always thought Michelle Savoyard was a classy name; it fits me. Michelle Caruthers kind of sucks as a name, but there it is. At least nobody suspects we're siblings.
Rumors about my love life abound, too. After all, I was single after my divorce, lived alone, was surrounded by death and dying people day in and day out, and in desperate need for distractions, while too tired to find them. I projected vulnerability.
So perhaps it's not surprising that rumor has it that I dated a doctor for a while, broke it off when I found he also had a girlfriend who wasn't me, and then dated three more doctors in rapid succession. According to those rumors I was 'passed around' amongst the doctors, and that's just a plain nasty thing for anyone to think, let alone to say, even if, in some sense, I guess it's true.
The second doctor I allegedly dated, I had learned was married (according to rumor), and the third one I just didn't like. Why sleep with a man you don't even like? Just to have a man in your bed? Yes, I did it for a while, but then one day I stumbled over a small cache of self-respect, hidden deep inside my underwear drawer, and I finally kicked him out.
He didn't like me that much, either, so he took it well. With #3 I enjoyed the sex -- a lot -- and that's good, to be sure, but it's not enough to stay together and to build a relationship upon. If there's no affection behind sex, it's ultimately unsatisfying, unfulfilling, or at least that's the way I am made. The fourth and last Doctor-lover gave me an STD. That is, according to the rumors. Enough said, right?
Yet, after our break-up, Doctor #3 would come around, from time to time, when he was horny and wanted a quick and easy lay, with a sexy, pushover of a nurse. Yes, this insecure, lonely, and perpetually horny, and pathetic woman, would oblige him with some wild sexual romps. He'd bring flowers, I'd cook him a nice meal (topless, of course), we'd discuss the news of the day, and then it would be sex, sex, and more sex. I never again, however, let him spend the night.
Finally, I couldn't take it anymore. Sure, I was using him, but more importantly, I felt used. He was history, and I let him know in no uncertain terms. Cast iron frying pans were bandied about, and few things are more convincing than that.
I had been an easy target after my divorce. I was depressed, lonely, without much self-esteem, and most all I was vulnerable. I'm one of those women who always needs to have a man around, and not just for killing cockroaches at which, I've found, they are universally good.
I'm a touchy-feely person and -- quite frankly -- I need hugs. I need lots of hugs, and better still, if they're loving hugs. I know, I know, I should have gotten a dog, but you have to walk a dog four times a day and I work 12 to 14-hour days. I hate cats, so let's not go there. Anyway, dogs are not practical. Men are easier, and in addition, they can be imposed upon to relieve my near constant horniness. Let's not forget, too, that they'll kill your cockroaches.
So in retrospect, it's not surprising that I was easy pickings for Doctor #1. (I'm not using the names of the doctors.) Once I had discovered that Doctor #1 had a long-time girlfriend whom he loved, and that I was just a little extra pussy on the side, I was crushed. I had fallen for #1, big time. He was my rebound affair, after the disaster that was named Bernard Caruthers. Doctor #2, a good friend of Doctor #1, comforted me once I had broken it off with Dr. #1, and he too was a rebound affair, this time rebounding from Dr.#1. That was how he too got into my panties. Then I learned he was actually married (his wife didn't understand him, and all that bullshit), and I became a hopeless wreck.
I was more careful with Doctor #3 and checked out his love life six ways from Sunday. As I explained earlier, even though the sex was good, he was just not the man for me. At least, however, I was not in the role of some extra, side pussy in his case! Doctor #4 gave me an STD, and that's all you need to know about him!