(This is the second part of an ongoing story. I recommend reading part one first, which you can find in my profile.)
It's still raining by the time I finish with work, the skies the color of lead as I trudge to my car, exhausted and on edge. Puddles have formed inside the parking garage, water dripping and leaking everywhere. They say there could be flooding and power outages, downed trees and landslides; it's a real doozy of a storm that's hit us, a once-in-a-decade type event. It's worrisome, to be sure -- but it's not the reason I'm stressed the fuck out.
Nor is it the fact that I spent most of my day in meetings. To tell the truth, I was zoned out a lot of the time. I'm damn tired, and it's just so hard to focus.
No...what has me on edge, what has me freaked the fuck out is the fact that I fooled around with my stepdaughter last night. That I'd given into temptation; that I'd crossed a line.
*Goddamn. How could I let something like this happen?*
Fuck! I bang my fist against the hood of my car, watching the rain pour down outside.
Shakily I light up a cigarette, grinding my teeth. How the hell had I let things get so far out of control? She'd been so scared, so sweet and warm. I'd just wanted to protect her, to have her by my side. But then one thing had led to another, and I just couldn't tell her 'no', and then...
"Fuck!" I shout, my frustrated voice echoing off the cold cement of the garage. I don't even want to think about it...I don't even want to think about *her*. I've been avoiding checking my phone all day, and to be honest I'm afraid to go home. How do you go back after something like that, what do you say? What the hell kind of father am I? I'm a creep -- I'm a goddamn villain as far as I'm concerned.
I take a long drag, welcoming the uncomfortable burn in my lungs.
*You deserve it, you asshole.*
Things had been awkward in the morning when we woke up on the couch in each other's arms. She'd wanted to kiss, she'd wanted to cuddle...I'd needed to get away. I had doubts, regrets, reservations. I'd dropped her off at her campus without saying much, and the look on her face had been heartbreaking.
Fucking shit. What the hell do I do now?
I finish my cigarette and immediately start with another, numbly watching the puddles outside grow and grow. It's not til my work phone goes off that I stir, snatching it up and staring.
It's an emergency alert. I glance it over for a few seconds, half reading. Suddenly, something clicks, and I feel a shiver go up and down my spine.
'Broken levee...flooding all along Calabasas Canal, Little Bear Creek, Montalvo Road...Residents advised to evacuate immediately.'
*What? That's...that's where my house is.*
A cold sensation settles into my gut, and immediately I'm scrambling to find my cell, to pull out that very phone I'd been trying to avoid. My hand trembles as I unlock it; I've got missed messages, I've got missed calls...most of them from Viv.
'Daddy I'm really sorry if I made you mad...I never want to do that, I just want to make you happy. I'm out of class early today, I'll get a ride to the store and make us dinner, okay? You can just relax, I'll take care of things =)'
'Dad I just noticed the water in the creek out back is really high. I'm a little worried...when are you coming home?'
'Dad can you call me as soon as you can? It's getting into the back yard, im sorry I don't know where the sandbags are, im not sure what to do. Can you come home soon?'
'Dad where are you please come home im scared, its getting in the house I dont know what to do'
'Dad???'
*Oh my god, Vivian...*
I call her, and as it goes straight to voicemail I'm already jumping into the drivers seat, slamming the car into reverse, flooring it out of the parking garage and tearing off down the waterlogged road.
*
It's a harrowing drive back through the woods to my place; I take every turn at entirely unsafe speeds, whipping around corners, crunching fallen branches beneath my tires. Toppled trees almost block the way in a few places, with emergency crews out trying to clear them. The men wave me down, pointing frantically to their 'Road Closed' signs. I just ignore them, maneuvering my car around the debris, driving over and through it where I have to and speeding past.
All the while, I keep a wary eye on the canyon beside the road. Normally almost empty, it's now filled to the brim with swift-moving, turbulent brown water. Here and there it overruns the road and I splash through it as fast as I dare, my heart in my throat. Along the way I see some of my neighbors' houses -- those on the creek-side are flooded to the top of the first level. Knowing nothing but panic, I speed on.
When I round the last bend, I can't even breathe. My house is built at a curve in the creek, except now the water's topped the banks and submerged just about everything. The front yard, the backyard, most of the road...the river's running almost up to the eaves of the first floor, the current looking swift and dangerous. Viv's pink Volkswagen still sits in the driveway, just the top of it showing.
"Viv!" I scream at the top of my lungs as I get out of the car, my voice lost in the roar of the river. "Vivian!"
My head is in my hands, I don't know what to do, I'm freaking out -- and then suddenly everything slows. Instinct kicks in, and in a moment it's all so simple: I just have to find my Vivian. I just have to find her, no matter what.
I don't remember opening my trunk but suddenly there's a rope in my hands, and I tie it tightly around myself, a strange calm descending on me. I don't think about what I'm about to do, I just do it. With a few quick knots the other end of the rope is secured to the frame of my car; then I'm turning the wheels, pulling on the e-brake as hard as I can, and wading right in.
The water feels angry and alive, frothing and swirling and pulling me in three directions at once. It's up to my waist and terrifyingly strong, but with slow determined strides I manage to make my way through to the front yard, screaming my stepdaughter's name all the while, yelling myself hoarse.
*Maybe she left? Maybe she went to get help? Maybe the neighbor's took her?*
It gets deeper and deeper the further I go, the closer to the house I get. Fortunately there's an old tree in the yard I'm able to grab onto to steady myself -- I'd thought it an eyesore, I'd meant to get rid of it, but right now I could kiss the damn thing.
Hissing with effort, I pull myself up into its branches, moving unsteadily along them towards the second story of the house, towards one of the windows.
Suddenly she's there, staring at me through the glass; I feel like my heart could burst. She's terrified, her big brown eyes huge, her hands clasped tight together.
"Dad!" she screams as she fumbles at the latch and opens the window. "Oh my god Dad quick, come inside! It's not safe!"
I shake my head emphatically, reaching out to her, just inches from the roof now. "Viv! *No* baby, no. We need to leave. Sweetie we need to leave *right now*, come with me quick."
She pales visibly, looking past me to the rushing water, which even now is creeping higher and higher, inching its way towards my car on the higher ground of the road.
"Dad, I...Dad we can't, it's..."
"*Vivian*!" my shout snaps her out of her terrified stupor and brings her stare back to me. "Baby listen to me: you have to come out of the house, we have to go. I'm going to get you to the car, okay? We're going to be okay...but we have to leave right now. Okay? Come here and give me your hand."
She's trembling, but slowly she nods her head. "O...okay, one sec."