I had lain in wait, in the dark, in his bed, naked, with my back to where he would lay, waiting for him to come home – trusting he would be seeing such a Ready for Love open invitation from his partner, climb into the bed with her (substitute: me). My plan was working well.
By the time he realised it was me, his penis was sliding its way between my cheeks from behind, looking for my opening. He had lubricated the length of his penis and it felt truly delicious pushing around the entrance to my private place. Lubricated so, it would slip in easily. Good.
I wriggled a bit to keep the pressure of it there and squirmed with delight against him. And it pressed there even harder, threatening to push into me. I was crazy. His hand was on my breast, his lips on my neck and cheek and in my hair and that penis was truly pulsing at my opening.
"Kellie?" he questioned, almost aloud and looked down into my eyes as I turned to face him in the dark. It was the moment that I had been dreading – would the delicious fun be over? He moved with a start, taking his hand from my breast, though his penis stayed almost where it had been. He brushed the long hair from my eyes, and looked closely, as if seeking to confirm that it was me in his bed. I could not speak.
"Kellie? What?"
I only wanted him not to care, to want me so much that he would stay there with me and take me. Was he past the point of no return? I could only hope. I truly wanted him, wanted his penis thick and full inside me, his chest hard against me. Tall, dark haired, tightly muscled and handsome - and the sweetest, loving man I had known. He was twice my age, but that in itself was exciting too. Now his hand stroked my face gently and, warmed by his touch and attention, I relaxed enough to wriggle myself in closer, bringing his penis to my vaginal opening.
Our faces were only centimetres apart, our lips within meeting distance. I had been enjoying the way he left a trail of kisses across the back of my neck and along my cheek, and waited for the moment his mouth reached mine, hoping that it would happen before he discovered it was me. And now I had captured his eyes and given him a smile, somewhat shy but wanting, which I hoped would say I needed him to kiss me, really kiss me. I waited.
I stirred against him, wriggling him in closer to me, his penis now almost reaching the point where it entered me. I could not believe he was staying, not going crazy at me for tricking him.
I was dizzy with excitement. He made no move to retreat and I felt him grow harder against my vaginal opening. He had been drinking that night I knew, perhaps that was on my side here.
"Kellie," he said, this time softly, yet with that inquisitive tone. "Why, how... you tried this to get me making love to you. Where's Mom?"
"Away at her Mom's" I said. "She asked me to tell you but..."
"You had other ideas."
"Mmmm hmmm. Sorry Dad, I..."
I stopped short as his hand returned to my breasts, caressing and cupping them, taking their fullness in his palm.
I reached behind his head and ran my hand through his hair, holding his head where our lips were close and our eyes locked - and applying so subtly, pressure to draw him in. I was trying to talk now but still found it almost impossible. I'd have to give it all I had to keep him here with me, and at last I found voice.
"I'm sorry. You know how much I love you and that I'm always flirting with you and stuff....I didn't think there was any other way we would get to sleep together. I want you to love me this way and know you want me too. But you won't do anything about it, you think that it's wrong and..."
His hand had played at my hair and moved down to gently stroke my lips, then covered my mouth to hush me.
I took his hand away and continued, "I'm eighteen now, old enough to know what I want and I've wanted this ever since the time we were together alone after getting caught in the rain storm..."
I tried to softly guide his head toward me for that kiss and wriggle again to take him in, but now he held off.
"Kellie, are you sure? You could have any one you want, you're so young and beautiful," he told me softly.
"I love you so much too – perhaps more than a father should too and this is so hard for me just now – part of me screams this is wrong and I should get up and go...but being so close to you like this... wow."
His voice tapered off and we spent minutes just staring into each other's eyes, and gently stroking each other. An intersection of total honesty. My hand reached down to gently touch the head of his penis and press it to my vagina, massaging my clitoris with it and pushing it into my opening.
"You know, it was your breasts that gave away your secret," he said.
I smiled, acceptingly. My breasts are much fuller than those of my mother. The similar slim build we shared otherwise and the long, long hair we both had made it easy - and the fact that I was naked (that was my mother's signal to him that she was 'ready for love') I knew, had got me this far. The darkness of the bedroom had served me well too in getting to this point.
Had I hoped we would have sex without him knowing? Yes, in a naughty kind of way, but knew it was most likely I would be discovered.
And now we were here - a critical point - neither of us knowing what to say, and our lips getting closer together so, so slowly. It was agonising to wait. I wriggled more, enjoying the feel of him almost inside. And suddenly, the point came when the head of his penis had pushed with enough pressure to slip the head inside.
"Ohhhh," I gasped and pulled him closer, urging him into me from behind.
Both of our eyes widened in alarm. He jolted upward, out of me. Then he stopped, smiled and raised himself upward. I was mystified and thought he was gracefully backing away from the situation. I began to break into shame, anger with myself and disappointment.
He left the room, confirming my fears...
I rolled over to turn away, crying silent tears.
What had I done? I wondered of the consequences.
But he had wanted me, I knew. He had.
There was a movement in the room and on the bed. I felt his hands take away the sheet that covered me. He rolled me over toward him, lifted my leg, and knelt in between my legs, lowering himself on to me. To see his muscular body coming down on to me in the dark and his penis guiding itself right at my opening was wild. My hands found his shoulders and pressed his body down to me. That kiss finally came and it melted me with its wanting, love and desire. It was the kiss I would always remember. It went on and on, became stronger and more searching. We parted then to gaze into one another's eyes.
"This will have to be the biggest secret Kellie, you know that?" he said, now moving himself to take me. I felt his penis moving around, pushing at my opening. My heart lifted and raced away with imaginings of what might happen that night.
"Oh, Dad!" I whispered loudly and my tears became happy ones. My whole being was shouting with incredible joy!
Then, as he looked in my eyes again, a simple whisper of the words "make love to me," was all it took to invite him into stronger kisses, and movement now which slid his long penis so deliciously slowly into me.
I had it all - that great penis that brought so much pleasure for my mother, writhing in ecstasy at night and waking me with her moans. That penis that had grown erect before my eyes that afternoon after we were drenched by rain and undressed hurriedly together in the bathroom after the rainstorm.