"I know you are going to say that 32 is too young for you lol" was the first thing typed in the new IM window that had just opened up for me.
Laugh out loud I did, because I am usually really taken and attracted to men around that very age! Immediately, I typed in my response: "Not at all, I usually love men that age!"
"Oh, really?"
"Yes really, dear."
"Well, I have a thing for older women."
So began my relationship with Jeff. And what a story there is to tell about that one!
It was only a few moments later that I was gazing at a picture of his face in my email window. The head shot was so big that I had to scroll down the page in order to view his whole face, and as each gorgeous feature revealed itself on my computer screen, I was left sitting back in my chair with my mouth hanging wide open⦠I was surprised I was not literally drooling by the time I got down to his chin! He was wearing a navy blue baseball cap, with the rim toward the back, so most of his head was covered. Enough of the thick, shiny, nearly black, short cropped hair remained exposed however, so I could see that he had a pretty full head of it, and next to appear before me were his huge, round dark brown eyes, looking straight into my soul, I felt. His nicely shaped nose was next, and scrolling a bit further down, the screen revealed two perfectly sensuous, slightly thin, dark red lips, unsmiling, yet still hinting at a bit of a devilish grin hidden not too far from the surface. You could not actually say that he had a goatee, but his five o'clock shadow was really much more like a little further down the line, say oh about midnight!!!
All of a sudden I realized I had been so enthralled by studying his beautiful features, that I had left him hanging in cyberspace. He was probably thinking by now that I did not like his picture, so I had dumped him.
"Jeff, I think u r an absolute doll!" I typed in quickly, as I turned on my webcam so he could see my face at the same time. "That is really a great picture of u!"
"WOW! I am gonna be blunt, but you are HOT! Are you looking for a boy toy? Or a man toy? Lol just joking!"
It would not be until a bit further on down the road that I came to realize that every single time Jeff would ask me a question and then tell me to nevermind it, he was just joking, were going to be the times when he was actually dead on serious about what he had asked. I would soon learn that not only did Jeff want to be my boy toy, he wanted to be, truly, my baby boy, and he wanted me to be his Mommy!
It was a dam good thing he did not press that issue early on, because if he had, I would have had no interest in him at all. I always felt I never wanted to be any lover's mother image, and I really believed that mothering a man in and out of the bedroom was nothing but a tremendous turn-off. And because I felt that way then, I ignored all of his questions that referred to that type of relationship for quite some time.