Continuation of the Jessy19/DanDresden story about a boyfriend and brother that have the same name ...
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On the short drive home, I turned facing the window. Between drops on the glass, I am sure my expression was unreadable. So deep in thought, shadowed eyes did not appear to focus on anything. I didn't say a word on the trip home.
Nick didn't like the silent treatment and yelled at me in the car: "WOMAN! I brought you to a climax, over and over. That was no fake sigh or a groan. You were trembling and taking short gulps of air gave you away. You did not utter a whisper. At no time did you signal you wanted to stop. In return all I get was the silent treatment and a case of blue balls."
Barely waiting for the car to stop, I practically vaulted out, slamming the car door. Careful to stay upright in slippery grass, a quick sprint was followed by a slower pace as I neared the house. I wanted to be careful not to be noticed or make a commotion, I crept safely to my room as the door sealed in my little world.
Plugging my phone into the charger by the bed, I dialed my own personal 911 -- Kate, picked up on the first ring.
"There you are, I was wondering where you were off to," Her answer was followed by silence. After several seconds of quiet she tested the waters "is everything all right?"
"MEN! All they think about is getting off," I barked though the connection.
"What, no who are you talking about?" Kate probed. After my unintelligible stream of words and noises she followed with "OK, spill it. Take your time and don't leave anything out."
It took several attempts, not knowing where to start or what to divulge, leaving nothing out I went back to the beginning when I couldn't find my phone. I narrated my story from home to school, playing with the costumes and being stuck in the closed.
"What I story, you're making me blush. I wished it were me" she mused, "a lot of women fantasize about being captive, or carried without a choice, then seduced by passion. No responsibility or guilt. I would never say you lead him on, but you were playful and paraded your naked body."
"Are you saying this was some kind of reward? He is my own blood, " I said. "You don't get it. Don't you realize that my life would be over if we were caught? How could I explain being naked in the closet, with my brother no less! Gossip in this town is a social skill. Facebook spreads rumor faster than the flu: friends, family, and strangers; pick your poison. I could almost picture the buzz flying over the airwaves like bees to a flower field. ."
"Take it easy. You're always telling me not to get hung up on the shoulda -- coulda - woulda's. No one saw what was on your phone. You have him to thank for that, and no one suspects you were even there, your secrets are safe with me " Within my chest, I felt a jealous pang when Kate offered: "you leave Nicky to me. I'm really surprised at his skill as a lover. I never saw that side of him. I guess he saved the best for you. You have enough on your hands with one Nick"
"You have a point. Maybe I should give it a rest. I am grateful for his help. I said goodbye, thank you and hung up, not wanting to get into the Kate and Nick connection. Disaster had been averted so the greatest need now was to calm down It might have been my imagination, but my body itched all over. It felt dirty; how many people that worn those outfits? Time for a long, hot shower. Soaping and scrubbing the entire body until tender to the touch. Washing away the last remnants of lather, everything on the outside felt sparkling clean. I didn't feel that way inside. Hair wrapped in a towel, I threw myself on the bed, not even bothering to dry off. A sudden lethargy came, like a ghostly inhabitation. "So tired ... sleep now."
And sleep I did; weighted down by the previous wakeful night. The next thing I knew it was early afternoon. Did mother leave lunch on my nightstand? I don't remember it being there before. An unpleasant reminder of senior high, she would come into my room unannounced to roust me for school; each day was a battle of wills. And the weekends? Sometimes staying in bed all day in late fall, I remember those bitter blues: "What's the use? The day is so short. Why should I get up anyway?" Foggy winter days there was nothing to do, mood matching the muddled grey sky.