The old saying about strippers, hookers, sluts and other members of my tribe is that we have "daddy issues." There's a lot of truth to that. Our personal baggage overflows with oft times traumatic memories of Daddy.
But let's put the whole truth on the table here. In just about every case, Daddy is the one with the issues. Issues like alcohol abuse, sadistic personalities, manipulative/predatory behavior and poor impulse control. The end result is we end up underneath them. Sometimes by choice. Sometimes by force. Sometimes it's a combination of the two.
So we're fucked up because our Dads fucked us up and we have mental disorders because our Moms were enabling psycho bitches ignoring or even condoning what was going on. (Or - as in my case - actually blaming us and being jealous of us for taking their husbands attention and affections.)
I had a court appointed shrink for a while that helped me understand all this. How all of this shit altered my personality and put me on the trajectory I was on. Prostitution. Drug abuse. Warped personal values. It was all in the DNA Dad shared with me, some of it passed through Mom as part of my genes and part of it ejaculated on me or in me.
It was a kind of abuse you could perversely acquire a taste for and I had. It was why I was what I was and why other girls became what they became. When you yearn for a fucked up version of that love only a father can give, it put your life choices outside of what society considered mainstream.
My sister and I shared a bond that came from shared experiences with dad. I won't get any farther into the details, but my guess is you can fill a lot of them in on your own. If you understand this about us, the rest of our relationship tends to make a bit more sense and it probably helps explain why we were the way we were.
Though we had the same upbringing her "trajectory" or life path had gone a much different direction than mine.
After high school I went into private commerce - selling myself on the street and on camera to make my living. I enjoyed my work, but it was a vocation with many downsides. It was actually a career I fell into out of necessity. I'd been tossed out of my house by my parents for being a bad influence on my sister, and you gotta do what you gotta do to eat.
Patty had things better. She was smarter than me and more talented. Lettered in softball all four years of school and maintained that 4.0 GPA. She wound up at the University on a near full boat scholarship, and though she faltered as a freshman she built a niche for herself with the athletic staff and alumni as a school ambassador. Specifically, she had a demonstrated talent for getting the attention of visiting star athletes that were considering declaring their intent with the University.
To be blunt about it, the University pimped out Patty for prospects. She fucked visiting athletes and more, letting them believe that her freaky talents would be available to them if they would sign on the dotted line.
A lot of those athletes did sign, and she almost never fucked them again, but it didn't matter. College athletes usually attracted their own stable of sluts anyway, and if they didn't, well that's what cheerleaders were for.
Anyway, I hadn't seen Patty since I had been kicked out of the house over three years before, but we had stayed in touch constantly. We shared everything - no shame or modesty - and because we knew where we came from and who we were, we had a comfort level together that siblings don't often have. Our average phone conversation would have made the boys in the locker room blush with its bluntness, and the occasional letters we sent each other would have made for fine fodder for the adult fiction websites should I have saved any. (I'd say that I burned them, but they were so hot I think it was actually spontaneous combustion.)