Author’s Note: Are you getting sick of these notes? Well, too bad because here’s another one. I just wanted to thank everyone for their patience and support. The feeling seems to have migrated from “This is too slow and boring” to “This is too fast and orgy-ish” to “Take your time and write it as you please.” As I said, I’m not that far ahead of what I submit, and due to computer problems I just lost an entire chapter. I may be able to get it back, depending on whether the hard drive needs replacing, but if not then I’ll just have write it again. Remember to keep the feedback coming. Are you sick of hearing that too?
And another big thanks toMaginMan
for the proofread. Here it is:
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Chapter 13
Josh’s life was something of a double-edged sword in the days after his full-fledged sexual encounter with Dawn. On the one hand, he now had an amiable relationship with his erstwhile nemesis; he was able to satisfy his sexual urges almost whenever he wished; and though he and Jacquie hadn’t been intimate in over a week, they had settled into a comfortable relationship that Josh knew he couldn’t do without. On the other hand, he was having an incredibly hard time lying to his sisters or skirting certain issues whenever he spoke to them. Once he had committed his thoughts to his diary, Josh began to formulate a rudimentary solution to his problem. He needed to simplify things; to slow down and stop hurtling towards so many new experiences that they threatened to suffocate him. Of course, formulating this plan and implementing it were not equally simple. Dawn made sure of that.
She would pop up in the most unlikely places, or at the most bizarre moments, pattering Josh with her sexually charged lingo.
“Hey, Josh,” she would say, “I’ve got a craving for some cock,” or, “My clit is so swollen – can you lick it for me?”
Josh did his best to discourage her advances, but Dawn would have none of it.
“Slow down?” she said when Josh raised the point one Tuesday afternoon. “Why would I want to do that?”
“I just think we’re taking things a little too fast,” Josh replied, taking a step back against the wall. Dawn’s proximity was doing crazy things to his mind. The smell of her hair was like a hammer that was smashing his Time-To-Simplify plan to bits.
Have I adopted the hippie motto?
Josh thought to himself.
“Too fast?” Dawn said, her voice still – at this point – even. “We’re not
dating
Josh. We can do whatever we want.”
“I know,” Josh replied, fetching up against the wall. “I just...maybe it’d be better if we...you know...savoured what we were doing...rather than doing it so often.”
“Oh, so you don’t want to fuck me any more? Is that it?”
“No,” said Josh. “Of course not. I...I like fucking you. It’s great fun. Really great fun. I just...”
“Just what, Josh?” Dawn took a step forward, putting her palms flat on the wall on either side of Josh’s body. Her face was perilously close, looking innocently up at him with her big brown eyes sheltered beneath her eyelashes.
“…want to slow down,” Josh squeaked.
Dawn stared at him blankly for a moment; then she stepped back and looked at him as if he had gone quite mad. “What is wrong with you?”
“What? What do you mean?”
“I thought teenage guys were supposed to be horny twenty-four seven. You should be...pulling my skirt down or something.”
“It’s not like I don’t want to,” Josh replied defensively. “I just...don’t want to do it so often that it becomes...boring.”
Dawn’s eyes flashed. “So I’m
boring
now, am I?”
“No...no! Of course not.”
“Well, sorry if I’m
boring
you Josh. I didn’t mean to be such drag. I guess having your cock sucked by your
sister
isn’t exciting enough for you!”
“
Not
what I said,” Josh replied feebly. Dawn wasn’t exactly taking this the way he had hoped. But then why should that surprise him? “I didn’t say you were boring. You’re not. You’re...far from it.”
“Far from it?” Dawn asked, calming down (Josh hoped – he could never tell with Dawn).
“Yes,” replied Josh. “Far,
far
from it. The complete
opposite
of boring.”
“Yeah?”
“Yeah.”
“But you want to slow down?”
“If that’s all right with you.”
Dawn sighed and put her hands on her hips. “I suppose I should listen to you considering you’re the deep-and-meaningful-relationship guy.”
Was that an insult or a compliment?
Josh wondered. “So what exactly do you mean by slowing down? Can we still fuck?”
“Yes. But not every night.”
Dawn snorted. “Well
that’s
no fun.”
“We might get caught, Dawn!”
“We didn’t get caught the other night.”
“But we could have been. It’s dangerous.”
“Okay, okay,” Dawn said, sighing. “No daily-fucking. What about all the other stuff?”
“We can do that too. Just not every time the others have a toilet break or something. We have to be
alone
.”
Dawn sighed again. “Fine.”
“Okay?”
“Okay.”
“All right.”
Dawn looked down at the floor for a minute and then back up. “Wanna go make out?”
“Sure.”
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Josh began to experience pangs of guilt whenever he was around Jacquie. He felt almost as though he had betrayed her by shacking up so shamelessly with Dawn. He did, however, still have the desire to be with Jacquie again, to be nervous and tender and exploratory. Not only that but he really enjoyed their subtle flirting. Subtle was a word completely foreign to his other, raven-haired sister.