*Timmy is clearly over the age 18. So is his mom.*
I was worried about my son. He had just turned 18 and was still terribly shy and socially awkward. He was already introverted when his father ran off 4 years ago. After that, the wheels fell off and his self-imposed isolation grew worse and worse. To the best I knew, his only friends were on-line. He had never been on a date, or ever asked a girl out. His life revolved around computer games, Dungeons and Dragons, comic books, and on-line chess.
Yeah, I was worried about him.
I was racked with indecision. Should I talk with him? Let things go on as they are? Try to find a professional for him to talk with? I just didn't know. Like him, I have always found it difficult to talk about uncomfortable, personal feelings. Conversations involving my private life, particularly sexual issues, have never come easily to me.
After several days of going back and forth in my head, I decided the first step had to be a conversation. If I could get a better understanding of what was going on with him, we could figure out together what to do next.
I went to his bedroom and knocked on the door. "Timmy, can I come in and talk with you?"
There was a brief pause while he came to open the door. I stepped in and sat on the edge of his bed. He sat in his computer chair, facing me while his eyes were glued to the floor.
"I've got to tell you, sweetie, I'm worried about you. You seem so isolated, so alone. I never see you go out, hang out with friends at the mall, or go on any dates. What's going on? Doesn't any of that have any appeal to you?"
"I don't want to talk about it!"
I remained quiet and continued looking at him. He was quiet for a few moments and then the words began to tumble out in bunches. "Yeah, I wanna have friends! Yeah, I wanna date girls, but I just don't know how!"
He slowed down and began talking in a more normal tone. "Whenever I get around girls, my mind just locks up. I can never think of anything to say. I'm afraid anything I say or do is just gonna get laughed at. I couldn't stand that. I hate my life. I know I need help, but I don't know where to turn."
I was racked with confusion. My mind swam with half-formed ideas. After what seemed like ages, I finally settled on what I would offer. I said, "Would you like some help from me?"
Timmy sat there and then slowly nodded his head. His eyes were still glued to the floor. I took a deep breath and said, "Okay. I'm going to try to help you with this. Kick off your shoes and socks."
After he did so, I pulled him to his feet. I stood there for a moment, looking at him. There was still no eye contact. He looked confused and lost. "Trust me with this," I said.
With his shoes and socks off, I reached down, grabbed the hem of his T-shirt, and helped him pull it over his head. I rested my hands on his chest and then slowly slid both hands down to his belt buckle. I undid his belt. I moved to the button on his jeans, popped it open, and eased his zipper down. I pushed his jeans passed his hips and they fell to his ankles. "Slip off your jeans and sit on the bed."
He steadied himself with a hand on my shoulder and did as I instructed. When he was settled on the bed, I stood in front of him and began to undo the buttons of my blouse. When I reached the last button, I shrugged it off. Although he couldn't make eye contact, he was now staring at my chest. I could see his eyes widen and he couldn't take his eyes off my bra-clad tits. I let him look. I've always been a full-breasted woman but, to be honest, they had begun to sag just a bit although they still kept a nice shape. I let him stare for a few seconds and then hunched my shoulders, reached back, unhooked my bra, and let it fall. I straightened up and let him take in the sight of my bare breasts. I have large brown aureolas and thick, prominent nipples. I could feel my aureolas crinkle and my nipples harden.
I reached behind to unzip my skirt. This had the effect of lifting my breasts up and Timmy could not take his eyes off of them. I struggled with the zipper and then stepped forward and turned my back to him. "Help me with my zipper, please."
He fumbled for the tab and I could hear and feel the zipper come down. My skirt fell. I stepped out and turned to face him. I had put on a few pounds over the years and had developed small love-handles and a little buddha belly. It was nothing extreme, but I felt self-conscious and awkward. I stood there for a moment, drew in a deep breath, slipped my thumbs under the waistband of my panties, and peeled them down.