I was sure I was at the low point of my life and with nobody to blame but myself. I had been caught in a compromising position with my roommate by the housemother. She ran straight away to the dean and I was flunked out, dispelled, and then sent home in disgrace to my mother. Now I am here in mother's sitting room, awaiting her presence. I am sure she has already been informed of my indelicate affair and my fears of facing her are growing. My heart thumps harder as I hear the door to her boudoir open; Mother enters still in her dressing robe.
Afraid to move, I am frozen in place,
"Mommy, I am so sorry..."
"Hush Charles, once again you have shown that you have no self control. A boy in college should know better than to be caught naked with another boy. You have embarrassed me and for that you will be punished."
I raised my bowed head to look at mother in hopes of pleading my case but the look on her face tells me to keep my mouth closed. She is wearing the stern look of the matriarch and my first thought was that she might merely dismiss me from her life as she had my father so many years ago. Her long dark hair not yet put up, drapes across her shoulders and down her back, it makes her look like a cinema star of years past. I marveled to myself of how beautiful she still is, regal as a queen. She places her hands on her stately hips and I knew there was no getting out of this,
"Yes Mommy, I am ready to take whatever you wish to do to me."
As I'm saying this I'm thinking, what can she do, take my car, lower my allowance, I didn't really care.
Mother went and sat at her dressing table, as she sits her gown separates. I notice she is undressed, only wearing her foundation garment with the garters hanging down. She opens a drawer to take out a pair of stockings. I am drawn to her as a moth to the flame,