Jenn was relieved to finally be graduating high school, six months after turning 18. She was desperate to get on with her life and not be forced to do anything that didn't interest her, like school. A good student, she had always gotten good grades, not wanting to disappoint her grandparents who had raised her after her parents had been killed in an accident when she was just a little girl. She didn't even remember them.
Jenn had dreamed all her life of becoming an actress. Her only other living relative, an uncle, her father's younger brother, was an actor, always appearing in bit parts in various television shows and plays. Even though he was family, Jenn wasn't crazy about him, always thinking of him as a dirty old man, mostly because she had never seen him with the same woman twice and always with women who appeared to be much younger than him. Not a prude, Jenn felt that a 20-year difference in ages was inappropriate.
Jenn scoured the trade magazines, looking for any auditions that she might be able to attend, desperate to break into the world of theater and film as an actress. She tried to keep her spirits up as she'd attend each interview, only to leave disappointed when they'd decline to even let her audition due to her young age and total lack of experience except in a few school plays.
Jenn always tried to dress more maturely when she'd go for an interview after the first few disappointments, wanting to appear older when they first saw her so that when they realized how young that she actually was, that they'd consider her based upon her appearance. At 5'6" and 100lbs, Jenn was an attractive young woman with brown hair and hazel eyes, high wide cheekbones, and a sexy, come-hither smile. She had a long neck and slender legs, her full C-cup breasts incongruously filling her chest in contrast to her slight build, giving the impression of a physical maturity that belied her actual age.
"It's never easy," Dorothy, her grandmother told her when she came home in tears from yet another disappointing interview. "I remember wanting to quit trying, being turned down so many times. Then I finally got accepted, even though it was a very small, insignificant role, but I made the best of it and got noticed. From then on, even though they were small parts at first, I got more and more jobs until I was finally recognized and accepted as an actress. Eventually I got to the point where I could pick my jobs and not just have to settle for what I could get. But it's a life full of disappointments and you need to believe in yourself and have courage to succeed."
"I don't have to be famous or anything, but I want to be an actress," Jenn sobbed. "It's what I was meant to be, I know it."
"If that's the case, then you will be an actress," Henry, her grandfather said, smiling benignly. "Even your Uncle Paul still struggles to find parts at times and he's been doing this for more than 20 years."
"But at least he finds parts," Jenn complained. "He gets to act."
"Yes, he does, but he is seldom happy with the parts that he gets," Dorothy sighed. "Paul imagines himself to be a big romantic star, but his youth has passed him by and I don't think that will ever happen."
"He has all of those young girlfriends, though," Jenn said, shaking her head. "He sure acts the part."
"It's just window dressing, to assuage his ego," Henry said.
"As long as he's happy, that's what's important," Dorothy said. "I was happy with the least of roles as opposed to sitting at home without one. If you're driven and there is no life other than acting for you, then any role is better than no role. I'm sure that something will show up sooner or later and then you'll look back and laugh at the difficulties you had in making it."
"I sure hope so," Jenn sighed.
Jenn continued to look for auditions to sign up for, but not living in a mecca of film and entertainment, they were far and few between. Then one day she saw an advertisement in one of the trade magazines looking to audition players for an 'adventurous' new play. With a sigh, Jenn sent an email to the address listed and hoped to hear a reply. To her great surprise, a week later she received an email inviting her to interview to audition.
Desperate, Jenn dressed for her interview, wanting to make a good impression. She knew that her legs were one of her better features, so she wore a mid-thigh length skirt to show them off. A simple white blouse that allowed the lacy bra that she wore beneath to be seen through the material topped it off. Experience had already informed her that people had a hard time avoiding looking at her full breasts and she wanted to attract attention.
"This is a play about an older man who seduces a younger girl and trains her to be a sex toy that he shares with others," Simone, the director of the play explained to her. "It is very adult themed and there will be nudity and sexuality involved. You seem very young and you have no experience. I'm not sure that this is the part for you. Do you feel that you are capable of taking on a part like this, one that will involve nude sex scenes with multiple actors?"
"I want to be an actress," Jenn replied nervously. "I
am
an actress. I'm sure that I can play any part."
"You are very beautiful and there is an innocence about you that is very appealing that would suit the part," Simone observed, "but I don't know that you've had enough life experience to play the sexually hungry young woman that this play is about."
"I'm not a virgin, if that's what you mean," Jenn said, blushing.
"But have you ever considered what it would be like to perform a nude scene on stage, one with graphic sexuality?" Simone asked. "This play will only be performed in adult theaters to intimate audiences of 100 or less."
"I see," Jenn said, blanching slightly as what Simone was saying sank in.
"Maybe you'd like to think about it," Simone said. "I'm willing to let you try an audition, but only if you first think about it and decide that you're willing and capable of dealing with a part like this."
"Maybe I should think about it," Jenn conceded.
"I think that would be best," Simone agreed. "Here's my card," she said, handing it to her. "If you decide that you want to audition, just give me a call."
Jenn couldn't decide how she felt as she found her way home and flopped down on her bed. On the one hand, she was desperate for a part, any part, but on the other hand, while technically not a virgin, her depth and range of sexual experience wasn't that broad. She had been with a few different boys and had found the experiences a lot of fun, but the idea of being nude on stage gave her goose flesh. She didn't know if she could do that.
"Grandma, did you ever do any, uh, you know, nude scenes or anything like that?" Jenn asked at dinner that evening.
"Oh, my," Dorothy laughed. "Yes, I have to admit that I did, but only in my early years when I was trying to establish myself."
"What was it like?" Jenn asked.
"Oh, very embarrassing and also very exciting, all at once," Dorothy replied, smiling.
"Was that before or after you met Grandpa?" Jenn asked.
"Oh, after," Dorothy replied.
"Wasn't it hard, doing a love scene or a nude scene?" Jenn asked.
"At first, yes," Dorothy replied. "But I always had your grandfather there to support me."
"What do you mean?" Jenn asked.
"I can still remember your first love scene," Henry laughed. "She was so nervous, she wasn't going to do it until I offered to be there with her. She was afraid that I'd be upset."
"Were you?" Jenn asked. "Didn't it bother you that she would have a love scene with someone else?"
"Not really," Henry replied, shrugging. "It was acting. It wasn't personal or anything."
"Not really!" Dorothy snorted, laughing. "Your grandfather would get so excited watching me do those type of scenes that he'd attack me as soon as we got home. They did wonders for our love life."
"Well..." Henry said.
"It excited you?" Jenn asked, surprise writ large on her face.
"Your grandmother was a very beautiful, sexy woman," Henry replied. "Still is."
