Perspective: Detective Celine Sullivan
To understand a woman like Detective Celine Sullivan, it's necessary to examine her past. In her first year as a detective, she killed a drug trafficker during a shootout. Later, she took an assignment leading an unofficial probe into the small town where she was raised.
You can read her backstory here:
Detective's Gangbang, Town Secret
Celine was troubled by the news that her mother was routinely gangbanged by the town's most prominent men, but she came to terms with it. Eventually she was also claimed by these same men and it changed her.
Or maybe it brought out what was hidden inside of her.
For years she tried breaking these impulsive habits. She searched for alternative outlets aside from sex. No success. Her job was stressful and her life was routinely in danger. The fact was, her only outlets were sex and pornography.
In her mid 40's, all she had was a law enforcement career and her 19 year old son, who was the product of a failed marriage. Being a mom and cop were both full-time jobs. Both gave her life meaning. Only her son loved her in return.
"I want to switch majors," Robert said.
They were in the kitchen preparing a dinner of roast chicken and salad. As they started eating, she let the news sink in.
It was an understandable request. When she was young, she used to get into fights with her parents over wanting to be a police officer, and she refused to be that way towards her own son.
Celine kept an open mind. "Alright, what are you thinking? Do you have a backup plan?"
"Yeah, I do. I might want to become a therapist or psychologist. One of my professors said I have the right attributes for it."
Outwardly, she smiled. Inwardly, she wanted to laugh at the irony that life had thrown her way. For the last many years, Celine had become well-acquainted with the psychologist at the police department.
She raised an eyebrow. "And what do you know about psychology?"
"Only the two courses that I'm taking."
"Have you looked into the job at all?"
"I've done research," he replied. "Why? You seem... I don't know... like the idea is crazy or something."
Discouraging her son was the last thing she wanted. As a mother, all she wanted to do was raise her son the right way, whatever 'the right way' actually consisted of. But the fact was, Celine was never the ideal mother. A woman like her was more fit to be a cop than a loving parent.
Could this be her penance? Could this make up for years of her self-perceived failures as a parent? She loved her son dearly. Robert loved her back in the same way. Maybe this could be a new beginning for them.
"I have a lot of respect for psychologists," she clarified. "I've never mentioned this to you, but I regularly speak to someone at the police department."
"Anything serious?" he asked, surprised by the candor.
"Just the usual. I'm also a nymphomaniac."
Robert laughed, as expected. How else is any son expected to act when a mother says such a thing? Celine sat there and smiled in return. This was a snap decision and now she was committed to it.
"That's kind of a gross joke," he said, but still amused.
"Who said it was a joke?"
A light smile was on her lips and it managed to communicate that she was serious. It took a moment for Robert to realize this. He sat in front of his food, unable to eat, letting the revelation simmer the way it was supposed to.
"A nymphomaniac?" he questioned. "Like the Lars von Trier movie?"
She nodded. "Are you admitting that you've watched von Trier's
Nymphomaniac
?"
"Parts of it, I guess," he shrugged.
"Don't be embarrassed. It's a great movie and I have to say that it's a fairly accurate portrayal."
Robert shifted the focus away from himself. "Why are you telling me this? I mean, you're serious?"
"You'll have to get used to hearing these sorts of things from different people. Imagine if you work in this field and you gasp every time a patient says something provocative. You'd have no clients."
"It's different from an actual patient," he responded. "You just caught me off guard, that's all."
Fair point, she thought. Now was the time to be the mother she always dreamed of being, but never knew how.
"Before you settle on any career path, I'm going to teach you about psychology. I'm talking about a real world education."
For some reason, this aroused her. Could she have found a new fetish? She'd seen incest porn online; they're commonplace now. She'd also read a few incest themed stories on erotic websites here and there.
But she'd never thought about her son before. It never made sense. Only now, looking into her son's wondrous eyes, did she see the beauty in it. The inner-struggle was returning in full force.
***
Detective Sullivan ran the city's Narcotics Unit with pride. Because she was dealing with criminal organizations and street gangs, she became something of a psychology expert in her own right. She'd read countless books on the criminal mind and human condition over the years.
With her voracious sexual appetite, she'd read plenty of books on nymphomania. It was how she understood herself and learned about her dark impulses.
Since becoming a mother, she moved away from risky sexual endeavors. It was a difficult habit to break. She cut off contact with many of her old lovers to start a new life. Step by step, she ended her participation in gangbangs and orgies.
Filling the void was an extensive sex toy collection. She relied on vibrators to make herself cum the way she needed. Sometimes she'd sit in front of her computer and watch porn, sometimes she'd lay in bed -- on top of a towel -- and close her eyes, letting her imagination run wild as the vibrations consumed her.
Once in a while, she visited exclusive sex clubs where she could watch orgies from a corner while masturbating. Turning down offers to participate was agony; she was like a recovering alcoholic.
Eventually the detective settled on the fact that she'd never be normal. She was a natural 'gangbang queen' like her mother and they shared the same dark desires for dirty sex that was impossible to control.
Back to the topic at hand; Celine showed case files to Robert on an almost nightly basis. They'd talked about her work before, usually cases she was leading, her safety precautions, the basics.
Now she gave an individual breakdown of the men she was investigating. She explained the psychological profiles of criminal minds and the signs of psychopathic behavior which piqued her son's interest.
Eventually it was time to delve deeper.
One night, she went to her son's bedroom and placed a book on his desk. It was a clinical book on Nymphomania that she'd read countless times over the years. In fact, it was one of the leading books on the controversial subject.
"What's this?" Robert asked, looking at the title in discomfort.
"That's 500 pages of various studies. Read it. I've highlighted key passages and I've made a lot of notes."
"So you were serious?"
Celine nodded, rubbing the book cover. "I am. The notes I've made in there are intimate. I've written things over the years that may shock you."
Her son took the book and flipped through it, seeing the highlights and handwritten notes.
"You don't have to show this to me," he said. "It's private, mom."
Putting the book on the table again, Robert gently slid it back in her direction. To which Celine pushed it towards her son again. It was like a game of table hockey over who'd get the book.
"I insist," she said. "If I'm paying for your education, then I have a vested interest in making sure that you know what you want. Sound fair?"
Robert nodded. "Sounds fair."
This was a new trigger for Celine in ways she hadn't anticipated. Pulling her son into this world had turned into a drug. One that was alluring and unstoppable. Imagining her son reading that book, knowing her most intimate thoughts and actions was a lot to handle.
She found herself masturbating to new things. All of her recent porn searches were mom/son related, whether it be porn clips or erotica stories. Then she found herself thinking of her son. With a vibrator plunged deep into her pussy, she took the biggest leap of them all. The young man she birthed and raised was now her escape.
***
Celine met with the police department psychologist once a week. She entered the office and made herself comfortable.
For the last seven years, Dr. Priya Varma was the leading psychologist in the police department after the previous psychologist retired. It was a new experience to confide in a young woman and she disclosed her compulsive sexual behavior.
Most officers and detectives loathed their mandatory psych-evaluations. They thought it was useless. Celine, on the other hand, appreciated the chance to delve deeper into the human condition.
"I have two interesting topics today," Celine said. "It relates to what we normally discuss."
Dr. Varma smiled, pen and paper in hand. "Let's hear it."
"I want to love again. Truly love. Masturbating and orgasms can keep me happy. But they can't replace the feeling of having a romantic partner."
The room became silent except for a pen writing notes on paper.
"It's a normal feeling at your age," Dr. Varma replied. "Have there been any new developments in your life? Anything that created this void?"
"Yep. It turns out my son wants to be a psychologist. I support him 100%. To be honest, I'm not the best mother. I never knew how to be a mom."
"And now you feel you owe something."