(This is a continuation of "Mystery Lover". By the way, this story takes a long time to unfold.)
The last few days I've been preoccupied with what happened between my husband, and then my son, and I. After my husband's great trick on me, I stepped things up by continuing the game and taking my son for a wild and taboo ride which I now realize was irresponsible and immoral.
Fortunately and unbelieveably, the incident didn't create some sort of emotional or psychological mess at home. My husband, Bill, and I have been a little distant, but that had started a little before, as our increased sexual adventures were not the only playing he was doing. And this kinkiness was only one more step in his mid-life wildness. I sort-of thought it was also a way of backing me off any questioning of him about his increased time away from home and some of his secretiveness about what he was up to.
Even more luckily, my son, Brad, didn't freak-out or anything. He's always had it together, and he and I have always been close. This seemed to be something we both were taking it easy with, and we just continued to be close and open with one another.
The past few days we had the occasional contact and awkward smiles, but we otherwise just continued on, all of us, with our routines. With Bill staying gone alot, it seemed Brad and I had more time alone together. It was during one of these evenings that I thought it best to bring things out in the open about how we should see this as having been just a really weird and one-time thing.
Brad was watching TV when I came home from working-out, and I sat next to him. He smiled to me, and let me know I had his attention.
"Hey, we gotta talk, pal," I started.
"Listen, everything's fine," he tried to assure me.
"I know, honey. It is, but it isn't. Listen, what happened should have never happened. You just got caught-up in some of mine and your dad's weirdness. It should never have happened."
He looked in my eyes and smiled.
"Like I said everything's fine," he replied, "we've always been close---you and me---and now I feel closer than ever. Just don't worry." He stroked my arm with his fingers.
"Everything is fine, but I want you to know that if you need to talk about this more I'm here for you. And you relax, too. Nothing like that will ever happen again. You won't be put in that situation again." Brad sat up, now concerned.
"Huh? Really I'm fine with what happened. I think we should just let things... ."
He looked at me and let me think about what he was saying.
"Brad, we'll stay close, honey. But there can't be the kind of thing that happened the other night. There just can't."
He was obviously disappointed and looked away for a moment. Then, as if with a new idea, he looked back at me.
"Are you saying that you regret the other night?"
I looked at him. I may've even blushed a little when I gave a quick thought to how I'd gotten him back up on the bed and ridden him.
"No, honey. Of course not. What I'm saying is that I've got to be responsible and do the right thing. That's all."
He smiled a big grin and tilted his head to me, again looking deeply into my eyes.
"Tell you what," he said, "let's both think about this. Then, let's talk again."
I gave him a questioning look, and he continued.
"Only, we finish this discussion tomorrow night at 7:30, and at Harry's."
Harry's was the hotel bar from the other night.
I chuckled and shook my head.
"Listen, don't make this harder on me," I told him.
"Well, I'll just feel better about how you feel about this if we talk about it away from here," he explained to me, smiling a very mischieveous grin.
"Brad," I paused, "well, your dad does have a work thing again tomorrow night. Her name is probably Bambi," I joked. "So that's fine, it's just I want you to know you're not going to change my mind. So please understand."
"Sure, I do," he said and he squeezed my hand as I got up to go on upstairs. I kissed him on the cheek and went on to bed.
I'd like to say I put it out of my mind as having been settled, but as I laid there that night, alone in bed waiting for Bill to come home, my hands inevitably ventured down to my thighs. I thought about Brad sitting next to me on the couch, close but not coming on to me. His eyes looking to mine and him being so sweet. But especially him not wanting to give up some romantic idea about he and I. He was implying that he wanted something else to happen, and that he didn't want me to rule it out.
He was still wanting to convince me, and ... well ... to have me. My wetness was all over my fingers as I stroked myself, thinking about this young man wanting me. I moved my fingers lightly over my lips and dipped them between my lips, as I thought about when I had him in my mouth and when he was deep inside me. Eventually, I couldn't stand it anymore and I let a couple of fingers graze my clit, sending me into an intense orgasm and my moaning out loud. I fell asleep thinking about tomorrow night.
The next day was Thursday, and sure enough Bill again let me know he was going to be home late because of work. I wound-up preoccupied all day, and I thought of the different ways to make Brad understand that this wasn't going to work or going to happen.
After work, I got a quick work-out, and I changed into casual clothes to head over for drinks. Brad was right that the change in locations, and the return to the scene of the other night, had an altering effect on the whole thing. I mean, I hadn't changed my mind. I knew what I had to do. But the whole incident didn't seem so weird or unreal. The bar, the hotel, drinks--- it was more an adult thing, and I didn't worry as much.
I walked confidently into the dark bar and I immediately saw my son sitting at a table away from the bar itself, waiting for me. Always the gentleman, he stood as I came up, and he kissed me on the cheek.
"Hi," he smiled, "you look great."
He had a glass of wine he knew I liked there for me which I eagerly tried.
"So do you," I replied without thinking and without meaning to send any message. He seemed to sit up straighter with my compliment and I remembered that he was younger and that I had to be more aloof. For his own sake.
After some pleasantries, he talked about how he was soon leaving for another term of college, and he flirted with me about having made him not as interested in pursuing the girls at school.
"Oh, right!" I responded increduously, "Like I'm any match for those young things, Brad." I laughed.
"You're more than a match. You know that."
This warmed me up.
"Really?" I wanted to know.
"Absolutely, but even more so if you learned to relax more." He said this matter of factly.
"What? You've gotta be kidding me? Don't forget, I'm your mother and I think it's fair to say I got pretty relaxed the other night." And we both laughed at this.
"What I mean is, sexually. It was like you couldn't let me please you. It had to be you doing instead of getting, so to speak."
He let that comment hang there. The other night I had let him briefly go down on me at first but not later on the bed when I wanted to ride him.
"Well, that was very early on, and when I had something I felt I had to do." I said this and I immediately wanted it back.
"Really?" He seemed taken back, and I looked away.
"Listen," he moved closer to me as he spoke and brought my attention back to his eyes. His face was closer to me now as he spoke softer to me.
"I've thought alot about the other night and about how it started. And, I've thought about wanting to do something for you. Something like what got this whole thing started."
I looked at him and he could see I was totally intrigued.
"Brad, what are you talking about? What have you got on your mind, honey?" And with this, I felt myself, against all judgment, being drawn into what he was talking about.
"Mom, I think you are a very attractive woman. And, I think you are a very sexual woman, who has yet to have things that she wants."