I don't think I've slept that well in several years. With my beautiful Bella in my arms, I felt at peace - at first anyway. I had made a decision the previous night - a decision that could never be undone. I had chosen to engage in a sexual act with my daughter. I hadn't planned it, but when the time came, I ultimately helped it happen - and I made no attempt to stop it.
What kind of a man would do such a thing? She was only a few days away from 19. Am I a monster? Am I going to hell now? What's going through Bella's head right now? Have I destroyed my relationship with her?
These thoughts swam around my head - but they weren't alone.
I love Bella. She loves me. Last night was truly beautiful. I've never felt so happy before in my entire life. Will it happen again? Can we go further?
As I wrestled with both sides of my brain, I had one single crystal thought. No matter what, I must not cause Bella any unhappiness. My love for Bella was unending, and I would never, ever want to hurt her - even if I have to endure that hurt to spare her.
I continued to hold her, and just enjoyed the feeling of this beloved goddess in my arms. Finally, I noticed she started to stir.
"Morning angel," I said, quietly.
"Morning Daddy! I slept so well last night!" She said, rolling over to face me.
"Me too angel. It felt so lovely holding you all night," I said, running my hand along her back.
"I really liked that Daddy, I felt so safe, and so loved. That was so nice."
I immediately felt at ease. Bella shuffled over and lay her head on my chest.
I took a deep breath before saying, "Bella, I think we should talk about last night."
"Yeah - I wasn't really expecting that - that was kind of crazy wasn't it? But it was also kind of amazing," she said, with a beaming smile.
"It was indeed. I haven't felt that good in so long. I just feel so... conflicted. I'm your father, we can't be doing stuff like that... can we?", I said reluctantly.
The instant I said the words I wanted to take them back. I didn't want to stop what we had started.
"I know, it's not... natural - but it was special wasn't it? I've never felt anything like that before." She said, running her fingers over my chest.
"Me either. I've always known just how beautiful you are - it was an unbelievable joy to actually be that intimate with you."
"Maybe we should give it some time you know? I don't wanna make any rash decisions," she said.
There's my girl. Always smart and rational - well - almost always.
We went to breakfast and continued our discussion.
"You came so much last night!" she said, in a hushed tone. We'd chosen a secluded booth - but still.
"Honestly, I can't remember feeling anything that good. Your body is literally sensational." I said, my eyes scanning her beautiful form.
"You're too kind! It felt so good for me. I loved rubbing my thigh against your cock. I could tell that you really liked it."
Eventually, we moved onto the harder questions.
"So, what does this mean for us?" she asked.
"I still don't know angel - but let me tell you what I do know. I know that I love you. Wholly, and completely. I know that no matter what, I will always be your father, and I will always do everything I can to keep you happy. I would never do anything to hurt you. I also know, that last night, my beautiful, wonderful daughter and I engaged in a sexual act - and that's something that society has deemed wrong, and irredeemable. And lastly - I know that I loved every single minute of it."
She hesitated a moment, before speaking.
"Ok - my turn. I know that I love you. Completely, and wholly. I know, that no matter what, I will always be your little girl, and I will do everything I can to keep you happy. I would never do anything to hurt you. I also know, that last night, my strong, amazing father and I engaged in a sexual act - and that's something that society has deemed wrong and irredeemable. And lastly - I loved every single minute of it."
If I smiled any wider I'd have sprained my cheeks.
"Daddy - you make me so happy. Why don't we just take it easy, and see where this goes?" she said, reaching across the table to hold my hand.
"Do you mean, keep doing what we did last night?" I said, hopefully.
"Well yeah, for a start," she said, with a playful smile.
"No-one here knows who we are. It's just you, and me out here. Why don't we just do whatever we want to do out here, and then when we get back home - we'll talk? Let's just really enjoy ourselves."
"I am 100% on board with that idea." I said, eager to explore our new relationship paradigm.
We finished our breakfast, and went for a walk on the beach hand in hand. We decided that since no-one knew who we were, we could just be open about our new relationship. If anyone asked, I was just a guy with a young girlfriend. They could think whatever they want. I was in paradise - and not just because we were in the Caribbean.
After our walk, we went back to the loungers. Once again Bella donned an amazing bikini. This time it was a matching red set with a zip up top. She looked so good I could have cried.
"Good god Bella, you look unbelievable!" I said, loving the fact that I could compliment her so openly.
"Thanks honey!" she said, giving me a twirl.
"Honey?" I said, slightly bemused.
"Well, I can't call you Daddy out here can I?" She said, leaning in close.
"But when it's just you and me, I'm gonna keep you calling you Daddy."
"I wouldn't have it any other way," I said.
"Hey, put some sun screen on me would ya?" Bella asked.
"Don't have to ask me twice." I said, eagerly.
I put some sun screen on my hands and gently started rubbing it into her back. She leaned into me as I did so.
"That feels so nice, I want your hands all over me."
"Oh darling, your body is fucking fantastic, I want to touch you all over."
"Oh really? Tell me what you want to do with me." She said, turning to give me a cheeky smile.
I leaned in and whispered into her ear.
"Well, to start - I want to take that bikini off you. I want to see those beautiful tits that I know you have under there. I want to touch and caress them. I want to feel them against my chest as you lie on top of me."
"I want that too Daddy. I wanna rub them all over your chest. I wanna pull down your shorts and rub my tits on your rock hard cock. You like my tits don't you Daddy?"
"I fucking love them angel, I can't wait to play with them."
"Oh and you will Daddy. I can't wait for us to completely ravish each others bodies. I want you so bad Daddy."
"I want you like I've never wanted anything before. I need you."
"Good. Because you have me. You get all of me, however you want. I want to give myself entirely to you."
"Angel. I love you more than life itself. And I'm going to show you that. I'm going to make love to you like nothing else exists. You are all mine."
She turned around and brushed her lips against my cheek as she leaned into my ear and whispered,
"Daddy, are you going to fuck me like you fucked Mommy?"
I froze - for a heartbeat.
"Do you want me to fuck you like that?"
"Yes, please Daddy. I remember how much you loved Mom. And how much she loved you. I see so many of my friends' parents who don't really love each other, it was so nice to see the way you two loved each other. I remember how your face used to light up whenever she entered the room. I remember the way you used to treat her with nothing but love and respect. I remember the way her eyes shined whenever she looked at you."
"That's so sweet of you to say angel."
"Do you know what else I remember?" she asked.
"Tell me Bella."
"I remember how you used to fuck her. I could hear it sometimes. I could hear the sound of my Mommy, getting fucked by my Daddy. And I loved it. I would press my ear to the wall and listen for the sound of her moans. And your moans. I used to touch myself and think about how fucking hot it must have been between you two. You two would fuck for hours and hours, and when you finally came out of your room you'd be all doe eyed and dazy. It was like you were stoned or something. That was the truest love I've ever seen. It was so beautiful and I could I feel it every single day. God, I wished and wished to be part of it."
Bella paused for a moment before taking my hand in hers.
"But now that she's gone, no other woman could ever give that to you. Who else can form that kind of bond and create something that good? Something that special? Only a wife can do that right? But maybe a daughter can do it too. I crave you Daddy. I've wanted you for so long. I want to be yours. I want your hands all over my body. I want to feel your lips on my skin. I want you to lick my pussy. I want your bare cock inside me, and I want to feel you pump all of your cum into me."
"Fucking hell yes, Bella. Let's go to the room now, I literally cannot wait. I have to have you right now."
We rushed to pick up our things and headed back to the room. The door was still closing as we dropped everything and threw ourselves at each other. Our lips immediately locked as we lost ourselves to one another.
"Angel, I love you so much." I said, my heart completely ablaze.
"I love you Daddy. Let me show you how much."