I made my first sound as Jerry slid his big fat cock into me. I had waited a long time to be fucked by him, and from the first feel of his swollen head opening the lips of my pussy, I knew it was worth the wait. He was much larger than any of the boys that I had fucked before and I was a bit afraid that he would be too big for me. But he had assured me that he would be slow and gentle.
"Damn baby! Your pussy is much tighter than I thought you would be. I hope it's not hurting you too much."
I smiled a nervous smile as I looked up into his face. I wouldn't have cared if he were tearing my pussy open. I knew that I wanted him more than I wanted to breath. "It's ok Jerry! Just go slow until I get used to your size. You're much bigger than the boys that I fucked."
He had only slid the head of his dick in, but he was also the first circumcised cock I had. I knew that I was wet enough to take him in. Fuck! Jerry had already licked and sucked my cunt and clit until I had thought I was gonna pee I had cum so much already.
As I felt him slide a bit more into me, I closed my eyes and my mind went back to how this all started.
I am not a bad looking girl if I have to say so myself. At 5' 6" and 185lbs, I have long blond hair, green eyes, 38C tits and a nice round ass. My skin is the color of very light creamed coffee. At least that is how Jerry describes it. My dad was from Spain, and even though I am considered white I look almost mulatto in color.
My mom and dad divorced when I was 10. Mom met Jerry when I was 12. He had become my step-dad at 13. My mom had skin much fairer than mine. She was a white woman with long flowing blond hair. And with Jerry's dark brown skin, they made a nice contrast. Yes! Jerry is Black. But don't think that he was the kind of man that just wanted my mom cause she was a white woman. He truly loved her, and he treated me with more love and caring than my own dad ever did.
When I turned 16, mom left. I knew that things had started to go down hill between them. Mom started going out more and more and would stay out longer and longer. After awhile she wouldn't come home until the next day. They would fight and shout but I never saw Jerry hit her. Then one day when I came in from school, mom was at the door with her bags packed. She told me that she had fallen in love with some guy she had met. That she was leaving. She said that I would be better off living with Jerry. Just like that!
I cried and told her that they could work things out but she only laughed. Then she said something that made me turn cold. "Baby! It was hard enough living with that Black bastard. I should have never married him. I have to make a life, where I'm not looked at like some kind of trash. Where I can go places with people more like us. I'm gonna make a new start and when I can, I will come back for you. I love you baby! I know that Jerry will take good care of you. He thinks of you as his daughter."
I looked at my mom like she had lost her mind. "Nobody ever took care of us the way Jerry has. He gives you everything you could ever want. He never treated us with anything but love. How could you do this to us?" But mom only gave me a peck on the cheek and turned to leave.
I grew mad. "Leave bitch! He's too good for you anyway. I don't care if he's Black! I don't care if you ever come back." I turned and ran to my room slamming the door so hard that some of my pictures jumped off the wall. I lay on my bed crying until I feel asleep. When Jerry came home from work, he found the letter she had left for him. When he came into my room he was crying. We held each other and he promised me that things would be ok. That we would be ok! And we were.
Jerry was the perfect step-dad. He attended every function that took place in school. Many of the moms knew that he and I lived alone and they tried to match him up with other women both white and black. But Jerry would always tell them that he had a hard enough time being a single dad to a teenager, and didn't want to mess things up by being torn between two jealous women. They didn't think anything of it, I was too young and too naΓ―ve to have displayed anything but affection for my dad.
But things changed after I turned 18. Suddenly, for some dumb reason, I burst into dad's room one night. I normally knock but I wanted to rush and show him something that was on TV. Jerry was lying in bed watching TV all right. But he was watching a porno film and stroking his dick. That was the first time I really got a good look at him. He had always been very careful to be covered up around me.
He was laying on the bed, looking intently at the screen, his hand wrapped around his hard dick and slowly stroking it. "Dad you..." I stopped dead in my tracks. Jerry looked at me and grabbed the cover. In his haste to cover himself, he had sent the remote flying off the bed. I turned and looked at the screen.
There was a young girl on her hands and knees with an older man behind her. He was shoving his hard dick in and out of her dripping pussy. That was not so shocking, but the words that were coming out her mouth almost made me loose it.
"Oh Daddy! Fuck my pussy like you used to fuck mom's cunt. That's it! Oh your cock is so big! Fuck me Daddy! Fuck your little girl."
I looked from the screen back to Jerry. Then I turned and ran to my room. I was so embarrassed. I sat on the bed rocking back and forth trying to think. Was that how he thought about me? Did my step-dad have fantasies about fucking me? Was that why he looked at porno films about dads fucking their daughters?
There was a soft knock and my doorknob turned. Jerry came in and sat down next to me. He didn't say a word at first just sat there. Then he turned to me. "Emily, I'm sorry that you saw that. I have been very careful to hide things like that from you."
I looked at him. He was my dad, but suddenly, I was seeing him as someone else. Dad never made any kind of sexual advances to me. He never even joked about sex with me. I didn't know what to say to him. I could only look at him and ask "Why".
Jerry took a deep breath. "Em," He called me Em sometimes. "Em, it's been hard at times around you. I have watched you grow from a skinny little kid to a beautiful woman. I didn't try to go out much cause you always seemed to get upset whenever I did."
That was true. Every time he went out on a date, things were real tight between us for days later. Then he just stopped going out. I tried to act grownup about him going out, but I was afraid that he would find someone that didn't like me or didn't want me around so I acted like a kid whenever he went out.
"So instead of going out with women, I watch films and masturbate to ease my tension. Only when you are off spending a night with someone will I even go out. You always get so jealous whenever I'm around other women. Anyway, I found this porno and it seemed harmless enough, but after watching one, I kept watching more and more of them. Most are about family members doing each other. It just seemed to get me off so nice that it helped out a lot. You know what I mean baby? But I never thought about doing anything like that to you. They are just films I like to watch."
I looked at him. "Dad. Have you ever thought about me when you watch those movies?"
I looked intently at his face. I needed to know if that was what he thought about when he lay in bed watching a dad ducking his daughter. I wanted to know if I was the thought that brought him to Cumming.