(All characters are 18+. This story includes instances of nonconsent.)
My sister Jenna and I never really got along. We were close enough in age to be constantly stepping on each others' toes all through grade school. Always competing for grades, never sharing friends. We were always fighting, for as long as I could remember.
When Jenna went away for college, a year ahead of me, it was a blissful reprieve. I quickly got very used to being effectively an only child. Not having to negotiate who would get the car. Not having to fight for food at the dinner table. Generally having a lot more privacy.
My senior year of high school ended, and over the summer, I had a part time internship in an office that was mostly men, and entirely over forty, other than me. I was looking forward to starting college in the fall. My hometown was starting to feel small.
Jenna came home from college over her summer break. The peace and quiet at home was ruined. She would talk loudly on the phone at all hours, play video games without headphones. Many nights, she had friends to catch up with, and borrowed the parents' car to do that, effectively nixing most of my social life. She was supposed to be a year more mature than me, but she was still a petty tyrant to everyone around her.
Around the same time, I was feeling really awkward about still being a virgin. Not just because I wouldn't know what to do if I did get with a girl, but because I was starting to worry that I never would. I went to an all-guys school, I was in the boy scouts, I played sports, all my time was with the guys. Even my summer job. I knew a few girls, but not very well. Mostly other guys' girlfriends. If I were gay, I could've had all sorts of fun. But I was still a virgin. Maybe that would change in college, but I would still be me, and if that was the problem, it would still be a problem on campus.
While Jenna had been away, I'd gotten used to having time when the parents were out of the house to myself, and spending it with...myself. I got into porn, but it was all way beyond my comprehension. There was a limit to what my imagination could fill in. I couldn't fully relate to what the people on screen were doing, because I had never experienced anything remotely close. And there were questions I wondered about, that porn just couldn't answer for me. What was actually going on, in the parts that a camera couldn't show? What did it actually feel like, on the inside? What did a breast feel like when you held it?
One Saturday morning, the parents left to run errands. I stayed home. Jenna's bedroom door was ajar. I thought this meant she was up and out already, or maybe she hadn't come in at all the night before. I thought I would just go in and poke around in her things. We were always like that. But I had to be careful not to leave a trace, and not get caught in the act. I eased the door open silently, in case she was still around.
She was zonked out on her bed, almost snoring. The smell of booze on her breath was filling the room. She was lying on her side, the sheet wasn't actually covering much of her chest. Apparently she was sleeping in the buff, at least on top. Maybe she didn't close the door because it was hot overnight, or because she was too drunk when she got home.
It was my first time seeing a woman's breasts in real life, maybe since I was a toddler. I had never thought of my sister sexually, of course. Not just because we're related, or because she's obnoxious, though those are both true. It was also because she looked nothing like girls I was into. Between the two of us, she's the one who inherited our dad's height and bulk and frizzy hair and nose. The way she dressed wasn't flattering, but maybe that was the idea, I don't know. She really did look like a younger, female version of dad, with breasts. But I realized in that moment that she did have breasts.
My breath caught, and the blood started rushing to my crotch, taking my common sense with it. I thought to myself, this is my chance. If I'm careful, I could find out what a breast feels like, and nobody would be the wiser, except me. No harm done, right? I was looking at it almost as an academic question, and not thinking about how the breast I was going to fondle was my sister's. It was a breast, and that was all that mattered to me in that moment.
I crept towards the bed. It was like a heist. Go in, cop a feel, and get out before the alarms go off. She was pretty well under, her eyelids didn't even flutter. Moving very slowly, I reached down and very gently let my hand come to rest on the skin. I was watching her face closely, my legs tensed to sprint away.
I didn't expect what happened next. As soon as my skin touched hers, a little moan escaped her lips, and she unconsciously pressed her chest forward into my grip. It made me feel gross at first, though the tent in my pants throbbed in response. As I stood there, perfectly still, I could feel her nipple firming up against the warmth of my palm.
Skin on skin contact wasn't all I was after though. I wanted to know what the breast itself was like. What was the consistency of it? I waited until I was sure she still wasn't awake, and then I gently squeezed the breast in my hand, testing the composition of it. It was softer than I imagined. Not muscle, but not jelly either.
A shudder ran through her, starting in her shoulders, and her legs splayed wider on the mattress, pressing her hips down on it.
Then I saw that her eyes were opened. She hissed, "Get. Out."
I ran for it, and heard some object hit the wall just above my head. I pulled the door shut and ran towards my bedroom. At least I didn't hear her chasing after me, but maybe that was because she was naked at the moment.
I was terrified. Would she tell the parents what I did? Would she beat me up? Both? Anything at all seemed possible.
"Lunch, kids!" our mom called from downstairs. I was freaking out. I hadn't heard them come in. I certainly wouldn't have risked our parents catching me fondling Jenna's boob.
I tried to suppress my shakes when I went downstairs. Fortunately the adrenaline and fear made my erection subside.
Jenna came down, in a t-shirt and pajama pants.
"You aren't going out like that," mom said to her. The "are you?" was implied.
"What's the point?" Jenna said. "It's too hot for a bra, mom."
"What was all that banging?" dad asked, as he put out the lunch spread from their grocery trip.
Jenna was staring daggers at me. I answered, "I went into Jenna's room to borrow some cash."
"You mean steal some cash?" Jenna challenged.
"No, I mean borrow," I said. I was daring her to contradict me, but terrified she would.
"Here," dad said, handing me a twenty. "Now, apologize to your sister."
"Sorry, Jenna," I said. I meant it, more than dad could know.
"You don't know what sorry means," she said, not accepting the apology. The parents didn't meddle any further though.
Later that afternoon, she cornered me in the hallway. "Listen, you little brat. You think what you did is okay?"
"I dunno," I stammered. "I just..."
"Well one of these days, it'll happen to you, and we'll see how you feel about it then."
Sure enough, it was about six in the morning on a Tuesday, a couple weeks later, and I was having a pleasant dream halfway between sleeping and waking. I felt an electric shiver, someone's hand caressing my chest. In the dream, I was dancing with some cute young thing, her fingers teasing the sensitive skin of my abdomen, and then her hand trailed lower, towards my waist.
I surfaced from the dream, realizing that this was real, that the hand was my sister's. But I kept my eyes closed, and tried to hold perfectly still. I thought I would let her take her revenge, but not give her the satisfaction of freaking out.
But I wasn't used to being touched this way. I often awoke hard, but now I was rock solid, every nerve on edge. When her hand got close to my pubic hair, I couldn't contain it anymore. I gasped, my hips involuntarily bucking towards her grasp, my erection grazing her hand.
"What the hell, Jenna?" I said.
"Now we're even," she replied with smug satisfaction. Then she left.
I didn't know what to do with myself. I was shaking, I was aching for release, and yet this erection was something my sister had done to me in my sleep. Did I dare take satisfaction in that? What would it make me, if I did?
I felt like she hadn't just gotten revenge, she had escalated this conflict. I had only cupped her breast in my hand. She had gone below the waist. One part of me knew I should let it go, that it had been a mistake from the start. But another part of me wouldn't let that go. I was tired of capitulating to her on things like this. And the side of me that was curious about the female body saw an opportunity.
Another weekend, another late night out for Jenna. This time she didn't get home until dawn. The parents left early in the morning for a day trip. I slipped into Jenna's room again. The sheet was barely draped down over her buttocks, leaving the backs of her thighs exposed.