Staring. I blinked and shook my head, looking around at anything else in the car. Somehow, my gaze kept landing back on Jake. I couldn't help but to smile when I was looking at him. Was this what love was like? I chuckled to myself, turning away as he looked at me. He had to be aware I was staring at him, but he was being kind about it and not mentioning it.
I thought back over the day, and shifted uncomfortably in my seat. I'd been caught in our own home by the man who thought he owned me. Who I let own me, I realized. He had financed and purchased every little thing in my life, and until Jake came in and helped separate me from this guy, there was no chance of me ever being able to say no.
I looked down at the outfit I was still wearing, taking in my 'barely decent for public' appearance. I was nothing more than a piece of fuckable meat to this guy, and he had no problems trying to lead me out into public wearing this... or less, as had been his intentions to start. But Jake...
Sure, Jake noticed what I was wearing, and sure he got hard looking at me. But he didn't focus on it; he didn't treat me like a sex doll. I was his sister and his best friend, first and foremost. Something shifted in me, and I eyed my brother up and down. He'd been a hero today. Selflessly putting himself in harm's way, I noticed as my eyes glanced over his bruises. He hadn't complained once, as though he was glad to do it for me.
As we pulled into the parking lot next to my trashed car, I started to cry. Jake immediately panicked and tried to hold and comfort me, but I couldn't get the words out to tell him how I felt - that I didn't deserve him, that I was feeling in love with him even though we shouldn't let ourselves feel that way. I just cried and he held me, and wordlessly I knew he felt the same. That he cared for me and loved me despite our forbidden relationship.
I gasped, my crying taking a pause as I was suddenly scooped up. I was acutely aware of his hands, one on my arm as it wrapped around my back, and one on my bare thigh as it slid under my legs to pick me up. My brother was carrying me like a bride back into our apartment. I rested my head on his chest, running my fingers over his cheek. A small part of me, in the back of my mind, felt relieved that no one here knew us or that we're related. The larger part of me just didn't care.
Down the hall, in the elevator, down the hall again and across our threshold Jake held onto me like he'd keep me safe no matter what happened. He paused once we were in our apartment, and I squirmed my way out of his grasp. I watched as Jake kicked the shards of the door around with his foot, hesitating over the gaping hole into our apartment.
I pressed my body against his again, giving a soft tug to his arm. His worried glance softened when he met my eyes. "Not now," I whispered, giving another soft pull. "I... I need you..." At those words, his expression relaxed even more, but he was betrayed by the quick glance to the open door frame again. "It'll be ok... just..." I gulped. "Bedroom. Now."
I was practically pulling on his arm as I led him to our room. My discarded towel from the shower was still on the floor, along with the mess I'd made of the hamper. I bit my lip; that felt like days ago, not merely an hour. Still, I went to the bed and laid down, pulling at the hem of my skirt a little. That monster hadn't let me wear any underwear, despite this outfit barely coming halfway down my ass. Though, considering it was about to give my brother easy access, it was easy to find the silver lining in this.
Wasting no time, Jake quickly hopped on the bed next to me, his fingers hesitantly touching my exposed midriff. "Are you sure this is what you want? After what just happened? We... we don't have to. We can stop everything, sis."
I could feel the pain creep onto my face at his statement. "N-no... I want this... I want you..."
"Are you sure?"
I reached out, taking hold of his arms. I held his gaze, staring into his eyes. "Jake, I said I love you. I meant it. Did you, or were you lying?"
His eyes widened, and he looked startled and worried. "I- yes, of course I meant it!"