I was 21 years old and finally finished college. Thank goodness, I thought that would take forever. Unfortunately, after 4 years pretty much on my own, I had to move back into my momâs place. The only thing that made those first weeks bearable was my sister, Jess.
She and I had a close relationship as kids; however it waned when I went to Colorado for college. In the four years I had been gone, she blossomed. She lost the baby fat she had when she started high school, and now had full, bouncy breasts, a tapered waist, and long tanned legs. Quite honestly, my sister was breathtaking and she didnât even know it!
Our relationship picked up where it left off with watching movies together after dinner and having long, intense conversations. It was during one of these conversations that I realized something stunning. I was infatuated with my sister. It wasn't just a crush, I lusted after her body. I dreamed of sucking her full breasts and nipping at her nipples. I wanted to part her legs and thrust deep inside her. More than that, I wanted to fuck her.
I realized that these were totally inappropriate feelings to have. Especially since she had just turned 18 and, according to her, was still a virgin. My first instinct was to pull back and keep my distance from her, but that would only make her feel slighted by me and the last thing I wanted was to hurt her feelings. No, I had to behave just the same and pretend that I didnât get a raging hard-on whenever she got too close.
It occurs to me that would have worked if I had started dating or something. At least that way, I could have gotten my rocks off. Itâs hard, though, when youâre jobless to afford dates. One of my ex-girlfriends from high school did find out that I was back home, and came to visit, but sheâd had two kids by two different guys in the meantime and I didnât want to father number three. The rest of my friends had gone on to bigger and better things, while I was stuck back here. It was depressing and Jess was the only person around who could brighten my days. I looked for a job during the day, hung out with Jess in the evenings, and jacked off in my room to thoughts of her at night. Mom just worked a lot, so we didnât see a whole lot of her. And in August, it was Jessâs turn to go to college.
And then, Mom went on a business trip. Mom was stricter with Jess than she was with me because âAnything could happen to a pretty girl nowadaysâ, and âBoys are better at taking care of themselvesâ. With mom away for at least a week, Jess asked me if she could go on a date. I pretended to be unconcerned, shrugged my shoulders and said âSure⌠Just be carefulâ. And while she was on the date, I tortured myself with images of some adolescent Romeo pawing my innocent sister. Perhaps kissing her, probably mauling her breasts and making feeble efforts to get into her pants. I pictured him pleading with her to at least go down, and imagined her pert nose turned up as she shook her head. Weâd discussed sex, and she had definite ideas that I knew she would change her mind about once sheâd actually had sex.
I was in the den watching TV when I heard the door slam. Jess was home much earlier than I expected, something had to have gone wrong. Instead of running out to greet her, like I wanted to, I forced myself to stay on the couch and wait for her to come to me.
âHeyaâ she said as she plopped down on the couch next to me.
âHey kiddo. How was the date?â
âNot so hot, Dave. It sucked, really.â
âWhat happened?â I turned so that I was giving her my full attention. Her raven-black hair spilled over her shoulders and down her back in loose waves, and her usually lively green eyes seemed flat and grey.
âWell, we saw the movie and that was fine⌠but he wanted to do other stuff⌠And I couldnât.â
âCouldnât?â
âWell, I wanted to⌠but I just donât know how, so I told him to take me home.â
âWell, what donât you know how to do? Maybe I can explain it to youâ. She was sitting next to me and had her head on my shoulder. My cock pulsed against my jeans, slowly growing hard, but I dared not do anything that would bring any attention to my situation.
âHe wanted me to⌠touch his thing.â