When she phoned me with her news, I wasn't really surprised; in fact I'd been expecting it for the best part of a year to be honest. What I was surprised about was just how unhappy she sounded.
"He's left me," she howled, her words nearly drowned amid her tears, "My marriage - it's over, I'm useless; absolutely completely useless!"
My sister's words disappeared into a cacophony of unhappy noises, few of them understandable.
"Come on Susie - try to calm down - it won't help getting all upset," I said, feeling somewhat inadequate.
"I can't help it - I can't stop," she cried, "It's horrible - it's ended - it's all over!"
"Whoa! Slow down! Take it easy - don't let it get on top if you!" I said as soothingly as possible but Susie continued to cry loudly.
"Hey darling girl - hold it together for me," I said, hoping that she'd listen to me.
"I'll try," she sobbed, "But every time I sit down and look at his chair I just start again."
"Hey, come on Susie, it's not the end of the world - yours isn't the first relationship to crack up," I said as I tried to reason with her, "Hell, I've been through it myself and I'm still ok...come on, pull yourself together you sweet little softie. Tell you what, I'll come over if you like - then you can cry on my shoulder."
"Oh Chris, thank you, thank you," she sobbed, her words muffled as she blew her nose loudly, "I really do need a good shoulder right now."
"Ok - give me an hour or two and I'll be there," I said, "I'll be on my way any minute."
That she was well and truly cracked up was pretty apparent and someone needed to be there with her or she might fall apart completely. Not just a friend but someone closer than that so that only left me. Sadly our lovely parents had both succumbed to their injuries in a car accident some year or so ago...but I was more than happy to help.
I loved my normally happy and chatty sister and quite honestly I didn't see enough of her these days. We lived far enough apart that nowadays we only met when we made the effort to travel and although we chatted on the phone and on the internet often enough, it wasn't the same as meeting and being together.
And that was especially true because of one particular thing; I truly lusted after her body! I knew it was wrong to lust after my sister but just one look at her would send disgustingly waves of emotional desire through me - desires that were and would remain unfulfilled no doubt. To me she was perfection - a warm loving pretty woman who seemed to ooze sexuality from every pore and who caused hidden sexual desires to quickly rise in me. Sister or not I longed to get to know her a whole lot better even though I knew in my heart that it was entirely wrong. That I hadn't already tried was down to my 'decent' upbringing - no normal brother would consider such action; would even let his mind dwell on the subject.
Nevertheless and despite my secret lust for her body I was protective about her. We were only four years apart (me at 26 and Susie at 22) so we had similar tastes and ways and we usually managed to understand each other - something that she and her soon-to-be ex-husband obviously didn't.
Inside twenty minutes I had a bag packed and was on my way, slipping into the traffic with a fifty mile journey ahead of me. A myriad thoughts swirled about in my brain as I considered what to say to Susie because, as I said, I'd seen this coming for ages and my brain was full of suitable phrases.
'Complete fucking idiot!'
'Waste of oxygen!'
'Should have been terminated long ago!'
'Dunno what you saw in him!'
Etc...
Don, her husband whom I had long ago renamed "Dumb" behind his back was exactly that - a typical Neanderthalic blockhead. Full of himself; as ignorant of niceness as a traffic cop and as chauvinistic as a reality star he was exactly the kind of guy I'd have avoided like the plague. The kind of guy who was all loud and in-your-face and utterly unlikeable in my opinion, but Susie fell for his manly charms - an instance that proved that our tastes did differ occasionally. He most certainly wasn't the kind of guy I'd ever wish to be seen with.
With all those negative thoughts in me, the way to cheer her up was going to be hard to find...
No, it was going to be a case of just saying whatever seemed appropriate at the time - and if it hurt Susie then perhaps it would help her learn not to pick another guy like that.
Soon I was parking up outside the flats and then striding purposefully to her door - which crashed open as I approached it.
"Oh Chris!" Susie howled as she leapt at me, her hot tear-dampened arms around my neck in an instant, her wet cheek and shaking body pressed hard against mine, "Oh Chris - I'm so sorry!"
"Hey - sorry for what, Sis?" I asked rhetorically as I held her tight, feeling her sobs shake her body, "There's no need to be sorry - I'm always here for you."
"No, I'm sorry that Don left me - I'm sorry my marriage didn't work out - I'm sorry I'm useless," she howled wetly.
Somehow I managed to manoeuvre her back inside the flat and shut the door - it wouldn't really help to tell all the neighbours of her emotional state and then we just clung together in the lounge, Susie's body shuddering with grief while I attempted to hold her as it all flowed from her. And then eventually she was all worn out and I was able to lower her to the couch and sit beside her, our hands still grasping tightly.
I let out a long sigh before attempting to find the right words...and I realised that the best thing was to go straight to the point.
"Susie - you're better off without him," I said bluntly, a statement that immediately brought out another shower of tears.
I grabbed some tissues from the box on the coffee table and gently wiped her cheeks.
"Now come on, listen...," I continued, "He was a pig - I bet he did absolutely nothing round the house."
"Well, he did used to help me carry in the shopping..." said Susie through her tissues.
"Oh sure - he did that, but why - so he could get his booze, I bet!" I answered.
"Yes - I'd bring those home for him; he'd get all nasty if I didn't..." Susie agreed.
"Hah - he used you like a servant, didn't he?" I carried on, rubbing in the evidence, "I bet he treated you like dirt? I bet he only married you so he had a lovely woman to come home to."
Still wracked by sobs Susie did at least manage to nod her head as the truth sank in and eventually the tears dried up too, so I continued.
"But you don't need all that shit - you're a capable woman; you're pretty and you're intelligent - and you can bounce right back from all this - believe me," I told her, "So stop feeling sorry for yourself."
"Yes, but I'm useless - I'm a failure, it's all my fault," she whimpered but I shushed her quickly.
"You're not - and it wasn't your fault and you know it. Was it your fault that you didn't act like a slag for him?" I fired at her, knowing it would hurt her but that it made sense to tell her the truth.
"I wasn't a slag," she said and I nodded.
"No you weren't - you held up wonderfully," I said, soothing her but adding, "And was it your fault that he was a dickhead?"
"He wasn't," she blubbered, but her words carried no conviction now so I hit her harder.
"Ok," I said, "Then was it your fault that he used to go out and chat up other women in the clubs at night, was it?"
Susie's face turned hard for a moment as my words drove in and she frowned, before nodding again as she understood at least some of the truth, then spoke again.
"He didn't, did he - did he really chat up other women?" she asked and it was my turn to nod.
"Course he bloody well did - I heard it from one of my old mates - and I live fifty miles away now," I replied, "So if I heard it I bet plenty of others knew too...and it wasn't just chatting either, I might add."
"But I didn't know..." said Susie, still very downcast as tears continued to run down her face.
"That's because you loved the bast...your husband," I said.
"The old rose-tinted glasses," I added under my breath...
Susie sniffed loudly and we had a break while she blew her nose and wiped her eyes and when I went to fix us a drink I found a pile of cans of lager in the fridge. Soon I had the kettle heating for a cuppa while I cracked open one of the cans from her husband's stockpile and a short while later the water was hot and I was stirring the coffee. And then her coffee was ready and I returned with it, to see Susie looking somewhat better at last.
"Cheers," I said as I lifted his can, "Here's to old shit-face - long may he not return!"
Susie's face fell briefly then cheered up slightly as I put the cup of coffee down before her.
"Come on, it's over now," I said as Susie and I drank, "You're in a whole new world now."
I let the conversation lapse for a while as we refreshed ourselves and while Susie recovered before I opened the discussion again.
"Right - now then, what's next?" I began, my words firm and my intentions clear, "It's gonna be hard for you but I suggest that the best way forward will be for you to clear this place of every last sign of Dickhead's presence. Anything that you find of his put in a big box - I guess you've got one. Then, when you've done that, send him a text and say that all his crap is outside in the car park and that he'd better fetch it soon or someone will nick it, ok."