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Fifteen years ago...
The pounding at her door woke Maureen out of a sound sleep.
"What the hell?" Janice said muzzily from her spot beside her. She sat up, the blankets falling away from her bare chest. "What time is it?"
"Too damn," she said, turning on the lamp and squinting against the glare. She looked at her alarm clock and winced. The red digits read just after one in the morning.
"What?"
"Too damn early," she said shortly. "Or too damn late." She raised her voice in response to another spate of loud knocks. "All right, all right! I'm coming, damn it!" Annoyance made her voice sharp.
She pulled on her bathrobe, tightening the sash around her waist, and strode quickly through the small apartment she and Janice shared. "Fuck," she said, after a quick glance through the peephole. "It's a cop."
"Do you think he's come to arrest us for contributing to the moral depravity of the neighborhood?" Janice asked, peeking around a corner. "That's what the old bat next door keeps threatening to do."
"Doubt it." Maureen unlocked the deadbolt, but left the chain on. Cracking the door open, she looked out. "Yes?"
"My apologies, ma'am. Are you Maureen Lawrence?"
She nodded. "Yes?"
"Do you know a man by the name of Bryce Lawrence?"
A cold hand seemed to clutch her chest and she undid the chain, pulling the door open wide. "Yes. He's my brother. Has something happened to Bryce?"
The officer stood back. He was in a dress uniform, and very attractive in a clean-cut, all-American way. In fact, if she had met him at a bar when she and Janice went clubbing, she might have been more than a little tempted to take him home and find out what he looked like naked, and if the two of them could make a good boy bad for a night. Or even longer. "Ma'am. There's been an accident. And he had a card in his wallet listing you as his next of kin."
"Are they okay? Bryce and Kathleen and Brandon?" Her knees wobbled, and suddenly Janice was there, somehow dressed in a t-shirt and jeans, giving her a shoulder to lean on. God, Kathleen had been three months pregnant. They had just told them all the happy news at the Memorial Day picnic a few weeks ago! "What happened?"
"I really don't know, ma'am." But his eyes shifted away, towards Janice, and she knew he was lying. "Maybe your...roommate...can drive you to the hospital. Or I could take you."
Some perverse desire led her to snap. "She isn't my roommate. She's my girlfriend."
"Very good, ma'am." The officer's expression didn't change a whit, and she felt guilty for taunting him. Even here, in Chicago, there were lots of people who were uncomfortable with being confronted openly by her same-sex relationship with Janice, though her family had made their peace with it years ago. They didn't like it. But they accepted it.
She shook her head. This wasn't important. "Janice. Can you drive me? I have to..." Her throat closed. "I have to know."
"Of course." Her eyes shifted to the officer. "Where are they?"
"St. Mark's," he replied. "It's-"
"I know where it is," Janice said. She closed the door in his face, then headed for the bedroom. "Come on. Let's get you dressed. And don't forget your ID."
Yeah. Because they don't go looking the next of kin for just anything.
She shivered.
What happened?
"It was an accident," Dr. Young said. Heavyset, graying, with deep lines on his face, he guided Maureen and Janice into a private room, and waited until they found seats on the worn couch. "He wasn't drunk and it wasn't anyone's fault, as far as we can tell. His brakes failed and he ran a red light at Austin and hit the driver's side of your brother's car. I'm very sorry, Miss Lawrence. Your brother didn't survive the impact. He was pronounced dead at the scene."
"Bryce...is dead?" No. He couldn't be! Not her big brother, who had always been there for her. Who had faced down their parents when she came out as bisexual in high school, telling them if they had a problem with Maureen, then they had a problem with him, too. Smart, handsome, headstrong Bryce, who had always been able to make her laugh, even when things had been at their worst, with her body giving her signals she couldn't interpret. Bryce, who had married his high-school sweetheart and made sure she danced with both him and Maureen at their wedding.
"I'm sorry."
"What about Kathleen?" Beautiful, vivacious Kathleen, who had given her boyfriend's tall, gawky sister advice about clothes and makeup and boys, never hinting that she might have better things to do. Who had helped her deal with her own conflicting urges until she grew into her body and found Janice.
"She's alive." But her hopes were dashed with the doctor's next words. "But she's in surgery right now, and if she survives..." he trailed off wearily, and Maureen wondered how many times he'd been forced to have conversations like this. "Her injuries are very traumatic, Miss Lawrence. I'll do you the courtesy of being honest. It's only a matter of time. Their car was thrown into a utility pole. Between the internal damage and the head trauma, it would take a miracle for her to ever regain consciousness."
"Brandon," she whispered, gripping Janice's hand tight. Would her nephew be taken from her as well?
But Dr. Young brightened a little, happy at last to impart some good news. "Ah. The little boy? Well, he was knocked about a bit. But he was strapped into his car seat nice and tight, and he was on the right side of the car. So he should be just fine. Would you like to see him?"
She stood up so quickly she knocked her chair over. "Yes. Where is he?"
Young led them down a hall, harshly lit with fluorescent lights and filled with the stale, antiseptic smell all hospitals seemed to share, to a small, private room. Obviously meant for children, it was carpeted, with bright pillows and old coloring books strewn about. Inside, a small, black-haired boy slept on a cot, a bandage on his forehead, just above his left eyebrow.
"We had to put a couple of stitches in," Young said, his voice soft. "He took a nasty knock when the car hit the pole. There were a few scratches from the glass, and he'll have an impressive collection of bruises. But otherwise he's fine. How old is he?"
"Three," she said, her voice choked. Tears dripping down her face, she pulled Brandon into her lap, hugging him close. He made a small, inarticulate noise of protest in his sleep, but then settled down, cuddling close to her body. Her tears fell onto his cheek, and she wiped them away with shaking fingers.
"Janice?"
"What do you need, honey?"
She laughed, short and bitter, blinking back the tears. "To wake up. But since this probably isn't a nightmare, can you call my folks? We need..." Sobs threatened to overcome her fragile self-control. "We need to tell my parents my brother is dead. And that Kathleen is hurt bad. I hope they know how to get hold of Kathleen's family. Because I sure don't."
"Another officer was sent to contact Mrs. Lawrence's family," Dr. Young said from his position near the door. "But we reached out to you first, since the card we found in your brother's...effects...listed you as next of kin for Brandon here."
Next of kin.
It sounded so cold. But now the full weight hit her. When Bryce and Kathleen had asked her to be Brandon's guardian, in case anything happened to them, she had agreed without a second thought. Surely, nothing could happen to that bright, shining couple, so full of life and joy. Surely, it was merely a precautionary measure, the same way she took her birth-control pills every morning, even though she and Janice had been exclusive with each other for nearly two years, much to the silent displeasure of her parents.
Now...she felt a vast responsibility settle over her shoulders.
Good God.
I'm going to be his mother.
Present day.
"Happy Birthday, dear
Brandooonnnn
. Happy birthday, to
yooooouuuu!!
"
The old song trailed off in cheers and a smattering of applause from his parents, grandparents, and cousins, and Brandon blushed, pride mingling with embarrassment.
"Speech! Speech!"