A young writer struggles to get her career going. She meets an older man, a professor, who is supportive but dealing with a terrible situation. They're both equally needy and find comfort in each other. Soon, they're both in for a big surprise. But can they both get past the shock...
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The loud vibrating
thunk
on the table was startling. Few were in the library, and out of them, none were under thirty-five. Well, one. And she chose my table to wrestle four oversized books.
I glanced at the titles. All but one was considered a coffee table book. Pretty pictures. The other was a rather interesting travel book about spa resorts. Interesting choices for a young girl.
I went back to working on my lesson plan. The college asked me to add another class to my load and, like an idiot, I agreed. Well not an idiot maybe, because it was another way to stay busy.
You see my wife Myra was nearly dead. I won't get into why I think it happens to some and not others. Some leave this earth quickly, others linger. My wife lingered. Still lingers. She no longer knows me. I feel the end is near. But I've felt that before. I push it from my mind.
Another
thud
on the table and I glanced up.
"Sorry!" she stage whispered. "These are so big and heavy."
She sat with her back to the large window. Wild curls sprung from her head like corkscrews. A bright blue corkscrew shot out of the top of her head. Neon green another direction. It seemed as though her hair might be red naturally, but it was difficult to say.
She flipped through the pages and would stop and type on her laptop. Flip and type, flip and type until she got to the end. Then
thunk
another book would come off the pile and fall to the table.
I continued to work on my outline for a while. I looked up and she was gone. The big books were neatly piled on the table.
A shadow fell across my paper. She was back with another armload of books. THUNK. She glanced at me and cringed with a big shoulder shrug. She looked high school age, but I was always terrible at aging people.
She sat at the end of the table this time. As she flipped through the pages, I noticed her creamy white skin and decided the red was her own. One blue and one green corkscrew just set her apart from any other curly redhead.
She pushed the last book aside and sighed. I glanced up and she smiled.
"Maybe there's something I can help you with," I asked. "I'm pretty familiar with this library."
"I used to come here often, but the convenience of the computer makes my research quicker and easier. I'm looking for resorts around the world."
"Hmm, resorts. Holiday or specialty? Like weight loss? Or health? Couples?"
"I don't know."
"Okay then. Why are you looking for resorts?"
"I'm a freelance writer. My biggest assignment to date is to do a piece on resort spas or a specific spa. He was pretty vague."
"For a magazine?" I asked.
"Yes, for subscribers only. He wouldn't even show me a copy so I could get the feel for it."
I decided she must be older than she looks.
"Is it an adult magazine?" I asked, trying to narrow it down.
"Like X-rated?" She thought. "He did say nothing was off-limits, which I thought was weird. He was so vague. Usually, they are precise in what they want."
"Well," I should have thought this through, but I blurted, "I have a book on adult resorts at home. I know this sounds suspicious but I'm on the up and up, as they say. I'm a professor at the college, so girls usually pick me up." She laughed.
"Maybe the book is here?"
"No, it's pretty explicit. They wouldn't have it here." I looked down at my paper. "Anyway, you're welcome to come over and look through it for ideas. I have work to finish here and will be heading home."
I went back to my outline, and she continued to bring books back. THUNK. Sigh. THUNK. Sigh.
"I guess if you wouldn't mind, I would like to see that book. I'm getting nowhere here."
"Of course. I have a couple more things to write out and I'll be ready to go. My apartment is only a couple of blocks away. We'll walk."
It was a beautiful fall day. Still warm, but thick with the scent of the leaves crunching underfoot.
"I've seen these buildings," she said as I opened the door. "Converted factories, right?"
"Yes, they transformed three industrial buildings into lofts. I was one of the first to move in."
The freight elevator creaked and rattled up to the top floor.
"This is fantastic!" She walked in, looked up at the soaring ceilings, and spun around. "I love all the open space."
"Thank you. I was able to choose the layout of the space."
"Wow," she ran her hand over the soft gouges in the wood. "What did they make here?"
"Research showed that a number of manufacturers cycled through. One was a shoe factory. Back when they started mass-producing shoes in vinyl. Oh yes, a candy factory was here at one point too."
"Imagining history creates a lot of fantasies," she murmured. "Oh, a kitty!" Dexter trotted out from his favorite hidey hole and went right up to Claire, posturing for a scratch. "Torties are my favorite!"
I had books stacked here and there. The covers were thrown back on my bed from when I got up. My coffee cup was on the countertop.
"Yes, it does make you wonder what all happened here."
I watched the emotions flit across her face. She was indeed fantasizing about history. Not so much what was manufactured here, but what might have happened with the people that passed through. I can't say I didn't wonder that from time to time, but she was creating much more of a vision of it.
She walked to an antique table that lived with me through the years and picked up a picture.
"This is your wife?" I nodded. "She's beautiful."
"She used to be beautiful to everyone, now she's just beautiful to me." She looked quizzical. "Myra is in hospice care currently. She has been sick the last ten years."
She stared at the picture for a moment before looking up with tears in her eyes. "I'm so sorry. I just can't imagine being together for so long and then losing them."
"It has been difficult but it's what we sign on for when we marry." I shrugged. I've had enough time for salvation bravado.
She carefully set the picture down and walked over to the telescope.
"I'll bet you can see forever this far up? May I?"
I adjusted it, and she peered into it. "I thought it might be trained in a neighbor's window."
"Not yet, that's after dark," I said, and she looked at me and laughed.
"Good one."
"I'll get the book for you. Make yourself comfortable."
She settled into an oversized suede reading chair and the cat made himself at home in her lap. I handed her the book. "It is adult reading. Just so you know." She quirked an eyebrow and smiled. "I'm going to make myself some tea. Would you like a cup?"
"Please!" She began leafing through the pages. "So, these are adult resorts of the world, right? Some seem X-rated, some just don't allow children?"
"Correct," I replied. I mixed milk and sugar in both our teas without asking her and placed them on the table between us. "The author seemed to cover all the angles."
"Have you been to any of these?"
"I have, yes. It has been years ago."
"Which one? For what?" she asked, looking up at me.
"Forms of sex, mostly tantric, located in India," I replied. I watched her contemplate that for a minute.
"Wow, you live in a cool place and have done cool things!"
I blinked. Not expecting that. I didn't know how I thought she would react, but I have taught generations of college students and I learned long ago to not second guess them. Some are open, some recently have a festering hatred of boomers. You either wallow in it, or you work through it. This was a girl that was going to be a success.
"Thank you, I think so too."
We discussed other spas and resorts. She finally came across the one I went to and read intently.
"l can envision you there," she said, studying me.
"I was young," I smiled. Sure, she was picturing me the age I was now.
"I get that, but yet, I can even imagine you there right now. You have a sense of virility that few men have. Maybe it's a lost art or maybe it comes with maturity. I don't know," she trailed off as though talking to herself more than me.
How can this young girl read me within a few hours of knowing her? I've been lucky in that I've lost little of my sexuality as I've aged. Possibly because I've not had sex since my wife's illness. There's a possibility that I don't know if I can even have sex. I'm able to masturbate with the same potency in that way. I don't plan on finding out. At least until Myra is gone.