My First (time) Taboo

Just a note: I have had several people asking me about my exes, so I thought I'd get you all up to date. Denise and Lyndsey have moved in together though they still live in their same town. Yes they do still make love, I'm sure that's what you all want to know. I talk to them often and although Lyndsey doesn't talk about it much, Denise gives me all the details. During my last year of college I was with them a few times toward the end after Nikki and I broke up, but I just chose not to write about that. They are both single for now, but I guess they have each other so they are happy.

Nikki and Jessica dated for a while, but they sort of just stopped suddenly when school ended. Nikki still lives with her mom, but Jessica moved to Indianapolis. I don't talk with either of them as often as I would like to, but we are still friends. Nikki is dating some older woman now, and I am happy for her. I think Jessica is single, but I really don't know for sure.

Also I'm not sure if I have ever mentioned them before, but my mom's sister's name is Jill. She is four years younger than my mom. She is married and has a girl named Kristen who is two years younger than me. She now attends Indiana University. They will play a part in this chapter as well. I talk to people on Facebook all the time who have read my stories, and I sometimes forget what I've written here and what I have told them.

So I left off at Christmas time so that's where I'll start now. Mom and I had dinner over at my Grandpa's house, and I spent most of the day talking with Kristen. We didn't like run off from the family the whole day or anything, but we just talked a lot. Now there was a point when the two of us were alone and we started talking about sex. She had been with a few boys down at college and she admitted to me that she had messed around with one of her sorority sisters. So we talked about that and she had a lot of questions for me. I'll be honest my cousin is totally hot and I have had sexual thoughts about her some, but not ever thought about acting on them.

That said (and again not sure if I have mentioned this before), my mom and mom's sister Jill messed around some when they were younger. My mom had showed her how to kiss and then also showed her a few other things such as masturbation. I've never had a sister I have no clue if that is normal or not, but my mom, being a lesbian, I think she was looking for an experience, one that her younger sister gave her I guess. My mom told me they never had "sex", but they messed around some in high school. I had no idea if Kristen knew about this, but I wanted Kristen to know that it was okay to experiment.

I started off telling her some of my experiences at college with Denise and such, and then I said, "Well I'm probably not supposed to tell you this, and you can't say a word, but my mom and your mom messed around a little in high school."

Now Kristen knows mom and I are lesbians, as does Jill (Though I'm not sure my grandparents know about me. They probably suspect it, but we never talk about it and they don't ask me about boys so, yeah), but they have no idea what goes on in our house.

"Oh my, gosh, are you serious? How do you know?" Kristen asked.

"Mom told me. It was when I was first coming out to her in high school. I think she wanted me to feel normal. At first I was sort of freaked out by it, but now I think it's sort of cool. Them helping each other understand themselves, you know?"

"Yea, I guess. Oh wow," she said and made a funny face.

To me it was totally hot. I thought Aunt Jill was very pretty, and she had a great body. Not as busty as my mom, but about my size and still fairly thin for her age. I had often thought about her as well, but again never really imagined anything ever happening.

"I think it's totally normal for girls to try things with other girls. Now mom and I are lesbian's, but your mom obviously isn't, and I have had sex with some straight or bi girls before."

I spent the next half an hour just listening to her as she sort of was discovering herself. She came to the conclusion that she might be bi. She reminded me a lot of my ex Nikki, or even Lyndsey, though maybe Kristen was bi and not just confused. Either way by the end of the night I found myself wanting to help her discover herself. I flirted a bit and I felt like she liked it, but nothing else happened.

That night when mom and I had sex, we talked about Kristen and Jill and had a great fantasy. The next morning my mom couldn't stop talking about it and she kept saying maybe they can be our Carol and Kayla. I didn't think it seemed very likely.

Okay, back to school. So when winter cheer was over I started coaching track. I knew a few of my girls from cheer were also going to run so I was excited. I only ended up coaching one of them as I had the middle distance and long distance girls and most of my cheer girls did sprints, high jump, and long jump. Still I had a great group of girls and I was loving the season.

I did have one senior girl who after a few weeks I started to think maybe she was either bi or even a lesbian. What caught my attention at first was that she would stare at my chest while we stretched together all the time, and she would check out the other girls as well. So I started watching her more closely and after a while I was even more convinced. Thing is as much as I wanted to talk to her about it I was afraid to. I'm sure she would have loved to have someone to confide in, but I didn't want any of my students to know about my lifestyle. It was a big decision for me. So my first thoughts were to try and show how much I cared for my runners and how open I was, and just hoping she would open up to me. After a month though, I decided to be more obvious. So I just confronted her one night after practice. I could tell she had a crush on one of the other girls on the team, so I used that to my advantage.

"Hey, Jordan, great job tonight. You're really working hard I am so proud of you," I said and I put my arm around her.

"Thanks Coach," she said and gave me her usual shy smile.

I sort of walked out with her to her car and small talked until I saw Kylee coming out of the locker room. She was the girl Jordan was interested in. Kylee was walking with another girl and talking, and I just continued to small talk while Jordan watched Kylee walk across the parking lot.

So I just decided to be bold as you know I can be, "I can see why you like her," I said abruptly.

Jordan was taken off guard and she almost didn't react right away just smiling, but then suddenly became defensive. "What, who?"

"Kylee," I said and waited to see what she would say. I figured the least I did the better.

"Yea she's a great friend," Jordan said and turned to get in her car.

I didn't stop her but after she got in, the window was open so I leaned with my elbows on her door and kept talking. "She's a nice girl. Smart, pretty, athletic, just like you."

"Coach you are sort of weirding me out," Jordan said and started the car. I caught her looking at my cleavage twice before she focused on my eyes.

"Sorry Jordan, I guess I don't know you as well as I thought. Didn't mean to cross the line."

"No it's okay Coach, I'm just not sure what you are talking about," she said and looked over at Kylee again. She knew exactly what I meant, and the fact that she denied it told me it was true.

"Hey you did great tonight, take care, see you tomorrow." And she drove off. But that was all it took, cause later that week on the way back from a far Saturday meet we talked. The bus was mostly empty as many girls had gotten rides home with their parents, but most of the older girls who had cars of their owned rode the bus home.

I was actually almost asleep when she sat next to me and finally opened up. Now I will talk more about Jordan later on, but I think it's important to tell this in order. I also want to point out that I would never do anything sexually with any of my students or girls I coach. Jordan and Kylee are both 18 and that is why I am talking about them at all, but I would not cross that line.

Now as for doing crazy stuff at school that's what a lot of this chapter will be about. Sorry for the slow start, but honestly nothing really exciting happened in January or February. In fact February is without a doubt the longest month of the year when it comes to high school. Though shorter in days it seems like an eternity. March on the other hand brought with it some excitement.

So Mandy caught me going into the copy room after school, and she followed me in. She was just talking about how much she would love to come over and spend time with mom and me again, and I have no idea what came over me, but I started squeezing her boob, at first just over her shirt, but soon I was up her shirt and rubbing her nipple and we were kissing. It was so dangerous and even though we were somewhat behind the door and would have plenty of time to separate it was still so scary. Lucky we were, because sure enough someone came in.

Mandy acted foolish and laughed and then said, "So let me know what patty says," and she took off leaving me there with an old guidance counselor who talked my ear off. When I was done making copies I made my way to Mandy's office and after doing some small talk I asked her to come to my room. I knew if I locked the door no students would interrupt, and the janitors never got around to cleaning my section till at least four. So that gave us a good forty minutes.

As soon as the curtains were pulled down I turned to see Mandy sitting on my desk. I was so horny for her. I started unbuttoning my shirt and had my bra down before I got to her and she took my nipple to her mouth right away. I was so light headed. Being in the classroom seemed so naughty, and though I was terrified we'd get caught, I couldn't stop myself.

My hand found its way up her skirt and around her underwear, and soon I was fingering her while she continued to suck me. Then I just started rubbing her clit and holding her to my breast until she climaxed. I looked at the clock and saw that we still had plenty of time so I lifted her sweater and began sucking on her nipples.

I love Mandy's boobs. They are super soft like my mom's. I played with them and sucked them for so long before just making out with her and feeling our breasts pressed together. She wanted to please me, but I had a track meet that night and I needed to get going. It was a home meet so I didn't need to be there until close to the starting time of the meet as my girls all knew what to do, and I wasn't the head coach. He assumed I would be preparing for school the next day so he wouldn't think twice about me not showing up right after school. Still I had to get going.

After explaining that to her, we got dressed and I went to the track.

So fast forward a couple weeks, as again nothing exciting happened. Then one day after practice, I am walking through the locker room getting everything locked up and Jordan is talking with me about her classes or something and when she is sure no one else is around she comes on to me.

I had admitted to her that I was a lesbian and I probably shouldn't have, but we both had our secrets and I wanted her to feel like she could come to me if she needed to talk. Now again Jordan is a cute girl and has this very athletic body, B-cup, thin yet muscular, long sandy blonde hair, but I really wasn't attracted to her, plus as I said I would never do anything with a student.

Yet there she was coming on strong. It was actually kind of cute, and I was very flattered, but I certainly didn't want this to ruin our relationship. In all honesty I think she just desperately wanted to feel the touch of someone, but maybe more so she just needed to be able to show affection to someone of the same sex. She felt trapped and I knew that feeling. I was frank with her and told her it could never happen, and she took it well. Still I gave her a hug and we found ourselves embracing for the longest time. We just kept hugging and rubbing each other's backs and she just wouldn't let go of me so I held her.

When we left I told her about a girl in my third period class that was a lesbian and very open about it. Jordan admitted she was cute, but she didn't seem interested nor did she want to take a chance of anyone else knowing just yet. I completely understood.

So fast forward another week and I woke up one morning super late and came down stairs on one of the few Saturdays that we didn't have a track meet, and there was my mom talking with my Aunt. They had no clue I was even up yet so I snuck around into the kitchen and just listened from a distance, wondering what my mom might try.

I'm not sure why my mom would ever shock me anymore, but I was still a little surprised when my mom started talking to my aunt about what they had done when they were little. Jill kept laughing and I could tell she was very nervous, but after a while she started to open up a bit. She even started talking about how her husband and she had fantasies about doing threesomes with another woman. My mom listened a lot and just asked questions, seeming to try to get my aunt to admit that she wanted to be with a woman again.

Jill explained how she would see certain girls and have thoughts about them, either doing a threesome with her husband or even occasionally just picturing herself with them. I could see my mom's face and how she seemed happy and concerned depending on what Jill was saying. Then my mom said, "Well I am happy we did what we did. I feel like it made us closer. Plus I think I taught you a few things."

My aunt laughed again really hard and I could tell she was embarrassed. "Oh my, yea, I had no idea what I was doing, or that you were even a lesbian, Patty." They both laughed and then my aunt said, "But yes, it was nice. I did feel really close to you."

"Have you ever done anything with another woman since me?" my mom asked.

"Oh my," Jill shouted and rolled her head around and looked up at the ceiling. "Umm yes, yes I admit, I did mess around with a girl in college. It started off as just this fun crazy way to get guys hot for us, you know kissing at parties or dancing sexy together, but there was one night that we just were horsing around, and then one minute we were wrestling and the next minute we were grabbing, and then yea we did stuff."

"Mmmm," my mom said, "Just that one night?"

"Oh, well . . . maybe a few times," Jill said.

"I bet she LOVED you," my mom said putting her hand on Jill's knee. "I know I did. You were a great kisser."

"I had no idea what I was doing when I kissed you. And you seemed like you knew exactly what you were doing."

My mom laughed that time, "I really didn't, you know. You were my first too. I just pretended to want to teach you for an excuse to do it myself."

"Oh my, gosh, no way," Jill said shocked and I wish I could have seen her face, but my mom's was priceless.

My mom was just smiling so big and she looked so pretty. "Yep," she said. "well anyway, I thought you were great."

There was this pause then and my aunt reached over and grabbed a lemonade and took a drink. My mom looked out the window and I started to feel bad for being nosey until Patty said, "I wonder if Lucy and Kristen ever did anything together."

"Oh I doubt it," Jill answered quickly. "Kristen is straight for sure."

"Well so were you," my mom said.

My aunt laughed again. "Well who knows, I suppose that's true."

"Kristen is looking just as sexy as you were at her age," My mom said. "She sort of reminds me of you."

"Oh and Lucy looks just like you did," Jill said.

My mom cupped her boobs and pressed them enough that they bulged out of the top of her shirt, "Not just like me." They laughed again. Oh my, gosh, my mom made me horny. I don't know how my aunt didn't want to reach out and touch them. "And Kristen has quite a beautiful pair as well."

Kristen did have nice boobs. She was a D cup, but she was small framed like me and they looked amazing. I had imagined touching them many times at Christmas.

"Well no one has boobs like you, Patty, and yes Kristen has filled out a lot this last year especially, but nothing like Lucy."

"Oh, Lucy's breasts are just perfect," my mom said with almost too much excitement in her voice and I was actually a little afraid she might admit to something. "Seeing her and Kristen together at Christmas . . ." my mom said and just trailed off.

"What," Jill said, "What kind of a look is that?"

My mom was staring off and smiling so big. "No, it's just really bringing back memories. It was like the two of us sitting there all those years ago. It actually made me sort of hot."

"Oh my," Jill said and started laughing again. Again they both sat there quiet for a moment and then Jill changed the subject and they went on talking. I was sure my mom would have liked to have done something with Jill just then. But it didn't seem like she was going to try anything now. I'm sure that whole thing had to have been nerve-racking for her. I decided to maybe help her out. I took off the shorts I was wearing and hid them in a cabinet in the kitchen, pulled my nightshirt down off my shoulder to one side as far as it would go so that it was almost to my elbow and my right boob was practically hanging out. I then snuck back to the stairs and bounced around into the living room acting like I had just woke up and first noticed that my aunt was there. I think I actually did pop a nipple out for a second as my aunt's face darted their as I was jumping up and down, but when my arms went up to give her a hug I fixed it.

"Oh my, gosh, Aunt Jill, what are you doing here?"

I sat in between them Indian-style and my shirt was nowhere near long enough to cover my panties.

"Oh I just stopped by to see your mother."

We sat and talked for a while and I only noticed her looking at my boobs once, even though I tried my best to get her attention with them. So I leaned back against my mom facing Aunt Jill, and had my legs spread facing her. I loved feeling my mom's boobs on my back and my nipples were so hard. I noticed Jill's were too. Then Jill asked me if I was seeing anyone. I was sort of shocked she would, but happy. I told her a little about how I was interested in someone at school, but no serious details. Then I just boldly said, "I have been having casual sex with this older woman at school, but I don't think that's going anywhere. But I do love making love to an older woman."

Jill seemed embarrassed, but she asked me a few questions about her anyway. I wasn't sure if Jill knew Mandy or not so I didn't mention her name or give to many details so she couldn't figure it out.

Then I jumped up and told them I was going to go get in the shower. I didn't of course I just went upstairs and listened on the balcony. Jill talked about me almost right away.

"Oh Patty, what do you think about Lucy being with an older woman?"

"She's an adult, Jill. She is sexually active and I am happy she is so sure of herself. She can make love to whomever she wants."

"Wow, that's great that you two can talk about that so openly."

"Do you remember Mandy that I used to work with?" My mom asked. I couldn't believe she was telling her.

"Oh sure, yes, why?"

"That's the woman Lucy has been making love to."

I could see Jill's face and she looked shocked. She put her hand up to her mouth and said, "Patty, didn't you date her for a while?"

"I wouldn't say we dated, but we had a lot of sex," my mom said.

"Oh no, seriously? Is this strange for you?"

"Not at all, I am happy for both of them. It really doesn't bother me at all. Lucy can have sex with whoever she wants. I'm glad she is experimenting and finding out about whom she is and what she likes. She needs to be free, I really don't mind who she is with. I wouldn't even mind if she had sex with you."