We were not a normal family. I had four brothers and at least three of them were lusting after me. They put me in humiliating positions, gave me no privacy in the bathroom or shower and forced me into sexually compromising positions. The exception was Mark, who was aloof and always regarded me at a distance. When Dad made requests at the breakfast table ("Mark, feel between your sister's legs to see how wet she got last night"), he looked like he was in physical pain.
And that brought me to Dad. He rarely touched me himself, but watched riveted when George or Kevin snapped my bra, then scooped my breasts. He loved making comments to embarrass me. Was I outgrowing my bra? Did I need new panties? When was I expecting my next period?
In some ways, though, we were like a normal family albeit without a mom (she passed away). We each had chores. I was in charge of dishes. Dad cooked meals (which I was still on the fence about. I had been having so many upset stomachs that Kevin and George planted permanent air freshener in the bathroom and loudly let the family know why). Mark did outside yard work (which would explain why he was so built). Connor did vacuuming. George did bathrooms. And Kevin was in charge of laundry.
I was unwilling to hand over my large bras and panties to a guy who made my life a living hell. But I knew that complaining was a good way to get punished. And I convinced myself nothing nefarious was going on....until I walked in and saw Kevin inhaling heavily, sniffing the gusset of my latest pair of panties.
"Kevin!" I felt humiliated once again. I expected Kevin to laugh, to mock me, to say something snarky about the state of my panties. They weren't the cleanest. I had only been recently re-toilet trained and I sometimes still had dribbles, forgetting I wasn't wearing my diapers. Plus I was easily aroused. And it was hard not to be. My brothers (God forgive me) were sexy. They were strikingly so. And they were always touching me. George loved showing me the comments people left on his blog (BabyBecky). People thought I was attractive. I was practically a porn star. And part of me really liked it.
But I really didn't want Kevin exploring my panties. Because at the back were several faint skidmarks. I knew I should take better care of my bathroom hygiene but I wasn't allowed to lock the bathroom door and I was always worried about my brothers bursting in. Mark was the only one who knocked. George took pictures.
But I was surprised to see that Kevin looked embarrassed. He dropped the silk panties instantly. I cringed at the yellow on the gusset. What a baby I was!
"I'm sorry Becky. They just smell so good," he shuffled his feet nervously. I was bowled over. Kevin of all people was apologizing to me. Kevin?!! The same brother who gave me diaper rash?
"You can't do that anymore," I refused to look at him, sure he was putting me on. Any minute he'd start taunting me about my skidmarks. Instead he said, gently, "Are you still having trouble holding it, Becky? And wiping?" Tears filled my eyes but after all this time, I would NOT give him the satisfaction.
"None of your business," I said, angrily. To my horror, my voice wavered.