My name is Jillian. I am writing this confession at the command of my lovers. It is an embarrassing thing they are making me do but I have no choice. I must do this and so here I am and this is my confession. I only hope that if any of my friends recognize me that they will be forgiving.
I still live at home and attend college locally, so does my brother Alex. Living at home is not my first choice, I'd hoped to be able to go away and live in a dorm but this was what my family could afford. I always felt that I was a normal girl. I dated throughout high school and like boys. Yet, I have always wondered about women too. While I was never courageous enough to try anything with another woman I could not stop thinking about what it might be like. I was a virgin, never letting a date get any further then touching my tits and once letting a boy rub my pussy through my jeans. A lot of that has changed.
I have long brown hair, blue eyes and am five foot six inches tall. My body is well shaped, being tall and slender. My only disappointment was that I had smallish breasts. My bra size is a 34 with an A cup.
It all began the week my parents left for a two-week trip to the coast. My brother and I were left to fend for ourselves something we were more then capable of doing, especially since mom and dad had left us plenty of food and money for emergencies. The day they left Alex had gone off saying he'd be in late and not to make dinner for him. I came home from my classes and after some studying I took a shower. Before eating dinner I watched a movie on Lifetime about two women who wanted to get married. While it was a typical TV movie the idea of two women fixated it my brain. I had an urge to see another woman's naked body. I knew my brother had some magazines hidden in his room and decided to snoop and see if I could find one.
Rummaging carefully through his drawers produced nothing so I ventured into his walk in closet to search further. Spying a box tucked into the back of the closet I found his cache of porn. Sitting there right next to the box I leafed through a few of the magazines looking at some very beautiful women, naked with legs spread and pussies glistening. My own pussy was twitching more and more as I stared at the photos. Some of the magazines were more revealing then the others and I found myself enjoying the more revealing shots. I did not hear my brother come in until he was in the room. I hid behind what I could and hoped he would leave so I could escape. When I heard him talk to someone I understood that he was not alone. When a female responded I was a bit surprised and listened to their conversation.
"I told you it would be OK. Jillian is probably out with a friend studying. We're alone."
"Alex, are you sure no one will come home. I don't want to be caught with you in your room."
"Amanda, it's fine. Jillian might stay out for the night we have plenty of time. Now come here."
It got quiet and I crept to the closet door that I'd left partly open and peeked out. I saw them standing near Alex's bed and they were in a deep embrace kissing one another. When I saw Alex's hand begin to pull Amanda's shirt up and then off, I got very interested. Depending on how far Amanda would let Alex go, I was very likely going to see at least some part of a naked woman in the flesh. I stayed glued to my peephole and watched with interest as Alex not only removed Amanda's top but managed to eliminate her bra as well.
Although she was mostly pressed against Alex I could see the swell of her breasts and they were so much bigger then mine. I felt my body reacting to the site of this topless girl. Putting my hand between my own legs I tried to relive the itch that developed. My eyes stayed on her naked tits and when she stepped back to allow Alex to work her jeans off I could see her nipples were erect and that her areole was large and a dark pink. My hand moved faster but it wasn't enough and I tried to loosen my own pants and get my hand inside. This required stealth so it went slowly and for a minute of so I had to leave my peeping spot to push my pants down freeing my pussy for my hands. On my knees again, my hand now working my naked pussy I looked back to see that Amanda was now only in her panties, lacy black ones that covered little.
My pussy got very wet then and my hand moved faster. I even slid a couple of fingers inside but it all seemed not enough. When Alex knelt in front of Amanda and used his teeth to slide her tiny panties off I almost gasped. I reminded myself to stay quiet. Amanda now stood with her legs spread completely naked. She had shaved her mound completely. Alex had pushed his face between her naked thighs and I could just see his tongue sticking out and licking Amanda's bald cunt. She had put her hands on Alex's head and started to moan, as he seemed to be working his tongue in her pussy. I watched her ass clench from time to time and began to wish it were my face and not Alex's between her legs.
Amanda was gorgeous. She was shorter then I was and her hair was blonde and long. Her ass round her belly flat and her tits were big and soft. I wanted to put my lips on her nipples and feel then harden in my mouth. I wanted her and my hand worked my pussy as I continued to watch Alex have her.
He put his hands on her ass and spread her cheeks apart letting me get a glimpse of what his tongue had been playing with. Her pussy was spread open and his tongue was sliding in and out of her like I knew his cock would later. When he slid his hand into her ass crack and slipped a finger into her asshole I felt an orgasm well up inside me and I worked to quell it lest I make too much noise. I watched his finger slide in and out of her ass and heard her say.
"Oh yes, Alex fuck my little asshole. Lick my pussy baby. Yes, like that. Oh yes."
Her words did not help me slow my own reactions and I moved my hand from my pussy hoping to keep my orgasm from cresting. I continued to watch and they soon changed position with Amanda now on her knees and Alex standing. I was further amazed when I saw his cock. It was pretty big and so fat I wondered how Amanda would be able to get it in her pussy. When I saw her try to take him in her mouth I swallowed hard, never before imaging something like that. It was something I'd heard of, and had been asked by many boyfriends to do, but not something that ever had appealed to me. Yet as I watched how Amanda took it in and how excited it made both her and Alex I began to wonder if it might not be a good thing.
She used her mouth on him for a while and during that time I was so engrossed in watching her that I'd stopped touching myself and was able to push off the orgasm that was about to rip through me. Alex pulled her from his cock and led her to the bed. She was on her hands and knees and Alex moved up behind her. He was going to fuck her and in this position I would see it all as her ass faced the closet. While I could not see Alex's cock slide in I could hear Amanda.
"Oh god Alex its so big. Slow please. Oh yes Alex more. Push it in Alex. Oh god yes."
It seemed as if Alex's belly was flat against Amanda's ass and I knew he'd managed to put all of his big fat cock into her. By her cries and moans I knew she loved it as he started slowly to move back and forth inside her. Soon he was moving much faster and Amanda's cries were louder as she begged him to go faster and harder, begged him to make her cum. I watched my brother's ass as he fucked her and I had to put my hand back between my legs, I had to. I could not stop rubbing my own clit and fingering myself while Alex fucked Amanda. I was confused about wanting to be the one to make her cum or being the one fucked and both scenarios made me hotter and hotter till my own orgasm sent me sprawling on the closet floor. Fortunately Amanda was screaming how she was cuming and I thought I went unnoticed. I crept back to my peephole and saw my brother's ass jerking into Amada and I assumed he was cuming too.
They collapsed onto the bed and rested for sometime and I was stuck in the closet with nothing to do but think about all that I had seen. When they got up and Amanda said she had to get home, they dressed and Alex took her out. I quickly pulled my pants back up and left the closet. In my own room I decided I needed to be out when Alex returned, so he would assume he was right that I'd been out this whole time. Slipping on my shoes I left through the back door and went to a convenience store to buy a soda and some chips. I found a spot where I could see Alex when he got back. I watched as he came home and went inside then waited a bit and went in as well.
"Alex, are you home? It's just me Jillian."
Alex walked out of the kitchen and looked at me strangely. Eventually he said.
"So tell me Jillian what did you enjoy more. Seeing your brother naked or seeing Amanda naked?"
Stunned by his question I stammered.
"Whaaat?"
"Oh come on Jillian I saw you in the closet. What were you doing there in the first place looking form my porn stash again?"
"Porn? I don't know what you are talking about."
I tried to show some anger at him but he saw through it.
"Jills, I've known for a while that you've been looking for my porn stash. I decided since the parentals were gone to leave them where you could find them."
"You're crazy I've been out all night."
"Oh Sis! Come on in to the living room for a minute."
I followed him in and he turned on the TV and then the DVD player. I saw his closet then I saw myself walking, searching, then sifting through the porn.
"Ok enough. Please stop the movie. So you planted a camera in your closet?"
Letting the DVD play on I watched as I saw myself crawling to the door and knew what was coming.
"Please Alex stop the DVD."
"No, Sis. We will both watch. Sit down and watch."
