This is a continuation of my previous story. So it will be helpful to have read the previous stories beforehand. This chapter got rather long real quick so I opted to separate it into three parts. Hope you all enjoy it.
All characters depicted having sex are over 18.
Kaitlin got finished straightening herself up faster than me. While I was still making myself presentable, she unlocked the bathroom door and peeked out. We had been in the bathroom, with the door locked, for quite some time during the Christmas shopping rush. I was surprised we hadn't heard banging. Or maybe we were so focused on what we were doing we just didn't hear. Or maybe someone was getting a janitor to unlock the door. With that thought, I put a little more haste in my efforts.
"Hurry up. The coast is clear, for now." I was just finishing up when Kaitlin said this. We slipped out of the bathroom and blended in the crowd. Once we got far enough away, we started giggling. I can't believe the places we have had sex. I suddenly stopped, which really surprised Kaitlin as our hands were interlinked. But when I thought of our activities, and I actually thought we had sex, I realized we hadn't had sex. I had, sure, but had Kaitlin? She'd just been giving me sex, but I had done nothing for her.
"What's wrong, Hailey?" Concern was evident in her look. Actually, her entire body was oozing concern.
"Well, I was thinking." I paused how do I state what I was thinking. She nodded allowing me to formulate my thoughts into word. "We haven't been having sex, right?" She looked baffled, like I had just grown horns on my head. "I mean, I know I've been having sex. And I know you were either there like with Naomi or actually there..." I blushed trying to say what I was intending to.
"Eating you out?" She finished for me. I nodded my head. "And that means we haven't had sex? I thought that's what it was. I mean oral sex, anal sex or vaginal sex. It's all sex. So if we haven't been having sex, then what have we been doing?" She sounded angry, or hurt, but when I looked at her none of these emotions matched with look. She still looked concerned. Maybe she was just trying to get me to explain so she could understand?
"Well, yes. I agree. All sex is sex. What I mean is, you haven't been having sex." Understanding, was starting to show on her face.
"Sweetie, I have been, too. Giving or receiving, is still having sex. But in your mind, you think, somehow I am getting cheated on this arrangement?" I slowly nodded. "So are you willing to rectify this situation, in your mind?" Finally, comprehension dawned on me. In my guilt of getting all the sexual attention, I had put myself in a position to face another challenge. Do I give my sister sexual release? If I don't, will this end for me? Hell, if I don't, then I am just being selfish. Will she let me...eat her...on my terms, where I want? Or will she dictate when and where?
I felt her hand on my arm. Alarm, evident on my face. I looked in her eyes. The look she gave me was compassion. I felt loved. I felt...I knew she wouldn't push me further than I wanted to go. Sure, she had pushed me further than I had gone, before. But the look she gave me just then, I knew. I was safe. She would never force me to do anything I didn't want to do. Had I wanted to stop, she would have. I am just glad I hadn't wanted to stop.
She grabbed my hand and we walked to Chili's for dinner. Nothing said between us. Nothing needed to be said. So I thought back on our day, but I started to realize this was starting to feel like a date. An over-sexed date, for sure, but a date nonetheless. My first date, with my sister. And I'd put out on it. God what a slut! I laughed, out loud. Just the thought put me in hysterics.
My sister looked at me like I was going crazy and would soon be visiting me in the loony bin. It was too much for me. I bowled into her and when I got my arms around her, my mouth near her ear, I whispered, "I'm such a slut!" Which caused me to giggle even more. My sister pulled away slightly absolutely flabbergasted. So I explained further, "I had sex on my first date, with you!" I giggled some more.
When I finally stopped giggling, she said, "Okay, slut, let's get some dinner." I don't know why it was all so funny. Maybe it was the euphoria of my over-sexed mind. Maybe it was the incredulous events of the day. Maybe it was just the fact all of this was done with my sister. All I know is once it was over I felt relief.
Once we were seated in a booth, we started looking over a shared menu. Sure, we had a second menu, but it felt more intimate this way. We were sitting side-by-side, neither one of us wanting to part from the other. We decided on an appetizer and a shared plate of pasta.
With our order placed with our waitress, my sister turned to me and asked, "So explain to me the hilarity of you being a slut and us on a date."
"Well, I was thinking about the day so far. And everything seemed to feel like a date, right?" She nodded. "Well, if this is a date, technically it's our first date, right? I mean every other time we did things together, it wasn't a date-like feeling. And I'd always thought girls who put out on the first date, were sluts. I mean here you are, buying me things, and I am putting out. I mean, if we weren't...sisters (I whispered)...I guess that would make me a prostitute? Or a mistress, if you were married."
"So let me get this straight. You're a slut because you had sex on what you are guessing is our first date, multiple times by the way. And you find it funny, why?" I sensed she was getting hurt. Why would she feel that way? Something in my head, sounded funny, I laughed at it, and now my sister is getting hurt over it?
"Well, yeah. I mean before last night, I hadn't even masturbated. And now I've had sex..." I quickly counted the times in my head, "...four times? I even flashed a guy. And masturbated while you watched. I mean that's kind of funny to me. Why don't you see it as being funny, at least a little?"
Now I could really see her anger rising. She was trying very hard to reign it in, which is good because if it boiled over, all hell would break loose. Taking a deep, calming breath, "Because, little sister, what would it say about me? I mean here I was lusting after you and fell for you. Only to find she was a closet slut I could have had at any time? Or that if I hadn't seen you masturbate, you would have gone off and been one with someone else? Why would I feel like the one person I truly could love calling herself a slut, was funny? So I opened her eyes to what sex could be like and now. She was insatiable and would give it to anyone who gave her the slightest hint he or she was interested? Yeah. Hilarious!" Her tirade over, I was surprised it had remained hushed and hadn't escaped our booth, left her panting.
"I'm sorry." I tried to reach for her hand, but she pulled away from me. So I put my hand on her thigh. "I wasn't thinking about any of that. I just found it funny..." I amended my wording quickly "...ironic that so much has changed since I woke up yesterday to where I am now. I mean, I never even dreamed that anything like last night and today could possibly happen. Yet, here I am, with you, doing them. So, yes, I do find that, this situation, to be funny." I didn't amend my words this time. "And no, I am not going to be giving 'it' to anyone who gives me the slightest hint of interest." This calmed her down, quite a bit actually. She leaned her head on my shoulder.
At this point, our waitress brought out our appetizer and refills. We sat and ate. So much had been said that we just let it absorb and be contemplated. So, my sister loved me? I knew she did but this was more. Was she IN love with me? She seemed pretty upset, especially thinking I might just have sex with anyone. Was she wanting to date me? Was I ready to be my sister's girlfriend? Was I even a lesbian? My sexual experience has only been at my sister's hand, and mouth, and Naomi, with my sister there. How would it even work if we did date? I mean, we couldn't tell mom and dad. Wouldn't they grow suspicious when neither of us married or dated? If we lived together, they would definitely figure it out. Would they disown us? So if we didn't tell them, we wouldn't have much of a relationship anyway. So the end result would be no relationship with our parents, either by our choice or theirs. Could I live like that? Sacrifice our parents for our sexual relationship?
I was so lost in thought I stopped eating. "You have your worried face on. What's up?" What's up? I couldn't even voice all the issues swimming in my head.
"What are we?" I asked, simply.
"Sisters."
"I mean now. With everything we've done. What are we?"
"Sisters. With benefits, I guess. Why? What do you think we are?"
"You don't think we're more? I mean the tirade you gave me. It sounded deeper. It sounded..." How had it sounded? "...jealous. Are you in love with me?"
At this, she was looking everywhere. Everywhere but at me as if she could get the answer from the lights and signs around the restaurant. When she couldn't, she turned to me. She tried to speak, but she just nodded.