I carefully got off the carriage, mother wasn't looking me in eyes she locked her face down, and she looked embarrassed. During the day I tried to hold a conversation with her like we use to, but she wouldn't respond.
She totally ignored me throughout the day, I felt sick and guilty and I know she felt the same. I couldn't believe that we let this go that far, but that been said it has already been done. We have reached a point of no return.
After farm work we prepared ourselves to go home, mother refuse to sit on my lap, she sat in the front row sit and lapped one of my sisters so I had to lap one of my brothers.
As soon as we arrived at the house I went straight to the shower and after that I went to my room to think things through, but I was so tired I fell asleep.
I woke up in the middle of the night with a hard on, I sat on my bed and thought about the sex I had with mother in the carriage.
I didn't feel any regret in fact I wanted it to happen again. I am tired of holding up and not able to willingly expressing my feelings freely to mother because of the restriction that the society has place on us or her unwillingness to get involve with me sexually.
I checked the time and it was 11pm and my brothers were fast asleep. Everybody was sleeping and the house was quite, I tried to fall asleep but couldn't, all I could think of was mother the thrill of fucking her one more time, and how bad I wanted her, I wanted to fuck mother so bad.
I went to the bathroom and masturbated but I wasn't satisfied. I decided to go outside to get some fresh air but as I was about to open the backdoor I heard some noises from the kitchen so I decided to check what's up.
I open the door to the kitchen and saw my mom sitting on a kitchen stool in the dark. She bent her head down as if she was crying. I came in and she looked up and saw me.
I asked her "what she was doing in the dark" and she stood up and told me to "pack my bags and move back to San Francisco tomorrow morning".
I said that "I am not moving anywhere and that I have done nothing wrong", and she said that "we have committed a sin against God and humanity" then turned around to get out the kitchen before I said "you weren't complaining when we was doing it" she turn around and immediately slapped me.
I was so angry and responded by grabbing and slamming her against the wall with rage. I was angry and filled with evil intent, so I turned her around against the wall with her back facing me and pulled her gown up, she struggled to get away from my grip but I was too much for her.
She tried to scream but I covered her mouth with my right perm. Everybody was asleep and I wasn't going to let her wake them up and catch me trying to rape mother. I wanted to fuck my own mother by force. I pulled her gown up and ripped her panties down.
I was covering her mouth but I could hear her cry and muttering demands that I let her go or I will be dead, all I could think of is getting my dick into her fat ass and working my way to her pussy.
I ripped her panties down and her fat ass throw itself at me like a balloon , I pulled my pajamas down and brought out my penis, held it with my left hand and it was hard as steel. With my right hand covering mother's mouth and my penis on my left hand I bent my knees so I can align my dick directly to mothers butt crack, I forced it between mother naked crack and hit the jackpot, and all this time she was trying to bite my hand and struggling to get away but I force her harder to the wall with my chest and push my hip forward.
My dick went right through her ass crack and into her pussy, I force every inch of my 8' cook inside her, she cried and moaned as I slammed her pussy mercilessly. I was so carried away that I didn't feel like I was doing anything wrong. At that point I convince myself that she wanted it, but wouldn't admit it, to justify my sinful actions.