Although my mother was just 27 years old at the time of my father's death, I can't recall her having dated. I believe that her decision not to date was based upon a combination of her feelings of responsibility to provide a moral and stable lifestyle, as well as her not wanting to diminish the memory we both had of my dad.
My mother and I had a truly wonderful relationship and I never wanted for anything or ever felt deprived. She couldn't have been any more wonderful as a mother, provider and supporter.
I believe that our special bond developed because not only were her maternal instincts paramount, but as I flourished, she made me feel like I was the man of the house. Even as I began to mature, there was never anything erotic or sexual about our relationship. She was always readily available to answer any questions I had and never made me feel foolish for asking any question, no matter how basic the subject.
When I was inquisitive about my developing body, she would find the appropriate method to explain things in ways that were easy to understand. She would always address the matter by explaining things in very simple terms in an effort to help me understand the changes I was experiencing. At times, she would obtain books or other printed materials that would address my concerns and provide easy to understand explanations.
The memory of the day that our relationship changed and became mutually consensual continues to be a constant source of satisfaction and delight.
It was early on a Saturday morning, two months after my 18th birthday. The door to my bedroom was opened about halfway. As I was in the process of preparing to dress for the day and had just removed my pajama top, I thought I heard my mother sobbing in the living room. I exited my room and as I was walking towards the living room, I called out to her and asked "Mom are you OK? Is there anything wrong, what's the matter?"
Just as I was crossing the threshold to the living room, she responded by saying, "I'm OK hon, there's really nothing to worry about Jason", and then looking up towards me she began to cry again, only this time more intensely.
I couldn't believe my eyes! My mother was sitting at the near end of the couch, wearing the most attractive and extremely revealing light-blue sheer negligee, and nothing else.
As I approached to comfort her, she was sitting on the couch with her left leg bent at the knee with her foot drawn up under her butt, exposing her nether region. Having never seen any part of my mother exposed before stopped me dead in my tracks and caused my cock to immediately rise in my pajama bottoms and twitch with each pulse of my heartbeat.
Noticing my hypnotic gaze caused my mother to blush and she nervously explained that the negligee had been a gift from my father the week before his death. She went on to say that she had planned to surprise my dad by wearing the negligee on what had become the morning after his death. Her face then fell into her upturned hands as she continued sobbing. Then raising her head to look at me once again, said, "Your father never got to enjoy seeing me wearing this, nor did he have the pleasure of removing it just before I was going to acquiesce and satisfy his long-sought desire of mutual oral gratification, something that I had never before agreed to engage in with him."
Wiping the tears from her face, my mother apologized not only for her crying jag, but for also allowing me to see her in such a revealing state. Then she added, "And I really shouldn't have told you as much as I just did, please forgive me."
I told her that I understood fully and that there was nothing for her to be embarrassed about or for me to forgive her for.
Finally, she confessed that she had carried this guilt every day since my father's death and that it was in large part the reason that she never had any desire to even consider dating.
She said that if it wasn't for my being there for her since his death, she wasn't sure what she would have done. She voiced her concern saying that she hoped she wasn't being selfish, but she confessed that she really wouldn't mind if I decided to never move out.
I told her that she wasn't being selfish and that I had actually been planning to discuss that very same matter with her, to ask if she wouldn't mind my staying and living there with her. I told her that I loved her deeply and really had no interest in seeing anyone romantically and that I was more than content to remain living with her.
My mother smiled and said that she was feeling much better now and that she was going to let go of her feelings of guilt about my father's not seeing her in the negligee. Then, after a short pause she asked "Jason, being that you're officially the man of the house, what do you think? Do you think your father would have liked me in what you see?"
Smiling I said, "Of course he would have mom, he would have been over the moon seeing you in your negligee, what's not to like, you're a real MILF! You're a beautiful and extremely desirable woman. I for one, have always liked what I've seen when I look at you. You really are hot mom!"
And then I continued, "Especially tonight. Seeing you in your revealing negligee really makes me feel like the man of the house. I only wish that I was going to get the reward that you had planned to surprise dad with those many years ago."