My daughter is a porn star. When she first told me, I was deeply upset. I thought something horrible had happened to her in childhood that led her to sex work. I thought maybe the divorce had caused it, or I hadn't been there enough for her. Kaylee assured me I had been a good mother and it didn't have anything to do with me or her father. She said there really wasn't an explanation, it was just something she had always wanted to do. Growing up, she had said she wanted to be an engineer. She certainly had the grades for it and had even enrolled in the engineering program at UCLA. At the time I was so proud of her for going to college and chasing a sensible degree. But her third year she dropped out, and less than six months after that, she moved in with me.
I'll admit we weren't as close as I would have liked to have been when she was growing up. There was always a distance, one that grew massively after the divorce, and expanded even further as I started taking double shifts at the hospital. I was a nurse on third shift meaning I rarely saw Kaylee at all in high school. I made good money and gave her a comfortable living, but missed quality time with her. As far as the talk goes, I basically explained to Kaylee that all the boys who show interest in her were only after one thing. I took her to get birth control and showed her how to use a condom. I was trying to be a sensible and progressive mom. Kaylee assured me the talk had nothing to do with her career choice, but still I couldn't help but feel guilty.
Kaylee was a beautiful child, and is still quite a catch. She has dark hair with a big splash of platinum blonde in it. Her skin is a healthy golden color. She's much thinner than me. After getting pregnant with her, I had put on serious inches. My butt grew in circumference and I went up two cup sizes. The last time we went bra shopping for her she was an AA cup. Some might call her scrawny, but she stays fit and takes very good care of her appearance. Ideally she would meet a guy who made enough money she wouldn't have to do this anymore.
When Kaylee moved in, I didn't know she was doing porn at the time. I only found out later she had been skipping classes to go to shoots with no intention of finishing her degree. I thought she was doing porn to pay for college, but she assured me it was a career choice she wanted. I just couldn't understand it. She tried to explain it to me, but the idea of my baby girl being used like a piece of meat filled me with dread. All those men seeing her. I knew I could search her stage name online and find videos of her doing lord knows what. Kaylee assured me everything was safe and on the level. She even emailed me some files to show what her job was like, but I could never open them. She started paying $1000 a month rent without being asked, and I could hardly argue with her after that.
Now get it straight, I don't endorse my daughter doing porn, but I don't condemn her. She is a proud, modern woman who can make her own choices. She's a very sweet girl and always helps out around the house. She also promised me she doesn't do sex work at home (to my great relief) though admits she could bump the rent to $1500 a month if she could webcam with her fans. I think she knew the idea stressed me out, so she never brought up it again.
Ironically, after finding out my daughter did porn, we grew much closer together. Our relationship had matured from a mother and daughter to two adult women living together. We connected more and talked more. We got to a point where I could bear to hear about her job. Apparently she was semi-famous as Randy Rose. She was known for her girl-next-door looks and her vanilla library of movies. Fans liked her because she only ever did solo or hetero-couple shoots, and didn't get plastic surgery. I was very proud she didn't resort to plastic surgery as she was a very beautiful woman despite not being the most busty or curvy. Her fans often clamored for her to do more hardcore content, but she refused. She had a business strategy. Kaylee had started with solo photo shoots to build a small following. After a year, she did her first video with a man. According to her, most porn stars went from solo, to lesbian, to hetero, to hardcore. Her plan was to build the girl next door appeal and then do a lesbian shoot. I had to ask if she was a lesbian, and all Kaylee said was, "girls are fun".
I dreaded the idea of her doing anything degrading, but Kaylee said the entire process is very clinical and would hardly be considered sex. A five minute scene can take an hour and there are fifteen people in the room each getting every aspect of the shoot right. She said girls never squirt for real, and guys only come like 25% of the time. The rest of the time it was just icing and edits. Though I never watched porn, I found these behind the scenes secrets fascinating. She mentioned I could make a lot of money doing porn, as hot, confident MILFs without plastic surgery were rare. I laughed and said maybe if I lost my nursing job I would consider it.