My daughter is a porn star. When she first told me, I was deeply upset. I thought something horrible had happened to her in childhood that led her to sex work. I thought maybe the divorce had caused it, or I hadn't been there enough for her. Kaylee assured me I had been a good mother and it didn't have anything to do with me or her father. She said there really wasn't an explanation, it was just something she had always wanted to do. Growing up, she had said she wanted to be an engineer. She certainly had the grades for it and had even enrolled in the engineering program at UCLA. At the time I was so proud of her for going to college and chasing a sensible degree. But her third year she dropped out, and less than six months after that, she moved in with me.
I'll admit we weren't as close as I would have liked to have been when she was growing up. There was always a distance, one that grew massively after the divorce, and expanded even further as I started taking double shifts at the hospital. I was a nurse on third shift meaning I rarely saw Kaylee at all in high school. I made good money and gave her a comfortable living, but missed quality time with her. As far as the talk goes, I basically explained to Kaylee that all the boys who show interest in her were only after one thing. I took her to get birth control and showed her how to use a condom. I was trying to be a sensible and progressive mom. Kaylee assured me the talk had nothing to do with her career choice, but still I couldn't help but feel guilty.
Kaylee was a beautiful child, and is still quite a catch. She has dark hair with a big splash of platinum blonde in it. Her skin is a healthy golden color. She's much thinner than me. After getting pregnant with her, I had put on serious inches. My butt grew in circumference and I went up two cup sizes. The last time we went bra shopping for her she was an AA cup. Some might call her scrawny, but she stays fit and takes very good care of her appearance. Ideally she would meet a guy who made enough money she wouldn't have to do this anymore.
When Kaylee moved in, I didn't know she was doing porn at the time. I only found out later she had been skipping classes to go to shoots with no intention of finishing her degree. I thought she was doing porn to pay for college, but she assured me it was a career choice she wanted. I just couldn't understand it. She tried to explain it to me, but the idea of my baby girl being used like a piece of meat filled me with dread. All those men seeing her. I knew I could search her stage name online and find videos of her doing lord knows what. Kaylee assured me everything was safe and on the level. She even emailed me some files to show what her job was like, but I could never open them. She started paying $1000 a month rent without being asked, and I could hardly argue with her after that.
Now get it straight, I don't endorse my daughter doing porn, but I don't condemn her. She is a proud, modern woman who can make her own choices. She's a very sweet girl and always helps out around the house. She also promised me she doesn't do sex work at home (to my great relief) though admits she could bump the rent to $1500 a month if she could webcam with her fans. I think she knew the idea stressed me out, so she never brought up it again.
Ironically, after finding out my daughter did porn, we grew much closer together. Our relationship had matured from a mother and daughter to two adult women living together. We connected more and talked more. We got to a point where I could bear to hear about her job. Apparently she was semi-famous as Randy Rose. She was known for her girl-next-door looks and her vanilla library of movies. Fans liked her because she only ever did solo or hetero-couple shoots, and didn't get plastic surgery. I was very proud she didn't resort to plastic surgery as she was a very beautiful woman despite not being the most busty or curvy. Her fans often clamored for her to do more hardcore content, but she refused. She had a business strategy. Kaylee had started with solo photo shoots to build a small following. After a year, she did her first video with a man. According to her, most porn stars went from solo, to lesbian, to hetero, to hardcore. Her plan was to build the girl next door appeal and then do a lesbian shoot. I had to ask if she was a lesbian, and all Kaylee said was, "girls are fun".
I dreaded the idea of her doing anything degrading, but Kaylee said the entire process is very clinical and would hardly be considered sex. A five minute scene can take an hour and there are fifteen people in the room each getting every aspect of the shoot right. She said girls never squirt for real, and guys only come like 25% of the time. The rest of the time it was just icing and edits. Though I never watched porn, I found these behind the scenes secrets fascinating. She mentioned I could make a lot of money doing porn, as hot, confident MILFs without plastic surgery were rare. I laughed and said maybe if I lost my nursing job I would consider it.
Well, knock on wood, I lost my nursing job. The hospital was bought out by Cleveland Clinic and major staffing changes were made. Anyone close to retiring age was fired. I was completely distraught, but Kaylee was there for me, cuddling me on the couch as I cried. She promised to handle the bills and told me I should think about retiring. I hadn't planned on retiring for another twenty years and certainly didn't have the savings. The following months were lean, but Kaylee stuck to her word, covering all the bills and the mortgage. Porn had really saved our home and family. It was hard to find work as a fifty year old RN with no four-year degree. Most hospitals wanted a four year degree just to take care of patients, and the younger, more educated nurses had pushed out the old folks still working. I dreaded the thought of returning to college. I had been a nurse for twenty-five years!
In those months I spent a lot of time throwing myself around the house, lamenting my career choices that had seem so safe at the time. To kill the twenty-four hours in a day I threw myself into exercise and lost fifteen pounds. Kaylee again joked her agent could represent me, and I said I would consider it. At that point I really did consider it. I had insider knowledge thanks to Kaylee, but I didn't think I could ever do porn for real. What would my friends think? What if someone recognized me? I pushed the idea away and looked at online courses for nursing students. Even accelerated programs were eighteen months and I was at an age where I was confident I was through with school.
After the third college website, I decided to check the porn avenue instead. I looked up the email Kaylee had sent me, downloaded the video and played it. On screen was my girl, a few years younger wearing normal clothes. She really did have that girl-next-door look down. The scene was pretty generic, the male porn star was clipping the hedges and they had some clunky dialogue which led to sex. The entire time my heart was pounding, knowing what would happen. Kaylee was extremely comfortable in her body and frequently walked around the house naked after showers. I had become used to seeing her petite, tanned frame. But watching her in the context of a movie...I became excited knowing what would happen. She undressed, and without thinking, I touched myself. The scene started with her co-star licking her pussy. She had two beautiful pussy lips which hung out of her vulva, just like her mother. The man's tongue played over her clit and labia, and Kaylee moaned. A shameful fantasy of licking Kaylee's pussy conjured in my mind, and I nearly came before pausing the video.
I skipped ahead and the man was inside her. Her little breasts barely moved as he fucked her. She was on all fours as he took her. By the end he came inside her and splashed cum on her small butt. Part of me wanted to clean her up. I came suddenly, gasping as I had never cum so hard with my husband, and shamefully closed my laptop. It must have been the depraved nature of it all. Maybe Kaylee had destroyed my inhibitions with her work talk. She was so sexually self-confident, and I deeply admired my daughter for that. Before I knew what I was doing, I found pictures of her online through a search engine. She certainly took a good picture. and I could see why she had so many fans. I didn't think I could ever do nude photography, let alone porn. Shamefully, I found a picture of her squatting with her lips spread and masturbated to my daughter. Her vulva was toned and smooth with just a hint of pink. I could imagine her little coo's as I licked her.