Chapter Four - It's Just a Story
"I mean, God only knows, we all have sexual needs and with me not having a man in my life for years, since your father left me, at 17-years-old, when I was pregnant with you," she said unbuttoning the top two buttons of her blouse and flaying the top portion of the thin, pink material open enough to reveal some cleavage, while waving her hand by her face. "Suddenly, it's so hot in your room, stuffy, actually."
"I'll put on my fan. How's that, Mother?" Sexually exciting him that his mother was hot, literally and figuratively, he angled his small, portable fan towards her. "Is that better?"
"Yes, thank you, honey. I mean, I've had sex with other men before, of course, especially after joining that dating site, which was more of a sex site," she said blushing, while letting out an uncomfortable laugh. "Unfortunately, nothing serious ever happened and those three men that I had sexual relations with, didn't call me again," she said with apparent sadness. "Out of practice, I guess, maybe I'm not very good in bed," she said with another sad, little, nervous laugh.
"Um, that's way too much information, Mother," said Jason holding up his hands and looking, as if he was about to be sick. "I really don't need to know about your past sexual experiences with other men, Mom. It's enough that I imagine them, when writing about them in my stories," he said laughing to hide his feeling of jealousy.
Only, truth be told, he wished she'd share all the sexy details of her sexual encounters with them. An image that made him as sexually excited as it made him insanely jealous and angry, he felt sick that a man had sex with the object of his sexual attraction and sensual affection, his mother. Now, he couldn't help but imagine his mother naked and in bed with those three men, as if they were gangbanging her, while she fucked and sucked them and they licked and fucked her.
He couldn't help but imagine his mother writhing naked in sexual pleasure and having sex with so much sexual passion. He wondered if she sucked cock. He wondered, if she allowed those three men to cum in her mouth. He wondered if she swallowed.
For him to salvage a mother and son relationship that he so enjoyed and treasured, before she found his book of incestuous stories about her, even if he so believed otherwise, he needed to make her understand that, even though his stories were about incest and about her, they were just stories and nothing more than that. Of course, those stories that he wrote were more than just stories to him. With his incestuous thoughts written out in stories that relieved his brain of the sexual frustration of not being able to have sex with his mother, they were his incestuous sexual fantasies coming alive, if only on paper.