All characters in this story is over the age of 18-years-old. There are no underage characters.
Susan witnesses her mother being gangbanged by her four sons.
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I never knew my father. I didn't even know who in the Hell he was. There's something hollow and empty inside of me when not knowing one or both of my parents and even though my mother was there, for all the love and attention she gave me, she may as well have been absent too. I always felt a restlessness deep inside of me not knowing my father. Not knowing who I truly was, I felt sadly incomplete and lost.
Being that I was the youngest of the family and so much younger than my youngest brother, I figured my father was one of the men my Mom had invited to her bed. There were so very many men in my mother's life after all. In my innocence and naivetΓ©, I never suspected that my father was one of my brothers until much later. Duh, I was so dumb not to know.
Now that I look back at my mother's incestuous relationship with her sons, how could I not have known that my one of my brothers was my father? Not having very many friends, never being invited to someone's house because of the reputation my mother had in the neighborhood, I was the one ostracized for her sins of morality or lack thereof. Unable to invite a friend to my house, no one would come even if I could have a friend over. Thinking that my family was like everyone else's family, I had no other family to compare my family to for me to see what was normal.
Other than those goodie-too-shoe families on TV, Happy Days, The Brady Bunch, and the Cosby Show, wishing my family was somewhere in the middle, my family was just as extreme as were those TV fantasy families. Compared to those situation comedy families, a gross understatement, my family life wasn't normal. My life wasn't normal. Because I was living in a crazy house, I feared that I wasn't normal either. With me flashing my panties, my bra, and my topless and naked body to men, an abnormal effect of being sexually abused, indeed, I wasn't normal either.
Every day one of my brothers would do something sexual to my mother and every day my mother would parade around nearly naked or naked in front of her sons. With me off limits, that is, until I turned 18-years-old, my life was a sexual free-for-all. After a while, as disturbingly ludicrous as it sounds, I thought it normal for a son to fuck his mother and a mother to suck her son. With all the teasing, flirting, vulgar suggestions, and walking around without her clothes in front of my brothers, I should have known that my mother had and was having sex with her sons, but I didn't. With all the grabbing, feeling, touching, and groping, I should have known that my brothers had and were still having their wicked, incestuous way with their mother, but I didn't know that either.
She always had a man over when I was in school and my brothers were working or when they were out on the town and whooping it up drinking. Not wanting to rile them by making them jealous, she never invited men home when my brothers were there, only when I was there. With everyone knowing how big and strong my brothers were, men born from good Czechoslovakian stock, as thick in muscles as they were thick in skulls, no one wanted to tangle with them. Because I was nearly as tall as she was, she was 5'10" and I was a shade under 5'9" tall, I was just as angry as she was. Maybe she thought that I was all the protection she needed should something go wrong. Had my mother not smoked and drank through her entire pregnancy, no doubt, I would have been taller and healthier than I am.
Because she was blonde and busty and was once married to a man from Czechoslovakia, even though her side of the family were English, the men called her Zsa Zsa. If the real Zsa Zsa Gabor was taller and younger, with my mother looking enough like her, they could have been sisters. Just as men are today, men back then were blinded by my mother's natural blonde hair, big blue eyes, and D cup breasts. Moreover, born in the 30's, 40's, and 50's, women back then didn't suck cock in the way that women who were born in the 60's, 70's, and 80's do today. My mother not only sucked cock but she allowed her men to cum in her mouth rather than on her tits and she'd swallow too. I know this because she told me how to please a man when I was old enough to date. Indeed, because of her proclivity to willingly give oral sex, she was very popular with men.
My brothers were all big, angry men and if they knew my mother was entertaining men in the house, they'd have a fit. She trusted me not to tell. Our dirty, little secret to share, being that I was the good daughter that I was and as if they didn't know that already, I never told them that their mother was a whore. As if it was my percentage cut for keeping quiet, she always gave me a few dollars, when her dates left. Even then, still in denial because she was my mother, I didn't think my mother was a prostitute, just popular with generous men who gave her gifts.
Always going out on a date, is what she called them, with a different man each night, she had so many boyfriends. Leaving with one man and coming home with another, she made the excuse that the one she left with was too drunk to drive and his friend offered to drive her home. A matter of trust, being that we all trusted our mother at the time, it made sense enough for me not to question her. My brothers were too dumb to know the truth about their mother. They more cared about her giving them sex than having a hot meal and a clean house. With all of the household chores left up to me, the cooking and the cleaning fell on my shoulders. Yet, careful not to rub her private, sexual escapades in the faces of her sons, knowing they were all there waiting for her to arrive home from her dates, she never invited any of her boyfriends up for a drink. Rarely, unless we bumped into them together on the street, did we ever meet any of my mother's men friends.
I didn't think much of my mom having so many boyfriends, why wouldn't she have a lot of boyfriends. She was beautiful and an ex-model, so she said. Now that I think more about it, I suspect that the only modeling she ever did was modeling her nude body around a stripper's pole. Every man's dream woman, she was a tall, beautiful, busty, and a natural blonde with big, blue eyes.
Later, after my brother's left, as if her personal symbolism of mourning, she died her hair black. Just as she was beautiful as a blonde, she looked beautiful with black hair too. Only, maybe because I was so used to seeing her with blonde hair, her black hair looked too much like a wig and I always had the desire to pull her black hair from her head. On second thought, with my self-esteem issues getting in the way of my commonsense, maybe she was jealous of me. Maybe she felt that she looked too much like me. Maybe because she looked too much like me, she didn't want to look anything like me, ergo the reason why she died her hair black.
I never considered that one of my brothers could be my father, until much later when I saw my four brothers naked and in my mother's bedroom. Then, as if a Polaroid camera flashed the real picture through my mind, it all made sense then that one of them could be my Dad but which one? Now with the knowledge that I may be a baby born from incestuous lust, just as I was condemned by incest, I'd be forever consumed by the word incest. Not a husband's love for his wife but a son's lust for his mother and a mother's lust for her son, I was an accident and a tragic mistake. A terrible inconvenience, my mother wasn't happy bringing home a new daughter from the hospital.
Incest defined me. Incest troubled my thoughts. Incest ruined my life. Incest was all that I was about. Incest, incest, and incest, everything I saw, read, and thought about twisted my mind to wonder if everyone in the world was having incestuous sex. Then, when I read that incestuous sex was even happening on my beloved Brady Bunch show with mother fucking and sucking son, brother licking and fucking sister, and sister sucking and fucking brother, my life was turned upside down.
I couldn't help but wonder did President Johnson have sex with his daughters, Luci and Lynda? Did President Nixon have sex with his daughters, Julie and Tricia, in the White House? Did Jimmy Carter lust over his daughter, Amy, in the way that he lusted over the naked photos of women in Playboy. In the way that he did with Monica Lewinski, did President Clinton have cigar sex with Chelsea before she sucked Daddy's cock in the Oval Office? What about President Bush, being that he's from Texas, they all have incestuous sex down there, don't they? Surely, every man's dream, I wonder if he had incestuous sex with identical twins, albeit his daughters, Barbara and Jenna. I find it strangely bazaar that our last several presidents but for President Reagan who had a gay son, all had daughters instead of sons.
Oh dear God in Heaven say that it's not true but is the reason why the Osmond's look so very much alike is because of incestuous sex? Now I wonder the same about the Jackson family. Is the reason why Michael was so fucked up because he was having sex with his mother or sisters Latoya and Janet? Is Marie Osmond her brother Alan's daughter? Is Janet Jackson her brother Jackie's daughter? Is no family in America safe from the shame and the dirty little secret of incest? Are we all doomed to dance with the Devil in our incestuous ways?