How is someone's life? When one of their parent is not being around for most of their life. I know it's a terrible feeling, and I feel it every single day of my life. My dad is a recently retired soldier and had been posted in Afghanistan for last 17 years. He is someone for whom his duties, responsibilities and his Country always came first. He left for his duty when I was just 2 months old. I grew up without my dad being around me as he rarely visits us. However, my mom tried her best to provide me with everything.
I had all the things I wanted in my life, except my dad's love and care. He would visit us only once a year and that also for only 4 days. In my childhood, I was very upset with him for not staying with us. I started hating him for that reason. But with time, I grew up, and so did my maturity, and I started understanding things from a better perspective. My dad's situation started making more sense to me, and I realized what I had been doing with my father.
Three months' back, it was finally my 18th birthday. I was happy and was very much excited about my birthday. I don't have any friends, so I cannot celebrate by birthday with anyone except my parents. My dad promised me that he will be coming for my birthday, but he didn't. I really became sad and was really hurt by him. He has always done that, first he would make promises, and then he breaks it. I had to spend my birthday all alone with my mom. She also lost the excitement for my birthday, and it was the worst day of my life.
Last month, my dad told us that he has completed his tenure, and is coming back to live with us forever. The news made both me and mom happy and joyful. All my anger for him melt just like an ice in sunlight. My mom started decorating our home for his return. My dad is 38 years' old now, but being an army personnel, he was fit and muscular. He had a long face with an edge cutting jaw. He seemed much like a Hollywood star. I was really excited that finally I would be able to get my dad's love and affection.
Finally, the day of his arrival came. My mom and I went to the airport to receive him. He was waiting for us in the airport's cafeteria. That day my mom and I were also looking like some hot Hollywood chicks. We wore the best dresses from our wardrobe. I entered the cafeteria while mom was parking her car, and saw my dad standing there. I went from behind and gave him a tight hug. He turned towards me and lifted me with his strong arms, and hugged me. He kissed on my cheeks and said,
"How are you my little princess?" releasing me from his arms.
I looked him in the eyes and said, "I'm not at all good. I missed you so much."
He replied, "I missed you too, dear"
After sometimes my mom arrived in the Café and rushed towards him. They hugged for a long time and both started crying in each other's arm. We left for our home, my mom and I were very excited to show dad the decoration we had done for his return. I knew that he would like it, as he and I had same liking.
Soon, we reached home. My mom told me to stay in the car with him, and enter the house only when she told us to do. I put a blindfold on him and then took him inside. He opened his blindfold, and saw a gorgeously decorated house. My mom had made a special Chocolate delight cake for him. We sat together and ate the cake, listening to his war stories. He was really brave, and would always be in front field during a hazard. We listened to his awesome experience, and then he and mom went to their room to spend some good time.
My mom is not the prettiest woman in the world, but she had a quite good figure. My dad and mom are together for last 22 years, and I never saw them having a fight with each other. I cannot say if it is their love, or it's because they hardly spent much time together. Whatever the reason it maybe, I was very happy for them. I went to my room, and started making paintings, It's one of my favorite pastime.
Suddenly, I heard some noises coming from their room. It's seemed like they were having a heated argument over something. I went near their room and tried to hear the conversation more clearly. It was something related to him and mom's sexual life. I thought it was not a good idea to hear their talks, so I went back to my room and put my headphones on. I was really tensed about what had happened between them.
Likewise, I came out of my room in the evening. It was nearly dinner time. I was starving, so I directly sat on the dinner table. I heard the sound of vessels clanking from the kitchen. It meant that the food was ready. Soon, mom came out of the kitchen with serving bowls. She kept the serving bowls on the table and started serving our plates.
I asked her, "Where is dad, mom?"
She said in a sad voice, "He has gone out for dinner with his friends, and will come home late."
I felt anger and shouted, "Can't he spend some time with his family? He could have met his friends tomorrow."
Mom broke down, and tears started falling down her eyes. She whimpered, "No Ashley, it's not his fault. I made him angry this afternoon."
I asked in a confused but strong voice, "What happened in the afternoon mom? Actually, I heard some noises from your room."
She controlled her tears, and said, "It's a personal matter dear, and I don't want to drag you in our personal problems."
I went to her, and while moving my fingers through her hairs I said, "Come on mom, I am eighteen now, and can help you."
She softly said, "That's very nice of you, but I think me and your dad can manage this by ourselves. I love your dad, and he also loves me, so you don't get worried about all this."
Saying this she took her plate and went to the kitchen. I somehow finished my dinner, and went to help her with washing utensils.
I was feeling terrible about her. She was so excited for dad's return, and now he was treating her like shit. I knew that he won't be coming to home that day. I asked mom if I can sleep with her in her room. She said yes, and I joined her in the bed. She hugged me tight, and cried in my arms. I held her close to me, and helped her sleep. I just wanted her to be happy again, and I was ready to do whatever was needed for it.
The next day when sun was shining bright in the sky. I had already woke up and was making breakfast for all of us. Mom was not feeling well, so I told her to get some extra sleep. I also had made up my mind to ask dad why was he treating mom like this. It was both anger and my concern for Mom. I heard the main door unlock, and it was him. Dad came straight to the kitchen and asked me about mom.
I said, "Mom is not feeling quite well, so I am preparing breakfast for us."
He asked in a tensed tone, "What happened to her? Is she all right?"
I replied sarcastically, "Oh dad, so you don't know what has happened." He seemed confused, so I went straight to the point, and said, "Haven't you been treating mom roughly?"
His eyes became wet, and he replied in a shaking tone, "I didn't mean to treat her like that. Oh God, what have I done to my loving wife."
After finishing his words, he rushed towards his room. I followed him to his room. He sat down on his knees in front of mom and started crying out. Mom quickly came out of her bed and hugged him. He kissed mom's face for a thousand time, and promised that he will never do it again. My mom quickly forgave him, and they both spent some time in each other's arm.
I went down to kitchen, and prepared the food. Soon, both of them came down. Mom was now looking happy, and that smile had found his place on mom's face again. We ate breakfast and laughed and talked. Some days went like this happy and prosperous. However, they started having small issues between them. I tried to figured it out, but who in this world can give a solution without knowing the problem. It had now become very important for me to identify the difficulty and eradicate it.
On one morning, when I returned from the gym. I heard the noises again. It was again them. Suddenly, dad came walking down the stairs. He had anger on his face. He took his car keys and went out. I ran towards their room. Mom was again crying and sobbing. I approached her with open arms and, she submitted herself in my arms. I tried to make her stop crying, and as soon as she became okay.
I asked her, "What is it, mom? What's the reason you and dad keep on having fights?"
She took some time, but finally grumbled, "It's your dad, Ashley. I can no longer keep him happy with things."
I asked, "Exactly, What things, mom? Why can't you keep him happy?"
She confessed, "It's about our sexual life. Nowadays, I am no longer interested in having sex. He thinks that the reason I don't want to have sex with him, is because I don't love him anymore." She wiped her eyes, and said, "But only I know how much I love him."
I responded in a low voice, "I understand mom, it's not your fault, and it's neither dad's fault. It's completely okay if lose your sex drive, and it proves nothing about your love towards him."
She gained some confidence from my words, and further said, "You are right, but who will explain it to your dad. I don't know what to do. I think things are not going to work anymore." She stood up furiously, and went to her bathroom.
I couldn't believe what she said. Was she thinking of divorcing dad? I personally would have never let that happen, so I called my grandma(my mom's mother), and told her about all this. She said that she had seemed this type of situation before. It was about one of her old friend. She had also lost interest in sex, and could not keep his husband sexually pleased. I asked grandma to ask her friend for help. She proclaimed that she knew the solution. She further added that the whole problem lies on a single matter, and that's sex. If by any means he gets his sexual tension released, he would no longer behave like that. I couldn't understand what she meant to say, but before I could ask. She bombarded me with a word and that word was 'prostitute'. I said her that I will discuss it with mom. After hanging up the call; I ran towards mom's room.
I said in an excited voice, "Mom I just talked with grandma, and she has a solution for your problem."
She quoted, "You have a solution for my problem. Tell me fast what's the solution?"