We didn't speak for nearly a week. I didn't know if she was angry, confused, sad....or if she'd enjoyed it. I laid in bed those nights masturbating to the memory of the event. The fog of chlorine and sex in her darkened bedroom, the rubbery feel and taste of her nipples in my mouth, her hands exploring my body, the heat and wetness of us stuck together, moving as one. I could see her face, flushed in pleasure. I could see my penis moving in and out of the casually arranged garden of her fur. And I made my sheets sticky with semen. It was paint for the pictures in my head.
I started to call her, and she was distant. I got one or two word answers to questions, and full sentences were almost a luxury. Just a simple request to drop by on the way back from my favorite record store was met with excuse as to why I couldn't visit.
One day I simply showed up at her door. She was surprised and wary, but fully present. She looked clear, and was apparently not drinking. We talked in the doorway, with no invitation to enter proffered, and when I moved to kiss her as I left, she simply turned and offered her cheek.
But one day she asked if I'd be kind enough to get orange juice, butter, and potatoes if I was in the neighborhood at the record store. I was only too happy to handle that request. When I stopped at the apartment, she was dressed plainly in a dark blue knit top and black polyester pants, lightly made up, and with her hair pulled back. She looked healthy and good.
We made small talk, and I avoided landmines like Uncle Mac, dad, or the two of us. When I left, she kissed me face on, but when I tried to keep the kiss going and pull her closer, she pushed me back and said, "That'll be enough of that buster." And she actually smiled.
One Friday evening, she called and asked me to take her to a movie matinee on that Saturday. Of course I said yes, and when Saturday morning rolled around, having nothing to do, I left early to go to her apartment.
When I got there, and knocked, there was no answer. I called through the door, but then found it unlocked, and entered the apartment. I could hear the shower running, and looking around the apartment, I saw a man's jacket hung over one of the kitchen chairs.
I went to the door of the bathroom, and opened it to a cloud of steam. "Hi Mom, I'm a little early," I said. I looked at the clouded mirror to see her shape, to catch her naked, but could see nothing. But I could tell she was bathing alone.
"Oh hi honey," she said above the streaming water. "I'm just getting going."
I stood at the door and let the steam moisten my face. The heat was arousing. I don't know why I made the gamble I did. I stripped outside of the door, and went into the bathroom, and got in the shower.
I caught her with raised hands, massaging shampoo through her hair. She froze, and her mouth dropped open in surprise. She said, "What are you doing? You can't be in here. OUT!" She looked disturbed, irritated even, but not angry.
I took a moment to take in her nakedness. Her chest and breasts were reddened from the hot water stream of the shower head. Her nipples were swollen and claret colored, streams of water coming off them like waterfalls. Her skin was wet and slick as a seal, and her pubic hair was dangling and spread like seaweed around her Vulva.
I said quickly, "I'm taking a shower with you! Man that water feels good." I looked over at her again, standing speechless, but her eyes inventoried me, now wet and part of the bathing process. "Turn around and I'll wash your back," I said. And reluctantly...she did.