She'd spent most of that first year I was at college drunk and apparently angry at everything. Her divorce to dad was only about 18 months on now, but he had remarried, and she'd had problems with that. She drank more, and her phone calls were progressively less coherent.
On the other hand, college had been good to me the first year. I'd had sex a couple of times, and some of these events were really good, and highly instructional. When I came home for summer, I left all that behind for 3 months, so I was building up to a massively horny state.
As the summer moved on, I spent a fair amount of time at Mom's. By turns, she was sad, manic, argumentative, and at points, aggressive in her affections...even enticing. One night she'd tried to get me to stay over so we could grocery shop in the morning, and had asked for a "special kiss" before she'd let me leave. When I kissed her, there was a quick tracing of her tongue over my lips, and a drunken, glassy eyed smirk as I left. As I drove home, I found myself thinking, what just happened? Did she expect me to sleep on the sofa, or with her? And if I'd slept with her, would we have slept?
I next saw her on the Tuesday after the 4th of July holiday. I'd taken the day off, and with everyone doing something, I called Mom to see if I could help her with anything. She sounded pretty drunk, and worried, I went to her apartment.
When I got there she was in a thin robe, glass in hand, sitting on the sofa. She went to the fridge and came back with a cold beer, and gave it to me. As she came towards me, I was aware she was naked inside her robe. Her breasts bobbed and jiggled inside the thin fabric.
I asked her what was wrong, and she said angrily, "Uncle Mac (an affectionate name for her best friend's husband)! He only comes around to fondle me and see if I'll give him a blowjob."
My mouth dropped open in shock. In the wake of her marriage to dad, I'd not heard her ever say she was dating, and to hear this was even stranger. I asked her, "So...what happened?" She looked at me and said with disgust, "Oh...I sucked his stubby cock."
Then I was really shocked, and didn't pursue any other questions. Mom got up to go to the kitchen for another drink, and said, "Just once I'd like him to actually fuck me." This last statement blew my mind, as I'd simply not looked at my mom, especially as an alcoholic, as either sexy or sexual.
My mom had been an elegant woman prior to alcohol. She was about 5'6" and had the kind of shape that was not too much of anything at any place. As drink took her, she didn't put on weight, but she did get some abdominal bloating. I'd always tried to visualize her breasts, but she'd mostly worn dark colored knit tops, so it was hard to tell their size and shape. As she came back to me with her drink, I noticed her breasts again moving inside her robe, her nipples hard. She was laughing, and said, "Want to take a swim? Bet you could use something to cool you off. I know I could."
Because I kept swim trunks at her apartment, I said, "Sure." She told me to get changed, and headed to her bedroom to change. I went to get a glass of water, and as I walked back down the hall, I saw her standing in her darkened bedroom naked. From the rear, she had the semi soft ass of a 40+ year-old woman. She'd taken her hair out of the pony tail, and it fell to the middle of her back. She'd only closed the door ½ way, and I stood and watched her work into her bathing suit. I could feel my cock stir.
I went into the bathroom, and turned on the light, and pulled the door partially closed. Then I turned the light off. I don't know what possessed me, but I stripped and stood there in the dark naked. I heard her coming from the bedroom, and she paused at the door, and asked how I was coming. I put on my suit and joined her.
When we got to the pool, we found we had the area to ourselves. She had brought a cooler with OJ, Vodka, and beer for me. We fixed drinks and took turns swimming and sunning. At one point she asked me to put lotion on her back and the backs of thighs and legs. As I grabbed the bottle of lotion, she turned away from me and took her top down and laid flat. I got a glimpse of the supple skin of the sides of her breasts. The sun and the beer, and the sight of my Mom's bare back started a stirring in me.