We were giggling even before we got into the room and closed the door. All the way from the living room to our bedroom we were holding hands and trying to suppress the overwhelming sense of anticipation. Beside me Anjaly walked fast indicating an urgent need to get into the privacy of our room. I too kept pace and it took us less than half a minute to cover the varandha's half length to my room. God! The time it takes to go thro the motions of staying around for family time.
Out side there was a three quarter size summer moon. The air was sultry. Even here in Estate, the air was warm and moist at this time of the year. First heavy showers over, the plantation was about to get into full green. The coffee flowers were already into small seed stage. In a few days the landscape would erupt in fast growing grass. It had showered in the late evening. Crickets and night birds were active all over. Even the dark shades of giant evergreens had a friendly look in summer moon. Air reeked of the 'night queen'. Small but fiercely sweet smelling white flowers that grew wild all over the estate.
Inside the room, door closed and bolted we stood in dead silence. Breathing heavily. Giggles forgotten. Still holding hands. Without even turning on the light. Anjaly pulled me towards the window. Slowly parted the window curtains and peered thro' the glass.
The house was a big half rectangle. Built by a Scotsman in 1930s. The giant verandah connected everything and was the domestic life's artery. At the far end of the square U, we could see light. The boys were in to their room too. They must have moved out just after us. Last we saw them grandpa was telling them all about how he turned the bulk of the 600 acres from wilderness to the present day plantation. And they were both managing to look really interested. In spite of the umpteenth repetition. Budding coffee men. Soon to start work in the estate. My brother and Anjaly's brother were of almost the same age. Finishing Eng. college in another semester. Good hockey players. Enjoying their last free summer. And boy, we were into fun.
I could see Anj straining to see any movement on the verandah. Her super sized breasts pressing against the grills behind the window glass. No one. I have always felt kind of small beside her. At 19 she was older, bigger, and bossed over me. Even though I was only 6 months younger and not at all smaller. In fact I weighed a little more and had a body as good as hers. Played hockey for the school team and was streamlined on every fiber of my 5' 3' fair body. But she always reminded me, my breast size was not as good as hers. You must use the oil, she always said, the so-called ayurvedic preparation mom specifically recommended for the purpose. But I always thought I was firm and better shaped. An opinion the boys did not share. She always commanded more ogling. Even my conventional good looks did not give me an edge.
"Come here. Let them come when they want to", she pulled me to the bed. Her command was always near total. When we were alone she never let a doubt hang around as to who was in charge. I followed her without protest. She sat me on the bed and stood beside me.
"You will have to be careful, Do you know that?" . I nodded. I knew what she was referring to. Our society generally turned a blind eye to teen madness and fooling around. No one really supervised us when we went out with our cousins and brothers. No one asked difficult questions as long as sisters were accompanied by brothers. No matter who else was in the company. Even some physical contact was ok. Like when learning to swim and drive and coaching hockey. As long as borders were not crossed. No sex. Of the real kind. Girls must be virgins at marriage. They had their grapevine system to find out who is doing and not doing what. That had to be respected. In other words no real sex.
"Don't agree to everything they say. Have fun. But don't be stupid. Ok?" I nodded yes. "Ya.. never let them go all the way". Trying hard to suppress a giggle. She smacked me hard on the bottom. That was normal. In fact a smack was usually the beginning of more to come. "Don't laugh". She was holding me by the nape of my neck now.Standing over me like a boss.
I know I could easily over power her if I wanted to. Even wrestle her down if I put my mind to it. But I sort of enjoyed her make believe bossiness. Her right hand still holding me by the neck, she started opening the outer of my night suit. Made in mixed wool and silk, it provided the warmth where the inner was only a satin knee-length. Both front open with large buttons.
Her hands went down one slow button at a time until the outer piece lay open. She stood me up and sat on the bed. Made me stand right in front of her. Now both hands onto the buttons of the inner. "What if they come now?". Smack came the answer. Another one on the left bottom cheek with her right hand. "Don't move". I stood immobile. And her hands continued to move down and opened more buttons. My breasts stood exposed. Mango shaped. Pinkish brown nipples now hardening.
She held my hands. Both of them. In her left hand. With the back of her right hand she brushed my left nipple. And then the right. I could feel the tingling all over. She punched my flat belly lightly. Pulled a few silky hairs there."Ouch", I almost screamed. Further down and onto my pubic hair. Pulled down the panties in one quick motion. Unsaid commands to move up one leg first and then the other to free the panty. She put it under the pillow. A mild brushing over my long pubic hair with her right hand. The left still holding my hands. Like they brush down horses in movies. Her warm right hand came up again. In one quick brutal move she gripped my right breast. With her palm from the bottom and the fingers curling around just above the nipples. I bent down towards her. Almost making a crying noise. She held me there for a while. Both of us frozen in a silent tableau. Her mouth a thin line. With the lips drawn in. Enjoying every moment of her master role. I submitted like an obedient wife. Her hands moved to my left breast. Another grip that lasted a while. Then more on the right. Pulling towards her. Her left hand released my hands. The right held on to my breasts. One at a time.
She started unbuttoning her night suit with her left hand. Fast. In what seemed like seconds she had her breasts exposed. And pulling on my breasts, seated me on the bed. She stood in front of me her proud melons unloosened and the silent command. I suckled. As I always did when commanded to. One by one. Spending time on each. Moving my hands around her waist. Sucking hard but not biting on her nipples. She stood there without moving. Now both hands on my breasts in a firm grip. I couldn't see but I knew her eyes would be closed. Relishing the feeling when I suckled with smooth slow motion of tongue and lips.
Outside the mild knock was unmistakable. Inside, she let go of my breasts and pulled off her breasts from my mouth. Fast moving fingers buttoned up the night suits. And.. moving stealthily, she went and unbolted the door.. First crack open and then stood back to let them in. My brother came in first. My cousin followed.
I stood by the bed. No words were spoken. The door closed and both guys moved to the window. For a while both looked out thro' the window. Then stood back and looked at us. The only light filtering thro' thewindow curtain hardly enough to recognize faces. My cousin went back to the window and left the curtains pushed apart to both sides. The moon light made things a little lighter in the room.