It's been a long time I have seen my sister. She's married now. Lives in a far away place. Has kids. A husband she loves.
I haven't quite forgotten her though, my inability making me pine away endless nights alone. I had seen some women but none stayed in my mind the way Janey did.
She is beautiful. A flower.
It was not to be.
When I was young, I started to get these feelings about her. She would bat her eyelashes sexily at me as she did with everyone, and I would feel my hardness throbbing with insane desire.
Now, I have nothing but awkwardness. I masturbate thinking of her and just that.
Whenever I speak to her on the phone or when I visit I have to shackle myself from doing something I would regret later. She has a baby. I often fantasize I gave it to her. Sick thoughts, I know.
But I love the child. I imagine she was very happy concieveing it, my cock deep inside her pumping warm semen into her. She sucking it in like a woman about to explode with love for her master.
I was about twenty when I decided to talk to her about it. Went up to her room. Found her reading a book as she always did, her small frame coiled into a ball. I wanted to pick her up and give her a huge kiss, but I didn't, seeing how everyone was at home.
But Janey could tell I was there. She turned, at first a bit surprised and then smiled.
"What do you want?" she said, her eyes doing that sexy thing.
I wanted to tear off her clothes and make passionate love, but stuttered instead. Did I tell you I have developed a stutter around her?
She looked at me funny. "What's wrong? You look upset."
"No. Just wondering if I can use your computer," I lied sitting down at her desk so that my balls could relax.
She saw the bulge in my pants and looked away.
For a moment I said nothing, pretending to look around the internet for my class project. And she with her back to me went on reading her book.
It was a romantic thriller, a sex-filled story that made women wet in their pussies and very very sexy. I looked over her side to see what she was doing. She was in a curl, legs squeezed together as though to suck in the fluids.
I wanted to massage her tension, stroke her butt muscles so she would magically spread her legs and say, "MMMM....fuck me."
My mouth was salivating, my legs wider to let the dick breath. I bit my lips to keep from yelling.
And then she turned over.
"Is everything okay? Do you feel sick?" she leaned towards me and touched my forehead.
Instantly, I jumped back. It was an awkward jump, and as though she had understood me her eyes flowed to my bulge. I saw in her eyes a sense of horror and guilt. She pulled back.
My sister is four years older. I had seen her grow into a woman all these years, and I doubt she had ever thought of me as anything but a kid brother.