It's been a long time I have seen my sister. She's married now. Lives in a far away place. Has kids. A husband she loves.
I haven't quite forgotten her though, my inability making me pine away endless nights alone. I had seen some women but none stayed in my mind the way Janey did.
She is beautiful. A flower.
It was not to be.
When I was young, I started to get these feelings about her. She would bat her eyelashes sexily at me as she did with everyone, and I would feel my hardness throbbing with insane desire.
Now, I have nothing but awkwardness. I masturbate thinking of her and just that.
Whenever I speak to her on the phone or when I visit I have to shackle myself from doing something I would regret later. She has a baby. I often fantasize I gave it to her. Sick thoughts, I know.
But I love the child. I imagine she was very happy concieveing it, my cock deep inside her pumping warm semen into her. She sucking it in like a woman about to explode with love for her master.
I was about twenty when I decided to talk to her about it. Went up to her room. Found her reading a book as she always did, her small frame coiled into a ball. I wanted to pick her up and give her a huge kiss, but I didn't, seeing how everyone was at home.
But Janey could tell I was there. She turned, at first a bit surprised and then smiled.
"What do you want?" she said, her eyes doing that sexy thing.
I wanted to tear off her clothes and make passionate love, but stuttered instead. Did I tell you I have developed a stutter around her?
She looked at me funny. "What's wrong? You look upset."
"No. Just wondering if I can use your computer," I lied sitting down at her desk so that my balls could relax.
She saw the bulge in my pants and looked away.